#lostutter

Usually when I get a call its a call to rip me a new asshole for some sort of battle I am fighting with trolls on the internet, but tonight was different. We actually sat down, and talked to the roots of my mentality, and why I felt I had to fight everyone. 1) I am my own problem. Im responsible for giving these trolls the time of day, and an audience, and it stops now.

2) The movie isnt about me, but through my actions I have made some feel I feel that way, The movie is about the horrifying attack on a young lady, who survives an attempt to cover it up, upon which I played a small part in helping stop their actions. Its about her. Her bravery, Her survival.

3) I fight with people out of habit, I fight with people growing up for survival, defense, and sometimes I need to learn when I walk away, I win.

4) They dont exist when the laptop is off, so unplug.  I formally apologize for everything ive done to discredit my humility thus far, as ive struggled with the alchoholism, I have also suffered a stranger addiction, an addiction to be validated by who I ever speak to, and being a public figure, that person is you. Its a problem that I feel I need to prove every aspect of everything to you, instead of just letting you decide for yourself. I apologize for that, and hope to regain your trust not only as supporters, but as friends. 

-Thank you.

Deric Lostutter