There's nothing worse than going after something positive and ending up feeling so much negativity revolving your goal.
I started Fiercely Favored in hopes of creating a community of believers with scars and difficult stories. I asked my younger brother to help with graphics for the shirts and to make the logo. He suffered with alcoholism and apparently depression. He was traveling the road of living a toxic, verbally ,and mentally abusive relationship.
My brother grew up with me and I know the awful history or our childhood, as I healed and grew, he drank and stewed. To his shit life stew he added a baby momma that was totally dedicated to making babies and living in her own toxicity and the truth is I'm bias so I'll keep the details of their life limited.
My brother committed suicide in September 2022. He shot himself in the head in his closet, although graphic, it speaks to the devastation that I am experiencing. He lived a life so full of tragedy but was so talented and inspirational to many. It tears my heart to pieces to k ow it ended as a tragic story instead of the way I envisioned.
I started this story it started with disruption to goals and when I started my company I had such a deep desire to help others and when my brother left I lost a piece of my heart. It set me off course.
I began a downward spiral for 4 months nearly giving up all I worked for right alongside my brother. I was definitely a willing participant to my own demise at that time.
God did not let me go. He planted blessings in my life that made it impossible for me to quit and He revealed Himself to me by giving me dreams and signs. I thank God that my heart always remains soft enough for Him to make himself known to me in my times of pain.
Today I have rededicated myself to bringing the lost sheep of God together in a community that they can feel comfortable in.
In my next blog I will detail the next step in this amazing story of redemption for Fiercely Favored and a person that is a true believer and working to help us understand the first steps of reentry and recovery with God on her side.
