#lost without him

I'm not enough.

if he told me he loved me, i wouldnt have to worry that i was unloved

It's hard knowing you're gone. I don't get to hold your hand when I go down town, I don't get to hug you or hold you when I come home from school. I don't get to see your car parked outside the school with you standing next to it waiting for me. I can't look out the window without getting my hopes up that you're on your way to pick me up. It's only been a day but it sucks because everyday without you is another day of me being in hell. I went through hell once to be with you and I'll do it again. It just hurts not having you here with me. I can't kiss you and see you smile at me. I can't hold your hang while we drive somewhere or listen to music with you or watch you work on your car. I'm missing a whole part of me. Everyday that you're away is just one day closer to your return. Even when you're back you're not back for long. What will I do without you in my arms. You're What keeps me going. You're what keeps me breathing another day. I love you baby. Don't forget that.

*Does happy dance* He's coming home early!! He's coming home early!!! My most favourite person in the whole world is finally coming home a day early!!!

Having a friend that recognizes your struggles, and calls when things are not going well is the most uplifting feeling. Andrew brought me to tears tonight, because he recognized how far I have come as an individual and how hard I have worked to be where I am. He sees how hard it is for me to be who I am, and how hard I work to make sure everyone around me is okay. He told me he wished that I had more time to do things that I wanted to do. He sees that I need more 'me time.' I don't know. I just appreciate having him in my life.

Even after an awful day he still puts a smile on my face!