I just scrolled through my entire tumblr page. I have been feeling a little down with everything going on in the world. Going back to the start here was eye opening. To see how far I have come. To see the struggles that weighed so heavy on my shoulders that I tackled. To see my relationship with food change completely for the better. I’m not even close to that girl years ago. I was so hard on myself for everything.

It’s a gift I didn’t know I was giving my future self. A scrap book of who I am and what I have accomplished. A paper trail of watching me become strong and confident in who I am. For days like today where you question who and where you are.

“Everything I have ever let go of has claw marks on it” -David Foster Wallace.

Well Tumblr. I have lost nearly 30 pounds. That’s about 6 chihuahuas if my math is right. 🤷🏻‍♀️ I am the happiest, healthiest and strongest I have ever been or even knew was possible for me. I don’t know if this will make any sense to anyone out there but I genuinely feel like I’m becoming ME for the first time in my life. Not the lost girl before I gained the weight or the sad girl when I carried the weight but this girl right here. I like her a whole lot.

WHO IS THIS GIRL.

I can’t stress this enough. The non-scale victories are always better than what you want that scale to say. I have gone from avoiding anything that showed my body, wearing baggy non- revealing clothes to this. Let alone not being afraid of what the camera would show me.