#lorelei posting

Yesterday was. Wild. We tried to reach out to someone at around like 6 AM. Just a comment on a YouTube channel we remembered we were still subscribed to. We just wanted to apologize for getting him kicked from a server on accident (long story), but we were okay with just saying “hope you’re well :))” because we didn’t want to intrude too much. Admittedly, we did also message a dead Tumblr account with more context before we remembered the YouTube. He definitely blocked our channel, but- we can accept that. We’re devastated, but we haven’t spoken in five years, and we weren’t the greatest teenagers to ever live. He deserves to be left alone after clearly showing he wants to be. It’s hard, but it’s selfish to try again.

Dunno who needs to hear this, but we can’t imagine we are alone in this feeling. You are not your past. You are not the person who hurt people, you are not the person who lost people because you hurt them with your pain. You didn’t understand it then, you didn’t fully grasp what you were doing. It was all you knew. It’s awful that people suffered because of your scars, but the fact that you carry such a heavy weight even now shows just how much you regret it. That doesn’t change the past, that doesn’t earn you forgiveness from others, but you do not deserve to suffer. You do not deserve to die. You need to forgive yourself. You need to love yourself. It will take time, you’ll probably struggle with it your whole life, but you still deserve a life. You’re not that wounded caterpillar anymore, you are a butterfly.

Wishes for the Ocarina of Time remake that probably won’t happen.

Everyday should be like this. Peace and love on planet Earth.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/86915851/chapters/230105516