1 - dark chocolate

a couple weeks ago i had a night where i couldn't go to sleep for hours because of one itchy eye and ended up only getting one or two hours of actual sleep (if you could even call it that). during that night my neck suddenly stopped being able to bend backwards as much and it has not fully recovered since. i've been rolling my neck around (sometimes trying to extend the maneuver lower in my spine) frequently since then to see if it'll finally get my vertebrae to go back to normal and while i have had multiple times where i felt a large shift from one of my joints it doesn't seemed to have helped much more than if i had left it alone. this may be making my spine worse actually i don't know

i'll also be going into therapy again but i'm pessimistic about that cause last time i went my therapist did literally nothing useful and unless i can find a therapist who like is trans or autistic that willlll probably remain the case. maybe my distrust of psychiatry is misfounded but idgaf i'm not risking outing myself unless i know i will get something useful out of it