#lookingatthefuture

I have been away for quite some time because I feel like my life is not working out the way I wanted. I feel like all I've done since graduating from high school and taking the college test was making bad decisions, one after the other.

Instead of enrolling in the university, I decided to do a 2-year training cycle at a lower level than I could have chosen. I attended it, initially, to help my former boyfriend to get some study to be able to work. In that course I realized that I love programming, developing a program from scratch, seeing how it works and that it fulfills what you wanted is a great satisfaction. At that moment, I decided to do the crazy thing to study Computer Engineering. And you will think: And what is the problem? Well, the bachelor that I studied was not the one in science, I did the bachelor of Social Sciences. And when I came across math and physics ... My brain went: BOOM!!!, I managed to pass math after studying it for 4 months at all hours, which made me neglect everything else. In addition, the University was online and there were not even recorded class videos, it was like a very expensive apprenticeship.

Talking to my brother, I decided to do a 2-year training cycle in electricity, because he told me that in that we programmed automatons, and since it was in person… I said to myself: Nothing can go wrong! HA!!, and life spat in my face. I'm still finishing the course, I'm in my senior year but I really HATE IT. I don't like anything, I feel super unmotivated because I'm studying something that I'm not passionate about...

And that's why I've stayed away from Tumblr until now. I still feel unmotivated to be studying electricity (because I don't like it), but I have signed up for English classes to obtain the Cambridge B2 certificate and I have decided that next year I will study what I really like, which is program. So I am going to look to the future and I will think that within 1 year I will be studying Multiplatform Application Development and I will be learning a programming language in view of the future.

So here we go again. I hope all of you can help me a little not to feel so… Demotivating? I dont know... But thanks 

I turn 27 in 17 days, 27... I should be out partying, going to night clubs every weekend and doing regrettable things with people I will never remember the names of... Or should I??

Instead I am spending my nights working on an internet start up, studying a Bachelors Degree and managing a small (but so far profitable) stock portfolio.

Do I regret my decisions to be this way? No! My end goal is to put in the work now so in the future I will be able to savior the good things this life can offer. I want to be able to spend the Australian Summer at home, working from my kitchen trading shares and managing my own business, I want to spend the winters in Monaco, or the Greek islands, I want work to consist of opening my laptop and seeing what the markets are doing, what my business is doing and then going for a swim.