Ashes Of Us
CHAPTER THIRTY NINE: The First Real Date
Summary: You and Logan share your first official dateâfilled with laughter, tender kisses, and quiet moments under the starsâdeepening your connection and leaving both of you breathless and smitten.
Friday arrived with the kind of nervous excitement that made the world feel brighter. Even the morning felt different. The air warmer. Jackson quieter. People smiling more.
At least you felt like they were.
Because today⌠today wasnât just another walk, or patrol, or accidental moment.
It was your first official date with Logan. And your stomach had been flipping since you woke up.
---*****---
Logan spent the morning pacing inside his house.
Actually pacing.
Which, for him, was basically an emotional meltdown.
He had something planned â something simple, thoughtful, very him â and he kept checking his bag every ten minutes to make sure everything was still inside.
The blanket. The food he packed. The polished compass he had borrowed from Tommy because he said he âwanted to show you something.â Even the flowers he found near the stables (he didnât know why he grabbed it, he just⌠did).
He practiced what he was going to say. Then realized that practicing made him sound stupid. Then tried to stop thinking about what to say. Then got nervous again because what if he didnât say something?
He ran a hand through his hair for the tenth time.
âYouâre being ridiculous,â he muttered to himself.
His horse snorted in agreement from the stall.
Logan groaned.
But he couldnât help it. This wasnât just a date. This was you. And he wanted to get it right.
---*****---
You tried to act casual about the date.
Really, you did.
You tried reading. You tried cleaning up your room. You tried helping Maria with Benji for a bit.
Nothing worked.
Every five seconds, your thoughts drifted back to him.
What would he wear? Where were you going? Would he hold your hand the whole time? Would he kiss you again at the end of the night?
Your stomach fluttered every time.
Finally, you quit pretending and decided to get ready early.
You took a shower, trying to calm your heartbeat. You picked an outfit three times before settling on one. You brushed your hair, then messed it up a little because âtoo neatâ didnât feel like you.
You stood in front of the mirror in your room, looking at the refection like it was life-or-death decisions. You werenât even sure Logan would care what you wore â he seemed like the type whoâd say youâd look pretty in a potato sack â but still. It mattered. Tonight mattered.
And thenâEllie walked in. Without knocking.
She stopped dead in the doorway.
You froze in the middle of adjusting your hair.
Ellieâs eyes went wide. Her jaw dropped. Then she grinned. âOooooohhhh my god.â
You sighed. âEllieââ
âNo, no, no, donât even start.â She leaned against the doorframe, smirking. âYou look like youâre going on a date with⌠I donât know⌠a guy named Logan.â
âEllie.â
âYou literally curled your hair.â
âItâs natural!â
âYouâre putting on lip balm.â
âMy lips are dryââ
âOh, sure,â she said dramatically. âDry. Totally. Not because youâre about to make out with lover boy again.â
Your face heated. âELLIE!â
Ellie howled. âYouâre blushing! Oh my god, youâre so gone for him.â
âEllie, please.â
âNope. Not a chance.â She walked around you, inspecting every detail. âYou look good. Like⌠weirdly good. Joelâs gonna have a heart attack.â
You groaned.
She poked your cheek. âDonât worry. Iâll stand between you two if he tries to shoot Logan.â
âEllie!â
âIâm kidding. Mostly.â
She stepped back and crossed her arms, proud.
âOkay. Show me the outfit. Spin.â
âNo.â
âSpin or Iâm telling Joel youâre nervous.â
You spun.
Ellie whistled. âDamn. Loganâs not making it home sane tonight.â
You covered your face. âI hate you.â
âNo you donât.â She tugged your arms down. âYouâre excited. Admit it.â
You swallowed. Then nodded. âOkay,â you whispered. âYeah. I am.â
Ellie softened.
Really softened.
âAww.â She leaned her head on your shoulder. âHeâs good. Heâs⌠good for you.â
You looked at her. âYeah?â
âYeah.â She nudged you. âJust donât let him get too cocky about it.â
You snorted. âIâll try.â
Ellie patted your arm dramatically. âAlright, my work here is done. Letâs go downstairs.â
You took one last breath. One last look in the mirror. Then followed her.
Your heart hammering. Your hands trembling. Your whole body buzzing with anticipation.
You came downstairs fixing your sweater when Joel looked up from his coffee.
His eyebrows climbed just a little. âYou goinâ somewhere?â he asked casually â too casually.
Ellie answered for you, of course. âSheâs going on a date. With Logan.â
Joel blinked slowly.
Then turned his head toward you. Then toward Ellie. Then back to his coffee like it had personally betrayed him.
âA date,â he repeated, voice flat.
You braced yourself.
He set his mug down. âHe pickinâ you up?â
âYes,â you said. âAnd please donât be weird about it.â
âIâm not beinâ weird,â Joel argued defensively.
âNo, youâre beinâ prehistoric,â Ellie muttered.
Joel glared at her. âI know where you sleep.â
Ellie grinned. âYou already threatened me twice this morning. Make it three.â
You stepped forward and squeezed Joelâs arm. âIâll be fine.â
He sighed, shoulders loosening.
âYou look nice,â he finally said, quiet, honest. âReally nice.â
You rolled your eyes. âThanksâ
Ellie gagged loudly. âCan we not have a wholesome dad talk right before her date?â
Joel flicked her forehead.
There was a knock.
Your stomach flipped.
Ellie sprinted to the door before you could stop her.
She opened it wide and announced, âSheâs upstairs having a mental breakdownâoh hey Logan.â
Logan stood there in a clean shirt, hair slightly messy like he tried to fix it but gave up halfway. He held a small bunch of flowers, awkward and sweet.
When he looked up when you reached the door, he froze.
Absolutely froze.
Like heâd forgotten how to human.
His eyes widened, softened, warmed â all at once. âWow,â he breathed.
You felt heat crawl up your neck. âWhat? Is something wrong?â
Logan shook his head so fast his hair fell over his eyes.
âNo. No, you just⌠you look beautiful.â His voice was quiet, sincere, almost reverent.
You forgot how to breathe for a second.
âFor you,â he said shyly.
Your breath caught. âLogan⌠theyâre beautiful.â
âTheyâre weeds,â Ellie whispered.
âShut up,â Logan whispered back.
Joel stepped into view behind you. Logan straightened like a soldier.
âJoel,â he greeted.
âBe back before it gets dark.â
âOh my god, Dadââ you said.
âOkay.â Logan replied.
Joel stared him down for two full seconds. Then nodded once.
Logan exhaled like he survived a war.
He led you toward the stables first. âWhere are we going?â you asked.
âYouâll see.â
He helped you up onto a horse, then climbed on behind you, arms gently bracketing your waist but not quite touching unless you leaned back.
You didnât realize how warm he was until you did.
The ride was slow, quiet, peaceful. Jackson spread out behind you, sunlight bouncing off the rooftops, the crisp scent of pine in the air.
After twenty minutes, he stopped by a small clearing near the river â a place youâd never seen.
A blanket was already laid out. Two cups. And a small thermos.
âYou planned this?â you asked, stunned.
âI, uh⌠yeah.â He rubbed the back of his neck. âBeen workinâ on it all week. Wanted it to be special.â
He poured warm tea for both of you, hands a little shaky.
You sat on the blanket, shoulder brushing his.
For a long moment, neither of you spoke.
The river ran steady. Birds chattered. Loganâs breath hitched the slightest when your knee touched his.
He finally said, âI know itâs silly, but I wanted our first date to be something calm. Something you deserve.â
âItâs perfect,â you whispered.
His eyes softened in relief.
For a while, the two of you just⌠talked.
He told you about growing upâlittle memories heâd never shared before.
You told him about books Joel used to read, about nights where the two of you talked about constellations, about Ellieâs attempts at poetry that she absolutely did not want anyone reading.
He laughed so hard at that his whole body shook against yours.
Every time you spoke about something you loved, he listened with his whole heartâeyes soft, body angled toward you, hand occasionally brushing your knee or your arm. He wasnât doing it to push boundaries. It was unconscious. Natural. Sweet.
He told a funny story when he was new to jackson that made you laugh very hard. You shoved his shoulder. He laughed, leaning into you playfully but stopping when your faces were inches apart.
The laughter faded between breaths. Warmth rose slowly in your cheeks.
His hand stopped halfway to your cheek, giving you time to pull away.
You didnât. You leaned in. And Logan closed the distance.
The kiss was slow â the kind that begins timid, warm, sweet⌠then deepens when you both realize you donât have to hold back.
His hand cupped your jaw gently, his thumb brushing your cheekbone. Yours slipped up to his shoulder, then to the back of his neck.
He exhaled a shaky breath against your mouth, pulling you closer, hand sliding behind your waist. Your fingers curled into the front of his shirt, pulling him in without even thinking about it.
When you parted, you were breathless. He was too.
Logan pressed his forehead to yours, smiling in that lopsided, helpless way that made your stomach flutter violently.
âYâkeep kissinâ me like that,â he murmured, âand I ainât gonna remember how to walk home.â
You laughed against his lips, kissing him again because you could, because he wanted you to, because he was looking at you like there was nothing else in the universe worth seeing.
When you finally pulled back, you were both smiling like idiots.
The next kiss wasnât shy.
It deepened slowly, like warm water rising. Loganâs hand cupped the back of your neck; your fingers brushed his jaw. He kissed you with careful growing confidence, lips parting, breaths mingling.
You shifted closer, your knee brushing his thigh, and he let out a soft, low sound into your mouthâsurprised and warm and almost embarrassed by his own reaction.
He pulled back for just a second, checking. Always checking.
âYou okay?â he whispered.
âYes,â you breathed.
That was all he needed.
The next kiss was deeperâstill gentle, still respectful, but undeniably hungry. His fingers slipped into your hair as your hands clutched at his shirt, pulling him closer until your bodies were pressed together from shoulder to knee.
Minutes blurred. Your hearts beat in sync.
And when you finally separated, both of you breathless, his smile was pure wonder.
âDamn,â he whispered. âHow am I supposed to top this on date number two?â
You laughed, forehead pressing to his.
âYouâll figure it out.â
âHate to break it to you,â he murmured, kissing your nose, âbut Iâm already gone. Completely gone.â
His thumb brushed your cheekbone, slow, tender, a little reverent. And thenâhe dipped closer again. Not to your lips this time.
To your neck.
The first kiss he pressed to your neck wasnât deep, wasnât rushed. It was soft. Testing. Almost shy, but with a warmth that rolled all the way through you.
Your eyes fluttered shut.
The second kiss was lower, slower⌠lingering.
His still a faint shadow of a beard growing in again, that delicate roughness catching lightly against your neck. It sent a warm shiver down your spine.
A small sound escaped youâuncontrolled, surprised, a soft little inhale that could absolutely be called a moan.
Logan froze instantly. Like completely.
You felt his breath stall against your skin.
His fingers tightened slightly on your waist, not pulling, not pushingâjust reacting instinctively to the sound you made.
He lifted his head just enough to look at you, cheeks flushed, pupils wide and dark.
âDid IâŚ?â His voice was low, unsure, careful. âWas that⌠okay?â
You nodded, breath uneven, fingers still tangled in the hair at the nape of his neck.
âThat was⌠more than okay.â
His smile was crooked and a little stunned. âGood,â he whispered, his forehead dropping to your shoulder for a moment as he tried to catch his breath. âBecause Iâve been wanting to do that since the second you walked down those damn stairs tonight.â
Your heart flipped.
He lifted his head again, eyes soft but unmistakably drawn back to your neckâlike he was trying not to stare but couldnât help it.
âCan IâŚ?â he asked quietly.
You didnât say yes with words.
You tilted your head.
His breath hitched againâbecause youâd just given him permission in the quietest, clearest way.
This time when his lips met your neck, they were confidently slow. Warm. Certain.
He traced a soft path along your skin, each kiss melting deeper, the stubble of his growing beard brushing gently, sending waves of heat curling low in your stomach. You breathed out a trembling sigh, fingers curling tighter into his shirt.
âGod,â he murmured against your skin, voice rougher than before, âyouâre killing me.â
You let out a soft laugh that melted into another breathy sound when he kissed a little higher, just below your jaw.
Later, you and Logan lay on your backs on the blanket, shoulders touching, staring up at a sky scattered with stars thick as powdered sugar.
âWhat do you think is up there?â he asked.
âStars,â you said.
He snorted. âWow. Deep.â
You laughed, nudging him. âOkay, fine. I used to think there were stories in the stars.â
âStories?â
âYeah.â You pointed up. âThat one looks like a horse.â
âThat looks like a blob,â Logan corrected.
âYou have no imagination.â
âI have plenty of imagination. I just donât see a horse.â
âHereââ You grabbed his hand, lifted it, guided his finger. âHead. Neck. Legs. Tail.â
He squinted. âOooh. Okay. I kinda see it.â
âKinda?â
âMaybe-ish.â
You groaned dramatically, dropping his hand. âYouâre hopeless.â
âIâm selectively imaginative.â
âThatâs not a thing.â
âIt is now.â
You turned your head on the blanket, face inches from his.
He whispered, âI like seeing you like this.â
âLike what?â
âHappy.â
The word hit you somewhere deep.
You swallowed. âI like being happy with you.â
He moved closer, his hand finding yours again, fingers intertwining naturally. âCan I tell you something kind of embarrassing?â he asked quietly.
âYes.â
He exhaled. âI havenât been this happy in a long time.â
You squeezed his hand. âMe either.â
The silence that followed wasnât empty â it was full. Warm. Soft. Safe.
---*****---
He held out his hand to help you upâgentle, respectful, but his palm lingered against your waist once you were in the saddle as if he couldnât quite let go.
Then he swung up behind you, body aligning with yours, chest warm against your back, arms bracketing you as he reached for the reins.
You swallowed hard.
He felt big like this. Solid. Warm. And completely wrapped around you.
He clicked his tongue, and the horse started walkingâslow and steady, each step rocking you gently against him.
The night felt quieter than usual. Even the wind seemed to hush around the two of you.
The saddle creaked softly. The reins jostled. Your hair brushed his jaw every so often, and each time Logan inhaled like it was instinct.
You felt him smile into your shoulder.
âAre you still thinking about the date?â he asked softly.
âYes.â You leaned back slightly. âAre you?â
He hummed. âCanât stop.â
For a while, neither of you talked. The rhythm of the ride, the quiet night, the warmth between your bodiesâit all blended into something soft, comforting, intimate.
The horse slowed as he loosened the reins, letting her walk on her own. His free hand rose, fingers brushing the side of your neck, tracing the line to your jaw.
He leaned in, chin brushing your cheek, breath mixing with yoursâ
But before his lips touched yoursâthe horse snorted loudly.
You jumped. Loganâs forehead thunked lightly against yours. He groaned.
âSheâs jealous,â you murmured.
He buried his face in your shoulder and laughed, voice vibrating against you. âUnbelievable.â
âItâs okay,â you smiled. âTry again.â
He kissed you.
Soft. Unhurried. Perfect.
His hand cupped your jaw, thumb brushing your cheek, pulling you deeper against him. The horse kept walking, leaving you both swaying in rhythm, locked in the sweetest slow kiss of your life.
When he finally pulled back, your breath had fogged the cold air between you.
Logan whispered, almost reverentlyââYou undo me.â
Your heart nearly burst.
When you reached your house, the porch light was still on â Joelâs doing, no doubt.
Logan slowed, rubbing the back of his neck. âSo⌠I guess this isââ
You stood on your toes and kissed him once more â soft, lingering, perfect.
He inhaled like youâd stolen the air from his lungs.
âI had an amazing night,â you said.
âMe too.â He smiled, shy and radiant. âIâll see you tomorrow?â
âTomorrow.â
He took a few steps backward, unable to stop looking at you. âGoodnight baby.â
âGoodnight, Logan.â
He eventually forced himself to turn and walk away, but every few steps he glanced back like he couldnât help it.
You watched until he disappeared down the road. Only then did you turn toward the porch, cheeks flushed, heart tumbling, lips still warm from all the kissing.
Tonight⌠tonight had been perfect.
You stepped quietly into the house, careful not to trip over the uneven floorboards, your heart still fluttering from the lingering warmth of Loganâs kisses. The faint scent of his cologne clung to your clothes, mingling with the subtle aroma of the fire Joel had lit earlier.
âFinally,â a deep, familiar voice called out from the doorway. Joel stood there, arms crossed, eyebrows knit in that fatherly suspicion that always made your chest tighten. âItâs dark. You shouldâve been back earlier.â His tone was firm, but there was that unmistakable edge of worry lurking beneath it.
You froze mid-step, cheeks heating. âUh⌠yeah, I justâlost track of time,â you mumbled, your words a little breathless, still carrying the afterglow of your date.
Joel exhaled sharply, hands landing on his hips. âWell, âŚbut next time, donât stay out so late. Darkâs no good, and⌠you know Iâm just sayinâ.â He gave you that âIâm worried but trying not to admit itâ glare, the one that always melted your resolve.
âOkay, I promise,â you said softly, leaning against the doorframe.
Joel shook his head, muttering under his breath, âSome things never changeâŚâ before finally letting his shoulders relax and giving you a small, approving nod. âGo get some sleep, sweetheart. But, uh⌠careful out there. Got it?â
You smiled, stepping past him, heart still fluttering from both the date and Joelâs subtle approval. âGot it, Dad.â
You tiptoed down the hall toward Ellieâs room, the house was quiet, soft shadows stretching across the walls from the fire in the living room.
You knocked lightly on her door. âEllie?â
âYeah?â she called, her voice muffled but curious.
You pushed it open and slipped inside. Ellie was sitting cross-legged on her bed, half-heartedly scrolling through a book, clearly expecting you. Her eyes lit up immediately when she saw you.
âSo? How was it?â she asked, leaning forward, resting her chin on her fists. âCome on, donât leave me hanging!â
You sat on the edge of her bed, heart still fluttering. âIt⌠was really nice. Better than I expected, actually.â
Ellie raised an eyebrow. âBetter than you expected? Ooooh, someoneâs smitten.â She leaned back, smirking, âCâmon, spill! What did he do? Was it romantic? Did he kiss you? Did you kiss him?â
Your cheeks warmed instantly. âEllie!â you hissed, though a grin was tugging at your lips. âWe⌠we kissed. A lot. And talked, and walked⌠it was just⌠really sweet.â
Ellieâs eyes widened, and she let out a low whistle. âA lot of kissing, huh? Sounds like someone had a good time.â
âI did,â you admitted, unable to hide the smile. âIt felt⌠easy, you know? Comfortable, but also exciting. Like I could just⌠be myself.â
Ellie grinned and flopped back on her bed. âI canât wait to hear more.â
Sitting there in her room, sharing a quiet moment after a perfect date, you realized how lucky you wereânot just with Logan, but with having family and friends who cared enough to tease and celebrate with you.
You stayed a little longer, talking softly, laughing at little things, letting the warmth of the night and the glow of your date settle around you.
---*****---
It was a calm, sunlit afternoon, the air was lighter than it had been for weeks, the early spring sun filtering through soft clouds and warming the streets of Jackson just enough to make the chill from the morning breeze bearable. You walked toward Mariaâs house, your steps quickened by the small excitement in your chestâthe kind that only comes from sharing something precious with someone you care about.
You pushed open the door, and Benjiâs tiny coos and gurgles reached you first. He was lying on the changing table, wide-eyed and fascinated by the ceiling fan above him, while Maria knelt beside him, gently rocking his tiny hands back and forth.
âHey!â you said softly, stepping in. âHi, little man.â
Benji wriggled slightly, cooing again, and you crouched to his level. âYou growing so fast, arenât you?â you whispered. He responded with a little squeak that made you laugh. Maria smiled, catching your eye.
âLook at him,â she said, brushing a stray lock of hair from her face. âAll alert and curious already. Heâs going to be trouble someday.â
âTrouble,â you repeated with a grin. âSounds about right.â
You straightened up and took a seat across from her at the small table in the kitchen, watching her fuss over him. The domestic sceneâsoft, warm, and ordinaryâfelt comforting in a world where ordinary had become rare.
âSo,â Maria said with a playful smirk, âI hear someone went on a date recently?â
You froze, a small blush creeping onto your cheeks. âUh⌠yeah,â you admitted, tucking a strand of hair behind your ear. âIt went⌠really well.â
Maria leaned forward, her interest immediately piqued. âTell me everything. I want details.â
You laughed nervously, your fingers drumming on the table. âWell⌠it was sweet. He planned it really nicely, everything felt⌠thoughtful. We went out into the evening, just the two of us. There were candles, a picnic, laughter, and⌠well, some kisses.â
Mariaâs eyes widened, and she gave a low whistle. âKisses, huh? My first real date was nowhere near that fancy.â
You looked at her curiously. âOh? What happened?â
She leaned back, settling Benji in the crook of her arm so he could nap against her chest. âI was in high school, back when the world was⌠normal. Can you imagine that?â She laughed softly, a nostalgic smile on her face. âI was terrified, of course. My first date⌠he picked me up in his dadâs old car, rusty and rattling more than it should, and we went to see a movie. I thought I had to impress him, so I wore my best dress and tried to act coolâbut I spent the whole night worrying about what to say.â
You giggled. âYou worried about what to say?â
She nodded. âOh, yes. And then after the movie, we walked a little in the park. I remember⌠he tried to hold my hand, but I panicked and pretended to tie my shoelace. Finally, I looked up, and he was smiling, really smiling, and I just⌠let it happen. My first real kiss happened right there, under a streetlight, and I was mortified and thrilled all at once.â
You leaned back, smiling softly. âI think I know that feeling. Itâs⌠amazing and terrifying at the same time.â
Mariaâs gaze softened as she looked at you. âExactly. But itâs worth it.â
Your fingers absentmindedly brushed across the table, and a small smile tugged at your lips. âI donât know⌠it just feels natural. And⌠heâs patient. Even when I get⌠caught up in my head or nervous about things, he just⌠stays.â
Mariaâs eyes glimmered with understanding. âThatâs how you know itâs real. And you deserve that.â
The conversation drifted for a while, gentle and comforting, as you shared little stories about the ride youâd taken, how Logan had made you laugh until your cheeks hurt, how the stars had felt impossibly close that evening. You laughed together, sharing memories and soft confessions, the kind that knit hearts closer.
Benji let out a tiny squeak, interrupting your stories, and you bent over him, cradling his tiny hands. âAnd you, mister, are going to have so many stories to hear someday. Just like us.â
Maria chuckled, brushing a stray hair from his forehead.
The afternoon passed slowly, filled with soft laughter, whispered confidences, and the gentle hum of domestic life. You and Maria swapped storiesâfirst dates, little awkward moments, and big, sweeping feelingsâwhile Benji napped between the two of you, oblivious to the world but somehow making it feel safer, warmer, and brighter.
You left later that afternoon with a light heart, the spring sun warming your back, thinking about how different life could be and yet how these small, precious moments made it perfect. The thought of Logan waiting for you, the quiet thrill of love that didnât feel rushed, and the softness of the day lingered with you as you walked home, humming quietly to yourself.
---*****---
The sun had dipped low over Jackson, bathing the streets in golden light, and you walked briskly down the familiar path toward Loganâs house. In your hands, you carried a simple wooden tray covered with a clothâsomething warm and freshly made, the smell of spices and baking clinging faintly to your fingers. You had spent the afternoon in a flurry of flour and mixing bowls, wanting to do something nice for him, a small gesture to show you were thinking of him.
You reached his door, and with a soft exhale, lifted your hand to knock. The door swung open almost instantly, and you froze, your mouth falling slightly openânot because of the sudden movement, but because of Logan standing there in nothing but a white, sweat-streaked vest. His arms were bare, revealing the defined curves of his biceps and the faint lines of muscle along his chest. The faint sheen of sweat caught the light, making him look⌠impossibly good.
âHey,â he greeted, voice warm, low, and easy.
Your brain seemed to short-circuit for a moment, eyes lingering a second too long before you forced yourself to look up and meet his eyes. âHi,â you managed, your voice quieter than intended. âI⌠uh, I made something.â
Loganâs lips curled into a small, teasing smile. âOh yeah? Come in. Let me see what youâve got there.â
You stepped inside, trying to focus on the tray in your hands rather than his shoulders, his chest, the way the straps of his vest clung to him. He stepped aside, giving you room, and you carried your tray into the kitchen.
But then your eyes caught the rest of the room. Loganâs small home looked different than usual. There were stacks of wood leaning against one wall, small machines and tools spread across a workbench, and scraps of metal scattered near the floor. It smelled faintly of sawdust and oil.
âWhat⌠what were you doing?â you asked, trying to sound casual, but your tone was edged with curiosity.
Logan shrugged, wiping his hands on a rag. âThought Iâd do some⌠home improvements. Make a few things. Maybe add some shelves, fix up that broken cabinet, expand a bit here and there. You know, make it more⌠comfortable.â
You blinked, impressed, letting your eyes scan the room again. âYou built⌠all this?â
âWell, not all of it,â he said, rubbing the back of his neck and smiling faintly. âBut yeah⌠I figured if I spend a little time, I can make things nicer. And, you know⌠keep busy.â
You smiled softly, setting the tray down on the counter. âIt looks⌠really good. Practical, too.â
Logan grinned, eyes crinkling. âPractical is my middle name. Well⌠actually, itâs not. But it should be.â
You laughed, and the sound seemed to echo warmly in the room. For a moment, the awkwardness of your earlier stunned gaze faded, replaced by a shared ease and the simple domestic warmth of a home being lived in and improved.
You hesitated for a moment, then couldnât help yourself. âYou know⌠if you want, you could always ask my dad for advice. He used to work in construction, remember? Heâs⌠really good at this stuff.â
Logan raised an eyebrow, a slow smirk tugging at his lips. âAh, Joel, huh? You think Iâd survive getting advice from your dad?â
âI think youâd do fine,â you said with a soft laugh, âand maybe even learn a thing or two. He loves this kind of stuffâbuilding, planning⌠heâd probably enjoy helping you make it perfect.â
Logan chuckled, rubbing the back of his neck, his muscles rippling under the vest. âAlright⌠maybe. Iâll think about it.â
âSoâŚâ you said, gesturing toward the tray. âI made this for you. Thought you might like a little snack.â You waved vaguely at the tools and wood around him.
Loganâs eyes softened, and he glanced down at the tray, then back up at you. âYou didnât have to do that.â
âI wanted to,â you said simply, smiling.
He stepped closer, hand brushing against yours as he picked up a cloth to wipe his hands. âAlright. Letâs eat then. You want to sit here orâŚ?â
You gestured toward a small table near the window, and he moved beside you, picking up a couple of plates. The conversation started lightly at firstâabout the food, about the house, and the projects he was planning.
âSo, youâre making this place bigger?â you asked, setting down a plate.
âJust a little,â he said, leaning on the counter. âThought Iâd add some storage, maybe a better workspace. Something to make it feel⌠more like⌠well, home, I guess. And, you know, give me something to do with my hands that doesnât involve lifting or⌠anything else.â
You felt a small blush creep up your cheeks at that last, teasing remark. âMm-hmm,â you said, letting a smile play on your lips.
The two of you ate slowly, the warmth of the kitchen and the soft golden light making everything feel cozy. Logan talked about the shelves he planned to build, the little tweaks he wanted to make around the house, and the way he imagined things looking when he was done. You listened intently, sometimes chiming in with ideas, sometimes laughing at his dry humor and playful teasing.
For the rest of the afternoon, you moved around the small kitchen and workspace together, occasionally brushing against each other, sharing ideas, teasing each other gently. He showed you how he planned to cut some wood for a shelf, and you helped hold pieces steady, your hands brushing, fingers tangling unintentionally, causing both of you to pause and laugh at the silent, small sparks that always seemed to fly between you.
The sky had darkened, stars faintly twinkling above, when you and Logan found yourselves sitting on the wooden stairs in the backyard. The day had faded into a soft chill, but the quiet warmth of his presence beside you made the cold irrelevant.
Neither of you spoke at first. You simply sat there, shoulders brushing, knees nearly touching, letting the night settle over you. The silence was comforting, but after a while, the heaviness in your chest demanded release.
You watched the shadows lengthen across the backyard, the sunlight dimming against the edges of the fences and the scattered tools Logan had left from his projects.
Finally, your voice broke the quiet. âLogan⌠thereâs something I want to tell you.â
He turned his head slightly toward you, curiosity tugging at the edges of his expression, and waited. You drew a breath, steadying yourself.
âItâs about⌠back when I left Jackson to search for fireflies,â you began, voice soft, hesitant. His brow furrowed slightly, attentive.
















