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Almost in the beginning, middle of year, I met this amazing guy..

Started out as strangers, didn’t know a thing about one another. Just two people who had happen to randomly meet one night, unexpected. 

You know the usual, someone thought the other was pretty good looking, and wanted to get the know the person. But didn’t know how things would turn out? Still asked for that person’s number. Followed through with the night, started off with a simple, “Hey, is this ___?”

Where it lead to long late night conversations, never ending phone calls, webcam sessions.. That phase where you get to know someone. To the point you eventually just start gaining feelings. Honestly, we remind myself of the movie Dear John, because of how they fell for each other after two weeks. Well, we grew so much feelings in the short amount of time. About three weeks or so. My feelings grew everyday, every time we’d talk to each other. I mean c’mon, those amazing talks we had, how open we were with each other. It was like we knew each other for over 10 years.

To me it was one of the greatest feeling, to have someone who I can actually connect with, and have these kind of talks with, with someone I just met. 

When you left for a week, I could only remember just wanting to hear your voice. Wanting to speak to you. I could just hear your voice, replay in my head over and over again. I needed to see your face through my computer screen. During that past week, I could only just think about you. Talk about you. You were just that one person who has made me fall for them so hard. I didn’t want to do anything but just have some kind of interaction with you.

Still, today.. I don’t know what had made me fall completely for you. There was so many aspects that I liked about you. Too many subjects we had in common. Lots of traits that you had, that I were attracted to. That everything about you, is what made me attracted to you.

That smile of yours, those dimples, that funny eyebrow movement you do cracks me up still. That rawwrr face that you’d make, because I thought it was cute. Your body structure. The way you carry yourself. Is what tops it off. I don’t know, anything about you I just liked it.

I found myself falling in love all over again. This time it was whole different story with you. The feelings, the spark between us, just EVERYTHING! 

Its been about four weeks since we last saw each other. You’re planning to come see me, with your cousin who dates my cousin. We both happened to both be with family that day. You both came down, an hour away trip. When we finally met, I still can remember that day so clearly;

Walking to meet you was so nerve wrecking. I never get nervous to meet someone again. When we finally got together, I was being kind of shy. But broke out. You know, we did our thing. Talk, mess around, just the things we’d find ourselves doing like other people do. Shared our first kiss. How exciting, when we both wanted that so bad. I remember how you were sitting on the swings, I walked towards you, and you grabbed my face and pulled me in, and all we did was just give each other a little peck. Nothing more. As time was passing by, the more comfortable we got with each other. The more fun we had. Not really going into details with this day, because it’s really a lot to type, but trust me. I REMEMBER EVERYTHING. As the day was ending, we walked back to where our destination was to split. Before we both left each other’s sight, you specifically said, “Can I ask you something?” While holding my hands, smiling, hesitating to ask me your question.. I mean I kinda knew what it was, but I just wanted you to say it already. So I replied, giggling, “Whaaa? what is it?” You said, “Will you go out with me?” I said, “Yes.” Smiling.

Walking back home, all I could think about is being in another relationship again. But not just an ordinary relationship, not another standard relationship. Long distance. Now, people say long distance doesn’t always work out. I beg to differ. This was totally new to me. But my look into long distance relationships of course did change. There’s so many pros and cons to it. Great and even bad things do come with it. But that doesn’t even matter. The only thing that should matter, is who the person you’re going through it with, is worth it. Worth going through all the troubles, all the consequences, all the lows. The highs, the good, the enjoyment, excitement.. You get my point right?

We’re just the happiest couple. We shared so much laughter, telling each other everything, making each other happy.. Everything you think what we go through is all joyful.

Fights started, yelling, screaming, crying.. Yeah we've been through it all. A REAL relationship does go through that phase, where you're mad at each other, hate each other at one moment.. Even where some nights you don't even know what to say to each other.

But let me just say, these past nine months are a blessing, Jay is a blessing. I never thought I would never find someone like him, ever... He makes me so happy. He changed me alot, in a good way. I know I let some people go in my life, but not because of him. Those were my decisions. So I don't blame him for that. But really, he gives me so much joy. He gives me everything that a girl could ever need. He's just so precious to me, and I don't ever want to let go of him. I don't want to let go of what we have. No matter how many times we tend to scream, cry, ignore each other at times, I still want you and ONLY you.

I've never been so happy ever, even sometimes I like it when he's yelling at me. Because I know that he's willing to make things work out, I know that he wants this. He's a guy that I just want to spend the rest of my life with. This time, I actually know what I want. He's made me look at things differently. I know what I want to do in my future now. Even though, yes I had a picture of how I would picture my future in. Being successful, supporting myself, doing things on my own, but I'd love to do those things with him.

People say we'll end up not being together, but we're really working up to proving you all wrong. We both know what we want for our future. What would be held in our future.

Please don't ever let someone come in between us. I love too much. With all my heart. I want to be the only one you'll have a place for inside your heart, let me the one who'll you'll only love. You'll be the only guy that'll be loved by me. I'm too scared to lose you. Some things are too hard to deal with without you. Sometimes I can't do things by myself. It takes two. I really love and cherish what we have. I feel very blessed to have you. I don't ever want to lose that. Through all we have been through? It's just too difficult to even think about letting go.  I've done so much for you. Things that I wouldn't do, and stuff that wouldn't come to mind. We've done everything for each other.

You have my heart, don't take that for granted..