#livedreaming

"Don't bend; don't water it down; don't try to make it logical; don't edit your own soul according to the fashion. Rather, follow your most intense obsessions mercilessly." - franz kafka #intheenditsjustyou #youmakeyourself #onedaywealldie #liveitnow #livedreaming

After that I suddenly was in my school, by my locker, with my classmates there. We were going to have a test and I was late so they were trying to make me hurry by yelling at me and/or kicking the lockers to make loud noises. I opened the locker and grabbed a bright green apple (which is something I don't like) and chose one of my three huge, like abnormally large, water bottles. They were all filled with different amounts of water. I took that with me to this test. It was a test about pokémon. I fall asleep as soon as I get the test put on my bench and wake up in the farm house again. It's now shaking and there's comets falling down outside the window. Everyone's running around and they're all in panic. A tall man grabs me by the arm and drags me into a hidden door behind the kitchen table. A young guy is following us too. They put me on a board near a window and tie me to it and suddenly lots of people put their arms on me, all of them have gloves on, the kind of gloves a doctor uses, and they start to fix me up because I've been sick apparently. It's like on a stage and the area I'm in is the only thing lit up, like a circle, and everything else it pitch black. There's this tank, kind of looks like a helium tank, beside me with one of those measuring clock things you know. All the arms are now gone and done with me and I'm just laying there when a boy, it feels like a boy but I don't remember him looking like anything else but a black figure, walks bent forward toward the tank. He starts to poke the "clock" with one of his long, yellow nails and suddenly looks up at me after a while with two big round eyes, he puts a finger up to his lips and tells me to "shhh". "This will feel like you've taken an overdose, Isa, nothing worse, you've done it before" he says and everything gets blurred and I see double of everything (read: nothing more than this black figure guy because I can't see anything else but him and me basically) and my head hurts and a loud noise is ringing in my ears. After a while this fades away and I jump up on my feet. I take a guitar, an electric guitar, and walk through a tunnel. The two men that lead me into the room were ahead of me and I follow them. We came to the end of the tunnel and had to climb up into some passage and crawl a few metres, then we arrived in this tiny square room. There were two triangles made out of stone, one in each end of the room (like corner to corner) and a tiny flood of water was separating them. There were tiny little fishes in the river, just floating on the surface. We jumped over it and ran through a black door. We were now outside the farm, and I saw it burn, but it didn't give off a light. As I looked around me there were blood everywhere, literally everywhere, and I gasp and ask the men what it is. The tall man just casually points at two other men hanging over a wooden fence, still trying to beat each other up, and says "They've been fighting again", as if it's no big deal. 

I walked down some stairs into a basement. It was like a scene from Amnesia, stone walls and floors with cracks and dirt everywhere. There were two people standing there. A girl and a man, the man was an Unsullied soldier from GoT. I had to do some sort of theatre act with this man. Suddenly I get some flashback, maybe it's just another dream, I'm not sure. It's set in the same place, but now there are kitchen furniture there, and I'm standing by the kitchen bench with an old man and we're making coffee. There were other people sitting by the kitchen table, but they were all blurred out with no faces, just like a plain skin-coloured surface. When I was pouring the coffee up in our mugs his turns black and mine turns transparent once it's filled, as if there were no liquid in the mug. When I turned around I was on the top of the stairs again, walking down into the same basement. It's lit up with candles, and there's a shelf with lots of flasks and bottles on it. On the floor is a man standing on his kees in black clothes. He has facial hair, but only on his jawline and chin. He wore a big, golden necklace in the form of a rattle snake around his neck. A woman was standing in front of him, she was probably a high priest, it seemed so on the look of her clothes. She was performing some blessing on this guy, some sort of act again. It looked "funky" (thats how i described it). The woman then left me and the man alone, and we just stared at each other. We were supposed to get it on, I don't know why. I guess it was just a part of this foreign ritual that was going on. I looked around the room and saw a door. I walked through it and suddenly I had jumped into my parents' bedroom through the window. My mum was laying on the bed reading a book with her legs crossed. She looked at me and said "So go on" as if my quest was obvious. Confused I turned around and walked through a corridor back to the basement with the man. He was still standing on his knees on the floor, but now there was an actual rattle snake in front of him. "Kiss it!" I scream, and he does just that. His necklace just dissolves into tiny, tiny pieces and fall down on the floor. Surprised, but happy, we look at each other and I run towards him and jump up on his back. We run up the stairs and he kicks this steel door open. He runs with me on his back through this narrow corridor that looked like a ventilation system. Another door turns up in front of us, it's the same sort of door as before. It's steel and has a tiny window with these iron bars in it, kind of like the door you'd see at a mental institution, but this one was in a more blueish grayish colour. I put my feet up and we open the door together, we're now in a big empty parking lot. It's poorly lit up but there are no cars at all. We hear footsteps in the distance, and I start freaking out because my vision suddenly gets all blurred. We see these black figures coming towards us, they're in capes. A girl with long black hair comes really close, and I start to panic and hyperventilate. They stand around us in a circle and I just scream as loud as I can.