#littlestarlolo

i have no idea who i spoke with waiting in line for this photo op or if they’re even on this site, but we talked for like...thirty minutes and it calmed me down so i was actually able to enjoy this. i was having a panic attack sunday morning in the hotel and i was so sick to my stomach and crying and i wasn’t feeling much better when i first got in line, but this couple just helped me so much. i don’t know if they’ll ever see this, but i’m really grateful. thank you so much!

by the time the line started moving i was completely calm. i gave my bag to the workers and filed behind the curtain and waited. the line moved really fast and it wasn’t long before it was my turn. he’s so tall! like i knew he was tall, but that’s all i registered at that moment. i said hi, he said hello. i asked if he would hold my doll and he said sure. and then he started looking at it curiously and asked if it was a puppet or something and i said no, just a plushie i made. and he took another look at it, said “wow, okay.” and we took the picture. and that was that. he handed me back my doll. i was about to walk away, but then my brain clicked back on and i turned slightly, finally made real eye contact, and held my hand out for a handshake. his eyes were so warm and he has a good, firm handshake. and then it was over and i thought i’d finally collapse on the other side of the curtain, but it somehow never happened.

i found lolo right afterward (I FINALLY MET LOLO THIS WEEKEND BUT THAT’S FOR ANOTHER POST) and we both got in line for my autograph. i didn’t talk to him at all other than to thank him, but there was a wonder woman cosplayer in front of us who had him sign the photo she took with him. i hope it’s on here somewhere. she lassoed him and it was a pretty funny photo. they talked though i couldn’t hear what the conversation was, but i think she thanked him for taking the time to do that. and he laughed at something she said, so i got a chuckle out of that cos he has a great laugh.

my friend, lolo, and i walked around for a little while after that looking at the vendors and art tables, and then watched hiddleston and olsen’s panel. i really liked the format of it by the way. they weren’t being interviewed. the first half was them just having a conversation about marvel, i saw the light, and anything else that came up from that. the second half was audience questions and can i just say that that kid that asked if loki was really dead? what a fucking mood. i laughed so hard my stomach hurt. i thought the questions were pretty evenly matched between both actors and most of them were good and interesting questions.

we left the con after that and hung out in the hotel room with pizza until lolo’s boyfriend came to pick her up (he’s on here somewhere, isn’t he?).

the weekend was amazing though. i’ve never been to chicago before (i’ve hardly spent any time in any city really) so i got to see and do a lot of things i’d never done before. which i’ll make another post about later.

here’s the pickle: she’s my mom’s doctor. 🎶 it’s a small world after all. 🎶 that’s why she’s gotten away with this for a year. that and it’s been getting worse. my mom doesn’t want to lose her PA’s, she’s had them longer than i’ve been alive. this woman was hired at the hospital about a year ago to replace my mom’s doctor that retired. that and she’s got a foreign last name and accent and we’re really trying to avoid anything negative that might come out of that. it’s bullshit. i’m done with her. my mom’s done with her after the last incident on tuesday and is just accepting she might need to find new PAs. my brother really doesn’t want someone to accuse us of racism or something just because we won’t let them come back. we’ve had two people in the ten years we’ve been open do that cos (1) we were checking tickets cos we had an inspector in the house and the first felt singled out - we were checking a lot of tickets that night and (2) my mom told the second to stop swearing because he’d been a complete asshole to me for ten minutes and she was sick of it for me. the second left us a nasty review. my brother wants to avoid that mess and i can understand that. we live in a very small town. people talk. but i’m personally of the opinion if she wants to slam us in a review, i’ll feel more than fine to air my grievances online and attach them to her name below the review.

so it’s a problem right now. i’d be really happy if it just became to much for her and she’d stop coming on her own, but i probably won’t be that lucky. :P

okay, so i met her a week ago today and it’s honestly embarrassing that i’m only getting around to posting this now. ^ ^; this is just my first chance in days to be at a computer longer than five minutes, i’m sorry.

so we met on saturday. i thought i’d only get to spend sunday with her, but got an extra surprise day. met her boyfriend pat, too. we met on the pier outside the convention and then walked back to our hotel to drop off our stuff. surprised her with a bucky plushie, took the above selfie, and then went to a japanese bbq place nearby. it was dark when we left, we must have spent hours there. (thank you for the sweatshirt pat, i’ll come better prepared next time.)

i met with just lauren again on sunday. found her right after my photo op and we both got in line for my autograph with hiddleston. she gave me a bunch of old sketches and comics she drew. some of them never found their way online and some i hadn’t seen in years. ^-^ we walked around the con with my friend until the hiddleston/olsen panel, and then left for the hotel after that was done. she treated us to pizza, and we hung out and talked until pat came to pick her up around 7. and then i cried all over her shoulder like a fool and didn’t want her to go even though i knew she had to.