#listlist

I hear lists are super cool right now. Making lists, being on lists, talking about lists, reading lists, list apps. 

I’m all about them. Here are a few lists of lists that I have made or been thinking about recently. 

1. Lists of jobs I think would be really dreamy, and am currently not doing, but am thinking about while typing this list at my cubicle, at my current job #lifegoalslist

2. Things that would be delish for lunch #delishlisht

3. Lunch spots in my neighborhood that don’t suck #nomnomnowlist

4. Lunch spots in my neighborhood that are basic af, but I still go to, because there’s something comforting about a fork,spoon,knife, salt and pepps wrapped in plastic kinda deal in a brown bag. #youknowwhoyouarelist 

5. Vacations I want to be taking #bestlist

6. Ways to save money for said vacations #savingsaccountlist

7. Ways to make some extra cash on the side that is “fulfilling” but also makes you feel very “rich” #chachinglist

8. The best TV shows that came out this summer, that you need to watch, but really you’re just going to watch reruns of Gilmore Girls #netflixandchilllist

9. Nail design styles you need to try a.k.a ways to stop biting your nails like you did when you were 11. #naillist

AND FINALLY

10.  My friends, this was a list I made often growing up...and I still find reassuring and disheartening. #friendlist

Well it’s been a few weeks, but I’m back. I think I bit off a bit more than I could chew with the writing challenge last month (especially with the pregnancy and an extremely two year old). It was good to write again though, so I’ll be keeping it up. Just not every day.

I think there’s been a good bit of introspection going on in the past few weeks (third trimester insomnia will do that to you...), and I’ve been coming to terms with/once again reminded of a few things that are true about me. List time? I think so.

Some things that are true (if not always good and beautiful)

I love starting new projects, but keeping it up is... challenging. I have noticed though, that I tend to eventually revisit things and often even complete them. It can take time though. Sometimes years. I’m not  sure it’s a bad thing when there’s no looming deadline. It’s kind of fun to have fingers in all the pies...

I need to make lists - and to be frank, I enjoy it immensely. The box ticking is nice, but it’s not even that really... It’s just getting stuff out of my head and unto an unsuspecting piece of carbon based something (or you know, one of my list books, which are probably suspecting something by now). It’s wonderfully freeing really. Amusingly enough, the small human seems to think that all I write is grocery lists, so now he wants to write grocery lists all the time too.

Personality research fascinates me, and kind of scares me too, so I’m really hesitant to get into it. I guess it’s a spin off of my lifelong fascination with how humans learn things. My MBTI is INFP and while reading descriptions of my type makes me want to just burst into joyful cries of “THEY GET ME!!!” I’m also highly suspicious of anyone or anything trying to rigidly define me. So that’s a mess, but it’s a fun one. Kyle, of course, is blatantly uninterested by any of this, but he seems like he’s got a pretty good grasp on his own inner life, so I guess he’s allowed.

My feelings are water-soluble, and apparently need to be soaked thoroughly in a saline solution before exiting my body. Annoyingly. Still. Likely always. And crying gives me headaches. So does stress from unexpressed feelings. But hey, I feel better after a good cry, so why not just go for it? (Answer: red, blotchy, puffy face, brilliant green eyes that go away after the contrast with the face dies down, headache the next day.)

I like pretty numbers. 5 is prettier than 4 so i just made up this last bit.

Love,