I don't really know how to feel. Was I expecting Valko in this update? No. But I was expecting some form of communication about what the plan is going to be. Some sort of explanation to the chaos and uncertainty we all have experienced.
Maybe I should've managed my expectations better.
Maybe I should've prepared myself for this outcome instead of letting myself believe that things could still turn around.
But it's hard not to hope when you spend days watching people from all over the world come together for something they love.
So before anything else... thank you.
Thank you to everyone who spoke up. Thank you to everyone who translated posts, explained what was happening, wrote feedback, shared information, donated, stayed up all night refreshing social media, and simply cared enough to try.
To me, this was never just about Valko.
It was about what kind of future this game is heading towards. It was about whether a company would communicate with its players, whether creative decisions could be reversed through harassment, and what precedent that sets going forward.
Watching everyone unite reminded me why I loved this community in the first place. For a little while, it really felt like we were all on the same side, regardless of language, main or server.
And honestly... that's probably what hurts the most
Infold still hasn't said anything. The update has gone live for most servers, yet we're still left piecing everything together ourselves. I genuinely think that I and a lot of other people could've accepted this so much better if there had just been an explanation and a plan.
Instead, we've been left with silence.
Maybe there are reasons they legally can't discuss. Maybe it has something to do with the current situation in China. Maybe this is simply the direction they want to take the game.
I just wish they had trusted their players enough to communicate with us. What I do know is that silence has only made everything hurt more.
Despite all of this... I don't have it in me to quit.
Sylus has become such an incredible comfort character to me. More than that, I've poured so much time, love, and yes, money into this game. But even beyond the game itself, Love and Deepspace gave me something I never expected.
It brought so many wonderful people into my life. Madi, Xia, Ivy, Hamu, Iah, Leap, Em, Sam, Nuggie, Haydes, Rori, Xiu, Nova, Reena, Tori, Kaits, Khea... and so many others I'm probably forgetting while writing this.
This community became part of my everyday life.
This game also gave me back something I thought I'd lost. It made me write again. It made me create.
It gave me roleplay partners, stories to tell, and three girls that somehow became pieces of myself... Nymeria, Myyrin and Valerie.
I've spent countless hours thinking about them, drawing connections to the game's lore, writing scenes, making playlists, laughing over headcanons. That's not something I can just walk away from overnight.
But I don't think it'll ever feel quite the same again. There'll always be this little ache in the back of my mind whenever I open the game... A reminder of what happened.
One thing has changed permanently, though: I'm done spending money on this game. I was never a whale. I bought things here and there when I could because I wanted to support something I loved. Now? I don't even see myself renewing my Aurum Pass.
For me, supporting a game isn't just about the content it releases. It's also about trusting the people behind it. And right now, that trust has been broken. When a company shows that it can bend under sustained pressure from harassment while failing to communicate openly with the broader playerbase, that sends a message in itself.
To everyone who's choosing to leave... I'm genuinely sorry it came to this.
People translated. Organized. Wrote feedback. Stayed respectful. Donated to charity. Tried to keep discussions constructive. Countless players across every server spent days hoping there would be a different outcome. We all thought we could turn the tide by showing Infold that we stand with them and they shouldn't focus on the hate. Regardless of where anyone stood on specific changes, I think most of us simply wanted transparency.
Instead, we're left with silence.
And that's the part that's hardest to accept. Maybe it wasn't enough. Maybe nothing we did could've changed the outcome.
But at least we cared enough to try. I just wish it hadn't ended like this.
For now, I'll keep loving Sylus.
I'll keep writing (slowly).
I'll keep making my girls kiss fictional men.
But I think a big piece of the magic broke today.