#lilymud

mainly just for historical laugh at purposes really

My holidays have been full of stress! to even out the fun we were having I guess.

So it started back in November where we'd planned to visit the husbands parents for thanksgiving. Ofcourse we had already paid for the airplane and whatnot but then BAM! cat gets sick. 1200$ vet bill plus have to board him at an animal hospital literally last minute because I don't feel safe leaving him home alone. This is on top of already having to board the dog.

Airplanes also are a huge ass stressor for me. I do not enjoy them. They are no longer sending me into the panic attacks I used to have but I would honestly rather run crosscountry than be on an airplane. The whole trip stressed me out.

Then we get home and earlier this year Cruise tickets were so cheap because of Corona..like who can pass up 160$ per person tickets for a cruise? Well it sounded like a good idea then but now I kinda regret it. So we came home from thanksgiving and turned around and got on a boat for mid December. Husband gets a call while we are leaving the dock! saying his father died and we need to make arrangements. The two are estranged. Do you know how stressful it is to try and make end of life arrangements on a cruise ship leaving the country? kinda ruined the mood of the trip. Not to mention the quoted costs of cremating somebody you didn't know you'd have to, let alone be the one to pay for it! we had planned for the extra cruise costs and pet boarding but we hadn't planned for extra funerary costs on top of it.

then we come home and my husband has a tire blow on his truck so we went ahead and replace all 4 (nother 1200$ down) so that we'd be good so we can turn around and go to my moms for Christmas. Christmas btw was lovely until about 30 minutes after we left and my brother calls me saying "I know you just left but moms having a stroke and we're at the hospital"

like wtf bro and mom. Stooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooop.

Mom seems to be doing fine and even though they called a code stroke at the hospital her imagine and tests came back fine and they're not sure why she was having stroke symptoms and she's back home now. But I was panicking all night long that she'd be at home alone and nobody was watching her.

Anywho. I don't need money, I don't need help. Just ranting. I literally took a muscle relaxer and slept all night and all day. I am just so tired.