#lilmark

*Renaming Daydreams > Mind*

If you were a white man and you found out your woman (also white), had an enormous attraction to black men, would you leave her or stay because you know you could not do better. For reference: They are always very attractive.

I’m having problems figuring out how I’ll draw up the blueprints for my future home. The design and all of it’s unique components make it hard for me to solidify the idea and make it concrete. There are always edits. I “stress” about structure because I want everything to be 100% the safest option. No unexpected collapsing or any dangerous structures for children or even adults, but lots of fun. Also, what will this type of structure be labeled as, as it does not fit most of the traditional ideas existing today?

I wonder where I’ll put my OTHER ideas that I will not mention until I can find out how I can execute them. I look every day and continue to wonder how I will do that based on what I see.

I want to elaborate on the centered, top floor 4-story room idea. Do I need more stories? Or more space? Does centering it make sense for the space needed. Will I need more space for fucking? I can’t have all of my baby mommas fucking in the same bed? Maybe I’ll make one a theater with a hall of beds, for that reason. Or if there will become enough normality in the situation for us all to sleep there? One big bed instead or an entirely separate idea as well (meaning both)?

I wonder which of them will like TV shows versus Movies. Will there be anyone who likes the same shows or movies? I want to know which one will I watch Scooby Doo with? Saved By The Bell (which I’ve watched a million times already)? Static Shock (Edit: Lilo & Stitch actually; Brain fart)?Most people forget that “Children’s” shows were written by adults and contain better plots and life lessons than “adult” shows, it is just overlooked due to it not contain sexual content other than sexual innuendos or strong language. There are more shows I want to see, I just let them slip my mind.

There’s this regular we have at work. She’s very tall with an extremely pretty smile. She is one of my favorites. I just know she’s a freak. There’s also this asian girl with a really pretty face and smile…and the doctor (or at least she works at a hospital) with big titties and a pretty smile. I thought she had a boyfriend, turns out it’s her coworker.

Do you ever think fucking is one of the best hobbies? I have other favorites, but I’m not sure how I’ll divi up them all to make time for it. I shall see. There are times where I don’t want to stop doing any of them, but fucking is just indescribable and unpredictable. As they all are, but like you get me?

Lastly, I think my new celebrity “crushes” are:

Elizabeth Stanton, she’s a sexy redhead on the CW. She hosts this home videos show about dogs

The blonde from 2 Broke Girls, also stars in “The Neighborhood” on the CW. Can’t remember her name right now, but she’s a really sexy tall girl. Love the way she talks.

And Margot Robbie, from “Focus”, “The Wolf of Wall Street”, “Suicide Squad” and the latest “Barbie” movie… I love her accent as well. It’s almost innocently sexy, which comes as a surprise. Some of the most perfect white women. I consider them “Elite White Women”. Margot is one of my favorite actresses, along with Amanda Bynes, Miranda Cosgrove and Victoria Justice. There are many others, but those are some of my top favorites.

- MH (2023)

[09/21/2023 - 12:48PM] - Drafted

*This segment will cover my thoughts outside of daydreams*

Having a girlfriend must be stressful. If a guy with a beard and crocs catches her eye. Just go ahead and buy the 9mm.. When I get a smirk or smile on a bypass, I just try to look away like “Bitch, he can see you!”…and they never look. I don’t care, it’s just insane. And they just go home…and sleep in the same bed…oblivious

I feel like all of my baby mommas’ parents will hate me. It’s usually just the father, but I don’t care if the mothers decide to include themselves this time. Nothing like demolishing somebody’s daughter’s pussy with no fucks to give *cracks knuckles*.

Do I want as many bathrooms as I do bedrooms?

I may need a bungalow house attached to the bottom floor of my residence. Nice small house to fuck in, watch movies, eat, etc… but I was thinking it would just be a trap for intruders, so maybe not. Back burner.

I miss college. The first one. Nothing like driving around in the middle of nowhere at night.

- MH (2023)

[No my aspirations are not coming to the forefront to replace or suggest things. You will just combine the ideas and STILL have terrible outcomes. Mix bleach with any fruit juice and you still get what? Okay then.]

#LesMiserables

I would share the photo I took, but again, saving. Every time I am spared enough time and find a new angle to photograph on or off DuSable Lake Shore Drive. I will. Only so much time. Imagine eating a chicken salad and watching one of the busiest cities in the world just…existing!

I often think, “The architects who came together and said, ‘I want my building right there, and I want it to look like that.’ and the next architect said ‘And I want mine right there, but more like this’ and so on, were fucking brilliant.”. I saw this one near Lake Shore Park. It is absolutely amazing. An apartment building though, not an office building, university building or hospital. It took up almost an entire street. View of a busy park, the lake and the front right corner was so creatively designed.

I saw this other one a few blocks away and thought, “I love that tip. I want mine to look JUST like that. Not exact, but similar to that idea. I want to be on the top floor with no other rooms on my floor and/or floors.”

Dead center (maybe), don’t know if I want my room to be as big or can I make space dead center. Everybody else? Beneath my floor. I want a rooftop balcony also. So I can view the rest of the city from high above. I’m skeptical on stories because I don’t want it to be gargantuan and be so overwhelming for the rest of my neighborhood’s look. Also, I don’t think an abnormal amount of stories will sit right with me. Will my baby mommas need an elevator? I hope not, I’m taking the stairs until I die.

I was thinking they each need their own floor after considering splitting a large hallway would not be very “private” for us, earlier today. Also want to make floors that would allow them to include something/some things for their interests/favorite activities. Also, cleaning so much empty space would be INSANE. I’d help, but still. I stress daily about extra space for additional things. Even costs for some reason. I always say “I should back track. This sounds expensive.”, but then I consider how I’d just figure it out, but it still sounds expensive and so small of a time frame that I almost think it sounds ridiculous, but then I think, “But what the fuck else am I gonna do? Just not do it and not live my life? BULLSHIT. Money’s gotta come somehow. Even if these bastards don’t wanna pay up.”

I see so many pretty girls and sometimes I think, “Okay why don’t you go get her?” then I say “Slap a fat ass on that bitch and that’s my baby momma. That’s why!”

I can’t seem to get an idea of my first baby momma. I look around and say “Not even close. This bitch must be bad as FUCK! I can’t even get an idea close to what I can expect.”

I often think about how I’ll balance my career, hobbies, them AND MY FUCKING FISH! I love them already. Kids will be a no brainer, but everything else will be fairly easy. They will hate my bond with these fish. Only thing I like in life is these damn fish. I feel like I’m 8 years old thinking about these damn fish.

So pretty much just, the environment, architecture, more architecture, bitches, money and things that could stop the world (my/your interests)

I’ve decided to, while still capturing the overall essence of most things, create my own recipes. I don’t like most of their ingredients or how they have chosen to use them in certain recipes. Not nearly flavorful enough. Waste of ingredients if you ask me.

Most [snacks] are great as is, and most products have the ingredients listed so that all is not unknown. I enjoy some of what is offered, but wouldn’t you like to create something of your OWN? Be innovative, create something unique, something new.

Don’t recommend for the idiots. You have poor anger management and would blame others for wasting materials, money, etc… when in reality, you’re a terrible chef, don’t follow even your OWN instructions, have bad “innovative ideas” and most importantly fail to realize…everything great comes with MANY trials. Succeeding entirely on Try 1 is complicated, especially without preparation.

In short, not smart? Don’t waste your time or money doing this. You will fail and blame me for suggesting. I know you’re not capable. Just keep buying your Tyson chicken nuggets and leaving it to the restaurant cooks. You are not equipt.