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Dear Diary, 

Why hello there diary i didn’t think we’d meet again though obviously it was bound to happen though? Something has came and i just thought needed to get something off my chest, without it actually being in a song for the public eye at least this is for my own personal reasons. Okay i’ll just dive right in to, well without knowing my baby daddy actually came back from whatever he was doing and good knows what with who, don’t get me wrong i’m very happy that he’s back and everything but i don’t want to get too attached to him you know? Just encase he goes wondering off again which i have a feeling that he will and i don’t to be all sad when he does or the fact that he’s probably going to be flirting with every freakin girl he sees! Which is a little hard to watch when i have no idea what is going on with him and i.

I also told him that we’re having a son, the thing that i didn’t want to tell you the other day i wanted Justin to be the first one to know and i hope now that he’ll settle his ass down because i don’t know if i’d be able to raise this child up by my self! I want nothing but the best for our child and that also means it coming from an un-broken home before he’s even born....is that too much too ask for? I hope not, it just scares the shit out of me and i hope he doesn’t go again. 

Anyway i’ll stop writing before i get all emotional damn you hormones! 

Love Ari

Deary Diary, 

So we meet again don’t we? I think it’s about time i gave you a name though is that too weird  naming your own dairy? It’s more personal that way isn’t it? I think i’ll call you Joe just because it’s the first name that has actually popped into my head either that or Olaf, anyway yesterday we started filming again which is nice to get back in to work and seeing my second family i love working on Pretty Little Liars i won’t be happy when we have to film our final scene which is coming up closer and closer well for this season anyway.

Anyway today has actually been exciting day i went to the doctors and i finally found out how many months i am during my pregnancy because i’m such a terrible person and forgotten how far along i am for my twins to be born. I found out that i was 18 weeks pregnant and they told me what the sex of the babies are but i don’t want to revel the genders yet because Tyler couldn’t get the time off work to come to it and i’d want to tell my fiancé and nine year old daughter before anyone else knows. It’s honestly so exciting, Tyler will be so happy, though of course i didn’t really mind what the sex was unless they were happy and healthy which they now are after taking time out for myself to let my body relax and what not! 

Before i get too carried away i just also want to say Joe that how proud i am of my daughter honestly i couldn’t ask for a better first born i’m so happy she’s home. 

Bye Joe 

Dear Diary, 

Okay wow it fee;s oddly silly to sit down and write something down with an actual pen and a paper since i don’t have the time anymore to do anything well could have with while i was with my family and sunning it up in Mexico all week without my fiancé don’t get me wrong i love Tyler so much so much but it’s always nice to have some relaxing time by yourself huh? Plus it is what my babies needed thats growing inside of me, but can i tell you a secret? Dairy i’m shitting my absolute pants.....

This is something i haven’t told Shay and she’s one of my best friends in the world! I’m shitting my pants because of everything that has happened with Kate, all the drama that put myself and the babies under-stress causing me to go in to hospital for a couple of days but i just wanted a stress free pregnancy but that didn’t happen. Don’t get me wrong everything is going great again but i’m just terrified of what else could go wrong, *touches wood* I hope nothing does go wrong, Tyler and i have been engaged for at least a good few months now and we haven’t really spoken about the weddings or any wedding plans since getting engaged. Is that bad? I hope not because i know every couple is different, i think we don’t want to rush and are waiting for our babies to be born i think so then they can apart of our wedding if it ever happens. He means well i’m surprised he has put up with me this long to be honest. 

Anyway i’m going to stop rambling now

Until we meet again 

Dear Dumb Diary,

Dear Diary,   

I feel like you should have some kind of name, it feels like haven’t wrote anything in forever like a proper journal the only thing i write from pen to paper these days is my autograph and even that is with a sharpie!  So um wow i don’t even know what to write, part from the fact that i miss Justin like crazy and been writing some songs too mostly about him and our baby! It’s crazy to even think that i’m twenty two years old and having a kid how did that even happen? Okay i know how it happened we asked the stalk to drop a child in my stomach, that’s a lie i know but still wouldn’t it be funny if that actually happened? Any way i’m just writing to say hi cause nothing much exciting really happened today other than having a doctors appointment and i found out that i’m now five months pregnant which exciting but scary at the same time because i also found out the sex of my baby, but like i said i wish Justin was here so i can let everyone know what it is but nope i’m not telling anyone not even you dairy the sex of the baby. Baby daddy has to be the first one to know, i know it sounds selfish but sometimes i wish he wasn’t always out partying and hanging out with his friends i get he’s not long been 21 but doesn’t it soon wear off it? It did with me last year. 

Anyway i’m going to stop writing now and i think i’m going to call you Nathan just because i heard my ex boyfriends song on spotify!  It was the first name that came to my head! 

See you soon for now Nate 

all my love Ariana 

This past weekend has been crazy, T and I took our time off work to go to the beach with Bella and her Mom. It was a great idea, especially to do it when it was 4th of July, which was nice to spend down here. It’s a bummer the holiday is over and work starts again soon but I guess that’s always how you feel after a fantastic week of family time.

We didn’t do much today, went for coffee this morning, just the two of us while her Mom watched Bella. It was really nice to have the time to ourselves since everything revolves around the baby usually. We also managed to have dinner last week without her which I think was also a great idea and something we probably need to do more often.

We also went to the beach this afternoon and went swimming which was nice but we sat down just in the shallow bits of the waves so Bella could sit too but she kind of just ended up eating the sand. Gross!. Bella can also hold her own head up now which is kind of funny, she knows if you’re talking to her and will look at you.