Summary: When they come back down the steps, Joeyâs grinning shyly, eyes sparkling with pride. âI did it,â he tells you.
âYou sure did,â you say, bending down to kiss his cheek. âAnd you were so polite.â
Sammie immediately pipes up, âI was polite too!â
âYou were very polite,â Steve assures her, trying not to laugh as he adjusts the little plastic crown that keeps slipping in your daughterâs curls. âExcept for the part where you told that lady your brotherâs scared of everything.â
She frowns thoughtfully. âBut he is.â
Steve snorts, shaking his head. âYeah, but maybe donât lead with that next time.â
Word count: 2.2k
Catch up on the first entry to this universe here
Itâs one of those October nights that feels like itâs trying to make up for all the bad days before it. Crisp air, leaves underfoot that crunch in the most satisfying way, a sky the color of velvet stretched wide above your lovely little New England town. Itâs delightfully and surprisingly warm for this time of year; your kids were elated they didnât need to wear their winter coats tonight. Streetlights flicker on one by one, haloing the sidewalks in warm amber as kids spill out of houses in adorable costumes.
Youâre halfway down Maple Street when Sammie takes off again, fluffy pink tulle skirt bouncing, tiny fairy wings flashing in the light. âSammie, wait for us!â Steve calls after her, but sheâs already halfway to the next house, plastic pumpkin clutched tight in her tiny hand. Her costume is proudly, unmistakably homemade: her skirt uneven in places where she insisted on âhelping,â her wings stitched by you over three late nights, the glitter on them already beginning to migrate to everyoneâs clothes.
âSheâs like a sugar-seeking missile,â you say.
âWonder where she gets that from,â Steve mutters, glancing sidelong at you with a grin that still makes your stomach flip. âIâll make sure to confiscate all of her Milky Ways for inspection later.â
You roll your eyes, shifting Joey higher on your hip. Heâs dressed as a little bumblebee (equally DIY: black and yellow felt stripes hand-sewn onto a cozy hoodie, wings made from old wire hangers and scrap fabric) and his head is resting against your shoulder, eyes wide as he watches Sammie dart ahead. Heâs been like this all evening: half curious, half terrified, completely content to be carried.
âYou wanna walk for a bit, honey?â you ask. He shakes his head so fast it makes his tiny antennae wobble. âOkay,â you whisper, kissing his hair. âYou just let me know..â
You and Steve are dressed in what can only be described as minimal, bone-tired parent costumes: characters from the twinsâ latest obsession:Â If You Give A Mouse A Cookie. Youâre inâ quite frankly, very dumpyâ overalls, splattered with paint from when you redid the kidsâ bathroom. Youâve got homemade mouse ears on a headband, and whiskers drawn on in eyeliner. Youâre a mouse in the gentlest, most half-committed way possible. And Steve, in a tan shirt with dark brown felt circles taped all over, is a cookie by way of âwe did this for the kids, and also we ran out of timeâ. The kids shrieked with happiness when you put them on. So you counted it as a smashing success all around.
Up ahead, Sammieâs already ringing the next doorbell, bouncing on her toes. A nice older woman opens the door, smiling as Sammie launches into her greeting at full volume: âTrick or treat! Iâm a fairy princess and I have a brother and heâs a bee but heâs scared of everything so heâs with my mom back there!â
You and Steve both groan in unison.
The woman laughs kindly and drops a handful of candy into Sammieâs pumpkin. âTell your brother I have extra chocolate for brave bees,â she says, smiling at Joey.
Sammie spins around, beaming. âJoey! She said chocolate!â
That gets his attention. He lifts his head, eyes flicking toward the porch. âChocolate?â he whispers. As if he just remembered the reward for this entire holiday.
You glance at Steve, who stands beside you, holding out his hands. âCome on, bud. Letâs go say trick or treat. Iâll go with you.â
Joey hesitates, gripping your sleeve for a second before slowly planting his tiny sneakers on the ground. His little fingers curl around his dadâs hand, and Steve takes it gladly. âAll right, my brave bee, letâs go.â
They approach the porch together, Steve holding Joeyâs hand, Sammie dancing in circles beside them. You hear it, soft and careful, when Joey finally whispers, âTrick or treat.â
The womanâs smile is pure delight. âWell done, little bee,â she says, slipping a few chocolates into his pumpkin.
When they come back down the steps, Joeyâs grinning shyly, eyes sparkling with pride. âI did it,â he tells you.
âYou sure did,â you say, bending down to kiss his cheek. âAnd you were so polite.â
Sammie immediately pipes up, âI was polite too!â
âYou were very polite,â Steve assures her, trying not to laugh as he adjusts the little plastic crown that keeps slipping in your daughterâs curls. âExcept for the part where you told that lady your brotherâs scared of everything.â
She frowns thoughtfully. âBut he is.â
Steve snorts, shaking his head. âYeah, but maybe donât lead with that next time.â
You walk like that for a while, Sammie darting from house to house like a comet, Steve jogging after her, Joey alternating between being carried and toddling along beside you, holding your hand tight. After youâve exhausted the block, Sammie turns around and yells, âCome on, weâre missing the good candy!â
âYou better be bringing all the best candy to your aunt and uncleâs house!â a voice calls from behind you.
Sammie turns around so quickly she nearly topples over, and squeals at the sight of Eddie and Robin walking toward you on the sidewalk.Â
Eddieâs carrying a coffee cup thatâs definitely not coffee, raising it like a toast when he spots you. âBrought provisions for the grown-ups!â he calls out, baring his fake vampire fangs, cape swirling. Robin walks in tandem with him, decked out in layers of black clothing and chunky jewelry, which you vaguely recognize from that movie about the witches that she was obsessed with. The Neve Campbell character, you think.
âPinot noir, my good man,â Eddie says, offering a second coffee cup to Steve.
You grin, accepting your own cup from Robin. âGod bless you.â
Sammie, already glued to Eddieâs side, gasps at his fake blood and points accusingly. âYouâre bleeding!â
He gasps right back, clutching his chest. âWhat?!â he shrieks, but Sammie just giggles wildly.
Meanwhile, Joeyâs pressed a little tighter against your leg, eyes big and uncertain as he takes in Eddieâs blood-streaked grin. âIs Uncle Eddie okay?â he whispers.
Eddie instantly softens, crouching down to Joeyâs level. âHey, little dude. Itâs just pretend, see?â He swipes a bit of the fake blood with his finger, licks it (then makes a ridiculous gagging face). âBlegh. Cherry. My least favorite flavor.â
That earns him a small smile from Joey. âItâs fake?â
âCompletely fake,â Eddie says, wiping at his mouth with the back of his sleeve.
Joey studies him for another moment, then relaxes, reaching out a cautious hand toward Eddieâs plastic fangs. âThe teeth are real?â
âNope,â Eddie says, popping them free and handing them over like a magician revealing his trick. âYou can try âem if you promise not to bite your sister.â
Joey giggles. âOkay.â
Steve walks a few steps ahead with Sammie and Eddie, watching as Eddie points dramatically at the next house. âAll right, fairy princess,â he declares, âwe go in strong, we go in fast, and we say the magic words.â
Sammie nods seriously. âTrick or treat!â
âAtta girl.â Eddie leans down conspiratorially. âAnd remember, if they have mini Snickers, those are for me.â
Robin shakes her head but sheâs smiling, eyes warm when she looks back at Joey, still hovering behind you. âHey, little bee,â she says softly, crouching down so theyâre at eye level. âYou flying solo tonight?"
Joey shakes his head, shy as ever, thumb pressed against his candy bucket handle.
Robin holds out her hand. âYou wanna walk with me for a bit? Iâll be your wingman. Promise I wonât make you talk to any scary skeletons or anything.â
He hesitates for a moment, looking up at you for confirmation, then nods and takes her hand.
And just like that, the four of you fall into step: the tiny fairy and her loud uncle darting from porch to porch, the quiet bee and his patient aunt making their way at a slower pace, with you and Steve trailing behind, cups of disguised wine warming you up from the inside.
Up ahead, Robin kneels beside Joey at a porch, whispering something that makes him laugh, small and nervous but real. He looks up at her, then turns to the open door and says, just a little louder than before, âTrick or treat!â
The woman at the door beams, dropping a candy bar into his bucket. Robin throws both fists into the air. âYes! Nailed it!â
Joey beams, bouncing on his toes.
You charge forward like this for a while longer, but after a couple more blocks, you can see it in both kidsâ the way Sammieâs wings are drooping, the way Joey is dragging his feet. The twins are fading fast.
Steve notices it at the same time you do. He lifts his cup toward Eddie and Robin. âWe calling it?â
Eddie checks on Sammie, who is now leaning against his leg and blinking slowly, the telltale signs of a child who will soon insist she is not tired moments before collapsing. âYeah,â he says softly. âOur fearless leader is losing steam.â
Robin nods, brushing Joeyâs hair out of his eyes; he sways a little in her direction, thumb creeping toward his mouth. âI think our beeâs batteries are dying.â
âThatâs our cue,â Steve says.
The five-minute walk to Eddie and Robinâs house is somehow both quiet and chaotic. Your little troupe drifts down the sidewalk, Sammie insisting she wants to walk but holding Eddieâs hand with both of hers, Joey half-asleep in Robinâs arms, and you and Steve trading glances over their heads. The good, warm kind. The kind that makes your chest tighten.
When the ramshackle, twinkly-light-warmed Munson-Buckley house comes into view, Sammie perks up. âMovie?â she asks sleepily.
Eddie scoops her up without hesitation, cradling her like she weighs nothing. âYou better believe it, princess. Iâve got the perfect spooky-but-not-too-spooky tape lined up.â
âYou picked the tape?â Robin asks, locking the front door behind you all.
âYeah, itâs some Mickey Mouse bullshit, I dunno,â he murmurs, earning himself a swat from Steve.
âCome on, man,â he chastises.
âIs there kissing?â Sammie asks. Sheâs only just discovered the concept, and isnât quite sure how to feel about it in movies.
âHmâŚâ Eddie ponders. âYâknow I canât say for sure. But very minimal, if any.â
The living room is warm and cluttered and familiar; bowls of popcorn materialize, candy buckets are dumped out onto the coffee table, and Robin uncorks another bottle of wine as Eddie pops a tape in the VCR.
Robin plops onto the couch beside you and Steve, handing you both fresh glasses of wine poured into mismatched mugs. âFor the grown-ups who survived Halloween with two tiny chaos gremlins.â
Steve takes a long sip. âHave I mentioned I love ya, Buckley?â
On the floor, Sammie has positioned herself directly next to Eddie, mimicking the way he sits: legs stretched out, ankles crossed, arms thrown over the back of a beanbag like she owns the room. She digs through her candy bucket with the same dramatic flair he does, huffing a little each time she finds something she considers sub-par.
Meanwhile Joey has taken a spot beside Robin, carefully sorting his candy into neat piles: chocolates, gummies, lollipops. Robin watches him with exaggerated seriousness.
âDo you like this one, Aunt Robin?â he asks, picking a Twizzler out of his pile of twenty of them.
âAre you kidding?â Robin asks, unwrapping it and popping it into her mouth. âItâs my favorite!â
Joey imitates her immediately, taking a piece from his bucket and nibbling it slowly, eyes flicking up to see if she approves.
She grins at him. âGood taste.â
Across the room, Sammie is now holding up a Milky Way. âIs this good?â
Eddie gasps. âOnly the best,â he says, then lowers his voice to a whisper. âBetween you and me, those are your momâs favorites. I would hold onto those for bribing purposes next time youâre in trouble.â
âEddie!â you call out.Â
Steve laughs beside you, that low, warm sound that never fails to find the softest place in your chest. He leans in, elbow nudging yours. âWell,â he says lightly, âheâs not wrong.â
You turn your head, narrowing your eyes. âExcuse me?â
Steve shrugs, totally unrepentant. âI mean⌠I do keep Milky Ways stocked at all times so youâre never mad at me.â
Your mouth drops open. âYou do what?â
âItâs fiiiiiiiiiine,â Steve says. âItâs strategy, or diplomacy, right?â He raises his eyebrows toward Robin, who holds her hands up as if to say thereâs no way in hell Iâm getting involved in this.
You glare at him. âThatâs not how that works.â
âIt is exactly how that works,â he says, leaning in until your noses nearly brush. âI know my wife.â
âI am deeply, profoundly offended,â you tell him, lying through your teeth.
âNo youâre not.â
âYes, I am.â
He kisses you before you can argue again, quick, sweet, smug.
From the floor, Eddie makes a strangled gagging sound. âOh, GROSS!â he groans, throwing himself backward onto the carpet with his arms flung wide. âI told Sammie there would be no kissing!"
Sammie, already overtired and giggly, shrieks with laughter and rolls dramatically across the rug. âNO KISSING!â she echoes, her tiny voice full of delighted outrage.
Joey, predictably, bursts into a fit of soft, hiccuping giggles. âDaddy kissed Mommy,â he whispers to Robin like heâs tattling in church.
Robin nudges Joeyâs shoulder. âClassic your dad move,â she loudly whispers back. âZero self-control. Complete and total loverboy.â
A giggle escapes you too; sheâs definitely right about that.
Author's note: Another very brief entry into the light-on-verse! Now that I officially have an inbox, feel free to send any ideas you have for this little family, or really any thoughts! Another reminder for those new here that I'm in the process of crossposting all my ao3 fics from the past few years here, so if the ones that are already posted here aren't enough to satiate you, I've got dozens more over there! As always, let me know what you think <3
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Summary: Sammie and Joey shout out requests of songs they barely know the names to, songs that you and Steve loved in high school, and that he now plays for them in the car. Eddie wrinkles his nose in disgust at the amount of Van Halen and Madonna, but your brows shoot up in surprise when he slowly reveals that he knows the chords for all of them .
âShut up,â he tells you as you laugh at him. âIâm a musical genius; itâs not hard to know all of these.â
âI just didnât know you had such a soft spot for Blondie,â you jab.
Robin snorts and slides onto the log beside you, cracking open a canned something that fizzles and smells vaguely of mango.
Eddie continues strumming along, eventually devolving into some made-up song about two dragons named Sammie and Joey, as they watch him with wide eyes and awe-struck mouths.
Steve doesnât say much, but you catch him watching it all with this quiet, worn kind of love, like heâs trying to memorize it in case it slips away. His hand comes to rest on Sammieâs back as she clambers into his lap mid-song, her sticky fingers leaving sugar streaks on his shirt. He doesnât flinch. Just brushes her hair out of her face and hums along, his chin resting on top of her head.
You and Steve are on a beach vacation with your twins and your best friends, when Steve starts acting cagey. He's dealing with hard news from his parents, and you help him get through it.
Word count: 16.2k
Warnings: Fluff, Angst, Parenthood, Domestic Fluff, Mentions of Cancer, Loss of Parent(s), Hospitals
âSammie, honey, I know you hate it. But you have to wear sunscreen if you want to go in the water,â you beg your daughter, your hands making a soothing attempt on her restless arms. Youâd managed to lather up her arms and legs, but her face was a different story.
She lets out a noise halfway between â Mommmmm â and a whine.Â
âI know,â you repeat, cooing. âI know. Look at Daddy, huh?â you point your finger over her shoulder to Steve, already splashing in the shallow waves with her twin brother, making sure to keep his hand clasped around his tiny one. âSee how much fun heâs having with Joey?â
She whines again, stamping her little flip-flop bundled feet in the sand.Â
âI donât make the rules,â you tell her. âThe sun makes the rules, so if you wanna be mad at anyone, you can take it up with her,â you decide, pointing upward.Â
âThe sun is a girl?â Sammie asks, nose wrinkled in confusion.
âEveryone important is,â you say, matter-of-factly.
âAmen!â Robin hollers out, appearing behind you, arms filled with folded beach chairs, blankets, and tote bags likely filled with the ingredients to make some new gin drink sheâs obsessed with. She wears a loose striped button up over her swimsuit, and years-old Birkenstocks. âSam, take it from me: you do not wanna spend the rest of the weekend with burnt skin, peeling off whenever youââ
âYeah, not how I wouldâve gone about that; thanks very much Robbie,â you wince, giving her a light shove and sending one of the chairs tumbling into the sand. âNothingâs gonna happen to yourâ What Aunt Robin meant to say wasââ
âWhat your Aunt Robin meant to say,â Eddie chimes in, appearing over your other shoulder, curls pulled back into a ponytail, and tattoos poking out underneath his tattered tank top. âWas that youâre gonna feel like a total lameass if youââ
âDid you two geniuses bonk your heads together and forget how to talk around a child?â you ask, exasperated at the way theyâve both come in, guns-a-blazing.
âSorry,â he offers to you, smirking, not sorry at all. He turns back to Sammie, and plucks the tube of sunscreen from your hands. âYouâre gonna feel like a total lame- butt ,â he emphasizes, âif youâre not matching with your Uncle Eddie.â
And in under a minute, heâs somehow managed to prove again that he is, in fact, your childrenâs Cool Uncle Eddie , and that he is content to only use that title for good. Sammie looks aghast for a moment, not ever wanting to be left out, much less left out from something Eddieâs doing.Â
âYou put on sunâcreen?â she asks him, lovely little toddler lisp in full effect.
âHell yeah, I did,â he tells her, expertly dodging your swat at him, like he expects it. âAnd Iâll put on more right now if you want. âCause Iâm just so crazy about the stuff!âÂ
That gets a giggle fit out of her, as she offers her chubby little cheeks up to him, smiling. Eddie accepts the silent offer like itâs the highest of honors, squatting down in the sand with the tube of sunscreen and a theatrical seriousness that makes Sammie giggle even harder.
âAlright, Miss Samantha,â he says, squeezing a glob into his palm. âBrace yourself. This is the deluxe Uncle Eddie application method. Very elite. Very exclusive.â
Sammieâs little body wiggles with anticipation, caught between delight and suspicion, as Eddie starts dabbing the sunscreen gently onto her cheeks, then her nose, then rubbing it on the tops of her ears with exaggerated care.
âYou missed a spot,â Robin chimes in, flopping into one of the chairs she just dragged down, already opening a seltzer with a pshhht, pouring it into a travel mug, and shielding her eyes from the sun. âSheâs got this whole adorable chunk of neck thatâs gonna fry like bacon if you donât get it.â
âThanks, Coach,â Eddie says, squinting over his shoulder. âWanna tag in?â
âNo thanks,â Robin says cheerfully. âI donât get paid enough to wrestle toddlers.â
âYou donât get paid at all,â you remind her, settling into the umbrellaâs shade beside her, already digging in the bag for Sammieâs hat.
âExactly,â she says, smug. She adds a generous shot of gin to her cup. âSo whereâs my union rep?â
With Sammieâs nose now officially greased up, Eddie lifts her hat and plops it gently over her curls.
âAll done,â he announces. âCertified sun-proof. Youâre good to go, short stuff.â
Sammie immediately turns to you for permission, bouncing from foot to foot like she might combust if she doesn't get to run into the water in the next five seconds.
âAlright, alright,â you laugh. âGo find Daddy and Joey. Tell them to share that bucket this time.â
ââKay!â she chirps, already halfway running before you even finish the sentence. You watch her tiny legs kick up puffs of sand as she joins Steve and Joey at the edge of the surf, Steve crouched down to show them how to build a wall that wonât get wiped out by the next wave.
You sigh a little as you sit back under the umbrellaâs shade. âOkay. Now Iâm officially on vacation.â
âYou mean you werenât already relaxed wrangling sunscreen onto your kid while we heckled you?â Robin deadpans.
âOh yeah, nothing says paradise like bribing a four-year-old not to cry about SPF,â you say. âReally hit peak serenity around the peeling skin part, thanks again.â
Robin shrugs and clinks her drink against your water bottle. âWhat can I say? Iâm a giver.â
Eddie collapses into the chair on your other side, dramatically stretching his legs out in front of him. âI donât wanna hear either of you complaining. Iâm the one who had to do all the heavy lifting while being the fun uncle and the eye candy.â
âOh my god,â Robin groans. âNo one is looking at you.â
âThat lifeguard definitely checked me out.â
âHe was checking to make sure you put your joint out, you delinquent.â
Robin mixes you a matching drink and you laugh into it, loving how easily it all clicks into place. Like no time has passed, like youâve all been doing this foreverâ teasing each other, talking nonsense under beach umbrellas, taking turns being the adult while the others screw around.
You grin, toes in the sand, sun warm across your knees, kids shrieking with delight a few feet away, and your favorite clowns on either side of you. The cabin is just behind you up the hill, full of bags still half-packed and probably a cooler sitting in the trunk that someone forgot to unloadâ but for now, none of it matters. For now, this is perfect.
You flash back for a beat, to years ago, the four of you in the city, full of caffeine and half-baked plans, convinced you were going to change the world. Back then, your lives were a series of questionable ideas and late-night takeout. Now, the plans involve two kids, full-time jobs, and the heavy, weirdly comforting reality of growing older together.
You wouldnât trade it for anything in the world.
âBest bad idea weâve had in a while,â you murmur, watching Sammie shriek with laughter as a wave rushes up over her ankles.
Robin raises her can again. âTo bad ideas.â
Eddie lifts his sunglasses with a grin. âTo the beach.â
You clink all three together. âTo the weekend.â
Half an hour later, the umbrella shade has shifted just enough to stretch over your legs, and your half-empty drink has warmed to that weird, sun-drenched temperature that makes you question if itâs still good.
Sammie is a full-on tornado in the shallowsâ laughing maniacally as she hurls wet sand at the sea, only to squeal and scramble back whenever the water retaliates. Joey, by contrast, is crouched with impressive concentration a few feet away, methodically digging a trench with a plastic shovel, occasionally looking up to offer quiet commentary about what he's building. Thereâs something about a turtle moat and a secret treasure room, if you heard him right.
Robin and Eddie have long since joined the chaos, Robin hip-deep in the water, yelling something about incoming pirate ships, and Eddie pretending to be a sea monster trying to pull her under. Joey's barely acknowledged them, but Sammie has taken to shrieking âSave me, Aunt Robin!â like sheâs in a summer blockbuster.
Youâre watching the whole circus unfold when a shadow stretches across the sand beside you. Steve peels away from the chaos and wanders up the beach, dripping wet and flushed from the sun. He shakes out his curls with one hand as he approaches.
âTheyâve got enough adult supervision out there, right?â he asks, slumping into the chair beside you.
âDefine âadult,ââ you say, offering him your bottle of water. He takes it gratefully.
You hum, tipping your head back against the chair. The sunâs mellowed a little, hazy behind passing clouds, but the air is still thick with salt and sunscreen and the sound of waves. Youâre quiet for a beat, listening to the crashing waves and the distant shriek of Sammie declaring war on Eddieâs sandcastle. Then, more gently:
âI was surprised when your mom called earlier,â you say. Sheâd called the landline at the cabin, and Steve had stepped outside to take it while you got the kids situated. âEverything okay?â
He freezes just slightly, a pause so small you almost miss it. His face stays relaxed, but you can feel the little shift beside you. Then he nods, quick, brushing a hand through his damp hair.
âYeah,â he says. âShe just... wanted to check in. Asked if we got here safe. You know how she is.â
You tilt your head. âI mean, not really. She doesnât usually call unless itâs something.â
He shrugs, managing a casual smile thatâs just convincing enough. âGuess sheâs trying a new thing. Being all... maternal. Weird, right?â
You laugh, letting it go. You let the moment settle, comforted by the familiar rhythm between you. His presence beside you is warm and grounding, a small oasis of calm amid the chaos.
You both lapse into a contented silence, the kind that only comes after years of knowing each other, after shared dinners and emergencies and birthday parties and long nights when the kids wouldnât sleep and someone had to make coffee at 3 a.m. The kind of quiet where not talking is the conversation.
The scene before you is a little chaotic, a little surreal: sun-glossed water, bright beach toys, your friends playing like children, your actual children playing like wild things. But itâs also so good , you think. So full.
Robin has Sammie perched on her shoulders now, stomping through the shallows like a warhorse, and Eddieâs dramatically flopping around nearby, howling, âNo! Not the Sea Queen! My mortal enemy!â
Thatâs about when Robin cups her hands around her mouth and shouts, âHey! Land-dweller! You cominâ in or what?â
âMe?â You shake your head, lazy and smug. âToo comfy.â
Eddie echoes her, pointing a dripping hand toward you. âYeah, come on! Youâre missing the worldâs best game of Water Tag.â
âI donât know, you look like youâre losing,â you shout back, sipping from your drink.
Robin places Sammie back down and turns her toward you. âTell her you need her help, Sam.â
Sammie immediately throws her hands in the air. âMommmmmmy! Come plaaaay!â
Joey pops up beside her, face half-covered in sand and the most serious expression youâve ever seen. âWe need you to be the Kraken.â
Steve coughs a laugh beside you. âDamn. Hard to say no to that.â
You squint at the water, and the four pleading faces in it. Robin grinning, Eddie already preparing a monologue, Sammie bouncing like sheâs physically incapable of stillness, and Joey with Steveâs big brown eyes and that earnest little voice.
You sigh theatrically, set your drink aside, and spring to your feet. âAlright, fine. But you better run.â
Sammie shrieks. âSHEâS COMING!!!â
The waterâs cold when it hits your ankles, but you donât care. They scatter ahead of you, Sammie squealing, and Joey giggling.
You dive in without grace, arms stretched wide, chasing Sammie first because you know she loves it best, and she lets herself be caught with a dramatic scream. Joey tags your arm and darts away, fast as a minnow. You shriek back at him, laughing, and splash after them, flailing limbs and sparkling water everywhere.
The beach rings with noise. Laughter, splashes, shouted rules no one is following. Itâs pure chaos. Itâs perfect.
Eventually, the sun starts to dip lower, and Robin calls itâ towel time. You all stumble out of the water in various states of soggy and sandy, kids chattering nonstop, adults blinking the salt from their eyes. Steve hands out towels like medals. Eddie finds the cooler and groans dramatically about needing an adult beverage. Robinâs already trying to wrangle the gear back into bags that somehow multiplied while you were playing.
Joey leans against your leg while you wrap him in a towel burrito. âI made a sea turtle house, Mom.â
You grin, pressing a kiss to his damp hair. âYouâll have to show me where it is in the morning.â
Sammieâs shivering in Steveâs arms, head resting on his shoulder, still babbling about the mermaid she swears she saw on the horizon.
The six of you start the slow climb back up the beach, trailing sandy towels and mismatched flip-flops, the porchlights glowing like a promise up ahead.
The cabin is warm with leftover golden light and the smell of grilled corn and watermelon still lingering from dinner. Robinâs put on an old tape (Melissa Etheridge, you think) and the windows are cracked to let in the evening air. Youâve all eaten too much, laughed too loud, and now youâre sunk deep into the comedown of a perfect beach day.
Sammie is completely out, curled like a kitten in Eddieâs lap on the couch, her curls damp and sticky with saltwater, her cheek smushed into his leg. He hasnât dared move, just strokes her back absentmindedly with one hand while sipping a beer with the other.
Joey, still blinking slow and sleepy but clearly determined to make it just a little longer, is sitting cross-legged on the rug beside Robin, showing her the notebook he insisted on bringing. Sheâs bent close, cooing in exaggerated awe as he explains the blue crayon squiggles and little stick figures with wild hair. You catch the word âKraken lairâ and have to bite back a smile.
Steveâs slouched in the matching armchair next to you, long legs stretched out, drink sweating in his hand. He glances around at the chaos fondly.
The conversation winds lazily from there, looping through familiar territory: college stories, road trips, weird jobs. At one point, Eddie starts recounting the time he tried to impress a guy who worked at the comic shop by learning sleight-of-hand magic.
âOh my god,â Robin gasps. âThat wasnât ironic?â
âIt was a little ironic,â Eddie defends in a hushed tone. âBut also very real. I had a deck of cards in every pair of pants.â
âDid it work?â Steve asks, grinning over his drink.
âAbsolutely not. Turns out sleight-of-hand only works when youâre not also nervous-sweating all over the cards. God, that guy was a stone-cold stunner,â Eddie mutters, and Sammie stirs slightly in his lap, just enough for him to freeze and whisper, âSorry, sorry, go back to sleep, small beast.â
Robinâs cackling when Joey quietly tugs her sleeve to show her another drawing. âThis oneâs you and Uncle Eddie fighting a sea monster.â
âI look jacked,â she says seriously. âPlease never learn anatomy. Itâs perfect.â
âYou are so delusional, Robbie,â Eddie teases, while she flips him off as gently as possible with a child next to her.
Laughter bubbles up again, bright and stupid and easy. The music hums in the background, and Sammie sighs in her sleep, pressing her nose into Eddieâs knee. Joey is blinking harder now, his words slurring together as he tries to explain his final masterpiece: a two-headed mermaid fighting a volcano.
Eventually, you glance at the time and nudge Steve. âBedtime?â
He nods, already reaching for Sammie carefully. âIâll take her.â
Eddie hands her over with the gentleness of someone used to this. âIf she wakes up, just tell her the Krakenâs sleeping too.â
âIâm using that,â Steve murmurs, adjusting her weight in his arms.
You gather Joey, whoâs half-asleep against Robin now, his drawings clutched to his chest. He leans into you with a sleepy murmur and lets you carry him without protest.
The kids disappear down the hall in your arms, breathing heavy and warm and safe. You donât bother with baths tonight. You brush their teeth and tuck them in, smoothing blankets and brushing away sand and whispering promises of pancakes and sea turtle houses in the morning.
When you finally return to the living room, Steveâs already behind the kitchen counter, sleeves pushed up and brow furrowed in what can only be described as Serious Bartender Mode. You watch as he moves confidently, pulling out bottles and muddling something with the back of a spoon.
âAlright,â he announces. âWeâve got one gin basil smash for Rob, one whiskey sour for me, one âplease just make it strongâ for the delinquent, andâŚâ He pauses, looking to you.
âSurprise me,â you say, dropping into the corner of the couch where Eddieâs just started to stretch out.
âOh no,â Robin murmurs, now next to Eddie on the couch. âThatâs how you ended up drinking Fernet and crying.â
âIf you donât want me crying, then turn off the Melissa Etheridge,â you defend mildly, earning a snort from Eddie.
A few minutes later, Steve delivers the drinks with the flourish of a practiced showman, plopping down in the chair beside you with his own in hand. You clink glasses all around, the ice clattering pleasantly in the dim light.
You take a sip, then glance at Robin over the rim of your glass. âSo... howâs it going with that girl youâve been seeing? The one with the motorcycle and the intimidating jawline?â
Robin raises a brow. âWhich one?â
âOh my God,â Eddie groans. âWe get it, youâre cool.â
Steve leans forward like heâs at a poker table. âWait, the mechanic? Or the dentist?â
âSheâs a dental hygienist,â Robin corrects, then shrugs. âItâs good, I think. Weâve gone out a few times. She made me dinner last week and asked me what my top three albums of all time are. I totally freaked out, and couldnât answer her.â
âWhat?â Steve laughs. âWhy?â
âItâs too much pressure!â
âBut your favorite album is--â Eddie starts, only to have the sentence completed by all of you:
âDream of Life, Patti Smith.â
She blinks at you all, impressed and maybe a little alarmed. âOkay, wow. That was terrifyingly in sync.â
âI totally get what youâre saying though, Robbie,â you say, swirling the last bit of ice around in your glass. âItâs one thing to have a favorite album. One that you love so much it feels like home. But trying to come up with three albums that perfectly sum up who you are as a person? Thatâs like⌠an identity crisis waiting to happen.â
Eddie snorts. âOkay, Socrates.â
âIâm just saying!â You gesture vaguely with your glass. âI agree; thereâs too much pressure. Like, do I pick the one that shaped my taste in music? Or the one that reminds me of high school? Or the one that makes me cry in a good way?â
Steve raises an eyebrow. âCanât it be all three?â
âBut then Iâll forget one that I deeply identify with and spiral at 3 a.m. about whether Iâm fundamentally misrepresenting myself!â
Robin points dramatically. âExactly!â
âOh my God,â Eddie groans, dragging a hand down his face. âYou people are exhausting. Just say Rumors and be done with it.â He tosses a pillow in your direction.
You catch it with a smirk. âAlright, fine. What are your top three, then?â
Eddie sits up straighter, clearly ready. âOkay. Master of Puppets, obviously. Holy Diver, Dio. And,â he pauses, dramatically, like heâs about to reveal his deepest secret, âTapestry by Carole King.â
Robin nearly chokes on her drink. âNo way.â
Steveâs eyes go wide. âTapestry?!â
Eddie shrugs, completely unapologetic. âItâs a masterpiece. Donât look at me like that. âSo Far Awayâ hurts, man.â
Youâre already laughing. âHonestly, I shouldâve expected that from you. You big sentimental jerk, Munson.â
Robin giggles. âOkay, Iâm still on board with Patti Smith. Then probably The Queen is Dead, and⌠ugh, Heaven or Las Vegas.â
Steve nods like itâs exactly what he expected. âThat tracks.â
Eddie turns to him. âAlright, Harrington. Lay it on us.â
He takes a slow sip of his drink, then goes, âBorn to Run, Purple Rain, andâŚâ A pause. A glance at you, then a sheepish little grin. âThat Cranberries album. The one you played all the time when the twins were born.â
Your heart does something a little unwise.
Robin clutches her chest. âYou softie .â
Steve smirks. âYeah, well. I had a baby in each arm and the love of my life dancing in the kitchen to âDreams.â Kinda burned into my brain.â
Your drink is suddenly very interesting. âKinda the best album ever made,â you amend.
Eddie groans dramatically. âIâm gonna vomit.â
You barely get a sip of your drink before Robin looks at you pointedly. âAlright. Youâre up.â
You blink. âWhat?â
âYour three albums,â Steve says, nudging your foot with his. âYou donât get to wiggle out of it just because you monologued about identity crises.â
Eddie grins. âYeah, letâs go, Spiral Queen. Top three.â
You sigh and curl your legs underneath you, pressing the rim of your glass to your lips for a moment. âOkay. I want to say No Need to Argue by The Cranberries.â
But Steve immediately makes a face. âUh-uh. Thatâs cheating. I already picked that one.â
You squint at him, indignant. âHow is that cheating? Itâs a different personâs list!"
âBut itâs the same album,â Robin counters, already giddy with the chance to pounce.
Eddie points at you, accusatory. âYeah, sorry, thatâs a technical foul. Youâre gonna have to dig deeper into the tragic-girl vault.â
You groan, laughing. âUnbelievable. Youâre all monsters.â
Steve shrugs, smug. âI donât make the rules.â
âYou literally just did,â you shoot back, but the grinâs pulling at your mouth anyway. âFine. Okay. First one: Joni Mitchellâs Blue. My mom played it constantly when I was a kid. I knew every word to âA Case of Youâ before I knew my multiplication tables.â
Eddie clutches his chest. âUgh. Devastating. I love it.â
Robin lifts her glass. âPerfect album. Continue.â
You pause, thoughtful, tracing a finger around the rim of your glass. âSecond one⌠Parallel Lines, Blondie. For obvious reasons. Teen angst, messy eyeliner, dancing around my bedroom thinking I was very dangerous.â
Robin sighs happily. âGod, yes. Youâre on a roll, Y/n.â
Steve smiles at you, soft. âOkay, thatâs two. Whatâs the third?â
You hesitate just long enough that they all lean in. And then you say it, quiet but certain: âThe mixtape Steve made me in â87.â
Eddie gasps. Robin actually drops her mouth open. Steve just sits there, stunned.
âOh come on,â Robin says, scandalized. âThatâs not an album!â
âThatâs definitely cheating!â Eddie cries, nearly sloshing his drink. Youâre all content to ignore the fact that there are currently sleeping kids on the premises.
You hold your ground, eyebrows raised. âNope. If Iâm forced to choose the music that shaped me⌠That tape is one of them.â
Steve practically glows, a slow, disbelieving grin breaking across his face. âYou serious?â he asks, eyes already doing that stupid sparkly thing they do when you say something sappy without warning.
You glance at him. âYou put love songs by Springsteen and Prince and The Cure on one cassette and handed it to me like it wasnât going to change my life.â
Robin groans into her hands. âThatâs so romantic Iâm going to scream.â
Steve finally moves, leaning over to kiss youâ quick, sweet, and totally besotted. âI canât believe you picked that.â
You smile into his lips, stealing another kiss as your friends pretend to gag. You feel Steveâs laugh fan out onto your cheeks. âBelieve it, Harrington.â
âI mean, Iâm still calling foul,â Robin says, though sheâs smiling like crazy. âBut I respect the emotional manipulation.â
You all descend into laughter again, half-drunk and warm, trading one-liners and teasing stories. Itâs late when things finally wind down, the kind of late where the music stops unnoticed and no one finishes their last drink. The air has gone soft and quiet, like everyoneâs speaking in a lower register without meaning to. The couches are covered in discarded blankets, empty glasses, and the echo of the dayâs sun still faintly warming your skin.
Robin yawns and stretches with a groan. âAlright, Iâm tapping out. Got a long day of wrangling menaces tomorrow.â
âHey!â Steve objects.
âAdorable menaces,â she amends. âMenaces whom I love with all my heart.â
Steve brushes your back gently as he passes to turn off the stereo. Eddie flips the last lamp off with a soft click.
âNight, darlings,â Robin calls as she disappears down the hall.
âSweet dreams of sea monsters,â Eddie adds, heading in the opposite direction with a little wave.
You and Steve linger a second longer in the quiet, letting the peace of it settle over you like a blanket. Then you follow the others down the hallway, barefoot and sleepy, leaving the soft hush of the living room behind.
Steve doesnât head straight to your room. Instead, he veers quietly toward the kitchen while you slip into the bedroom, peeling off the damp sweatshirt you threw on after your shower earlier. Youâre halfway through brushing out your hair when he reappears in the doorway, holding something behind his back.
You narrow your eyes. âWhat did you do?â
He smiles, crooked and soft and a little sheepish. âYou said earlier your shoulderâs been bugging you, right?â
You nod, unsure. He reveals a hot water bottle wrapped in a dish towelâ one of the goofy ones with flamingos wearing sunglasses that Robin found in a cabinet this morning.
Your heart catches a little. âYouâre so annoying when you do stuff like that.â
âThoughtful?â he teases, walking over. âConsiderate? Handsome?â
You snort, but you take the bottle from him anyway and rest it over your shoulder as you look at him through the mirror. The heat seeps into your skin, immediate and perfect. âOkay, fine. One point Harrington. Weâre tied now, I suppose.â
Steve leans in and kisses the top of your head. âIâll check on the kids.â
You watch him go, still smiling to yourself as you curl your toes into the soft rug and listen to his footsteps down the hall. You hear the gentle creak of a door, and the soft shuffling of blankets.
You brush your teeth and hum under your breath. You donât hear the phone out on the kitchen wall ring until the third shrill chime, distant but clear.
Then Steveâs voice againâ quieter this time. Not just gentle, but⌠hushed.
You frown, rinsing quickly and pad barefoot into the bedroom doorway, peering out into the hall. His silhouette is just visible in the kitchen, leaning slightly over the counter. The cord of the phone is wrapped tight in one hand.
You catch just the tail end of something, âYeah, I know. I just⌠Do whatever you think is best,â before he hangs up and turns.
When he spots you, his expression shifts like a switch. He plasters on something easy and light. Too easy.
âSorry,â he says, rubbing the back of his neck. âMy mom again.â
You tilt your head. âThis late?â
Steve shrugs. âSheâs in one of her⌠moods, I guess. Wanted to hear how the day went. Asked about the kids.â He says it with a note of practiced exasperation, but youâre watching him too closely now to miss the way his jaw tenses just slightly. âNothing dramatic.â
You nod slowly, but thereâs a prickle in your gut that wasnât there before. âYou sure?â
His eyes meet yours for a second too long before he crosses the room and presses a kiss to your temple. âIâm sure,â he murmurs. âPromise. Come to bed.â
You let him guide you back into the warmth of the blankets, his arms wrapping around you like a shield. But your mind doesnât settle quite as easily this time. Steveâs breathing deepens behind you, slow and even. You lie awake a little longer, eyes tracing the soft pattern of moonlight on the wall, that quiet little prickle still lingering in the back of your mind.
You donât remember falling asleep, but the morning comes in loud and fast.
A crash from the kitchen. A shriek of laughter. A door slamming. Then Joey yelling, âMOOOOMMMMMY! SAMMIE PUT JELLY ON MY DRAWING!â
You groan into the pillow.
Steve groans into your shoulder.
Thereâs a momentâ brief, preciousâ where neither of you moves. Just two grown adults pretending they donât hear anything.
Then another crash. Followed by a voice, probably Robinâs, shouting, âWhy is the toaster in the bathroom?!â
Steve sighs. âOkay. Iâm going.â
He peels himself out of bed, already muttering something under his breath about caffeine and childproofing, while you sit up, stretching, the sheets slipping down your arms.
You follow the trail of chaos to the kitchen, where Joeyâs mid-rant about the colony of sea monsters and Sammie is sitting on the table eating jelly straight out of the jar with her fingers. Robinâs got a spatula in one hand and a Pop-Tart in the other.
Youâre barely pouring your coffee when the screen door creaks open, and Eddie strolls in from the back porch in sweatpants and sunglasses, looking like heâs stepped out of a bandâs breakup album. Thereâs a cigarette tucked behind one ear and another freshly stubbed out on the deck railing.
âMorning, freaks,â he says around a yawn. âIs this a child-led uprising, or did you guys just give up?â
Steve turns instantly, voice sharp. âHey. Donât smoke with the kids around.â
Eddie freezes, brows lifting under the messy sweep of his bangs. âI was outside.â
âThey can still see you,â Steve says, and thereâs something in his voice, just a little too pointed, a little too intense for the moment.
You look up from your mug, surprised. âItâs okay, Steve. He was out back.â
Steve doesnât look at you right away. Just presses his lips together, then runs a hand through his hair. âYeah. Sorry. Just⌠forget it.â
Eddie watches him a second longer, unreadable, then tosses both hands up in surrender. âIâll smoke in the woods like a banshee, got it.â
Sammie perks up. âWhatâs a banshee?â
Robin groans, âMe, before coffee.â
The tension breaks like a soap bubble. You slide past Steve and bump his hip gently with yours. âCâmon. Letâs get them outside before they redecorate the whole place with fruit preserves.â
It takes a half hour of scrambling: packing snacks, sunscreen, wrangling Sammie into a swimsuit she insists is âtoo blue today,â and Joey running back inside three times to retrieve very specific shells for the roof of his sea turtle house. Eventually, you all make it down to the beach again, arms full of towels and pails and shovels and a cooler that Robin insists she packed âlike a suburban goddess.â
The kids bolt ahead, already arguing over whose sandcastle gets the moat. You and Steve set up the umbrella while Eddie drapes himself over a towel with the exhausted grace of a man who deeply regrets ever waking up.
Robin tosses her sandals off and jogs after the kids, yelling something about architectural integrity and âsand engineering.â Steve follows a beat later, slower but smiling, already shedding his shirt as Joey shouts for help with his shells. You catch him pausing to ruffle Sammieâs hair on the way, pointing something out about wave patterns, his voice warm and gentle and grounding.
You and Eddie hang back beneath the umbrella. The shade is cool against your sun-warmed skin, the sand still clinging to your ankles from the walk down. Eddie flops onto the towel with a groan, and you settle beside him, knees drawn up, sunglasses sliding down your nose.
Itâs the kind of day thatâs lazy in the best way, breezy but not cold, the smell of salt thick in the air, sunscreen and seaweed and distant grilled food wafting from a few houses down. The sun blinks in and out of drifting clouds like itâs playing hide and seek, and the sound of the surf comes in steady, predictable pulses, like the beach is breathing.
âJesus,â Eddie mutters after a minute, shifting to glance toward the sandcastle drama. âTheyâve already formed factions.â
âRobinâs trying to unionize the builders,â you reply dryly. âSteveâs in charge of moat logistics.â
He snorts out a laugh and tilts his head to look at you, squinting. His voice is quieter when he says, âHey. Is he⌠okay?â
The question lands lightly, but something about it knots in your stomach.
You shift. âI mean⌠I guess heâs been tired. Itâs been a long week.â
Eddie doesnât push, but he doesnât drop it either. âYeah, sure. It just⌠I dunno. Heâs off. Like, tense. On edge in a way that doesnât feel like work or the kids or whateverâŚâ He trails off, then says more gently, âYouâd tell me if something was going on, right?â
You hesitate. Because nothing is going on. Not really. But thereâs a weight in your chest that says you donât know that for sure.
âHe said it was his mom last night,â you admit quietly. âShe called late. I heard him, and he said it was nothing, just her being... her. But he seemed weird. Jumpy. Like he was trying to cover something.â
âI donât know. He wouldnât tell me if she wasnât.â You exhale, tugging your sunglasses off and pinching the bridge of your nose. âHeâs been really careful not to lie, exactly. But it feels like heâs⌠hiding something. Or trying not to make me worry.â
âThat always works,â Eddie deadpans.
You give him a look. âItâs probably nothing.â
âBut you donât believe that.â
You pause. âI want to.â
Eddieâs voice softens again. âSorry for earlier. I didnât mean to push it with the smoking.â
You wave him off. âItâs fine. Steve was overreacting. He gets protective, especially with the kids around.â
âStill. I donât want to mess up the vibe.â
âYouâre not,â you say automatically, then glance toward the water, where Steveâs now got wet sand on his nose and a kid on each arm.
The scene is idyllic. Beautiful, even. It should feel perfect. But that prickle is back, faint and hard to ignore.
Eddieâs quiet beside you again. Youâre both watching the people you love play in the surf. The kids shrieking with joy. The breeze catching Steveâs hair as he laughs at something Robin says. The sun glinting off the water.
You donât say anything else.
But youâre both still thinking about it.
Eventually, Robin waves a towel like a flag and announces lunchtime, and everyone drifts back to the umbrella in sunburned, sandy waves. Thereâs grit in the cooler, juice boxes buried under damp bags of pretzels, and Eddie swears the sandwiches are sweating, but no one really minds. The breadâs squished, the peanut butter sticky, the chips all crushed into crumbs. And still, it tastes incredible. Sun-warmed and salt-crusted, like every childhood summer wrapped up in one bite.
Joey eats his sandwich deconstructed, one ingredient at a time. Sammie accidentally gets mustard in her eye (youâre not even sure what she was trying to do). Steve hands you a bottle of water before you even ask. His fingers graze yours, warm and grounding, and he smiles, soft and distracted.
You catch his gaze lingering on the kidsâ on Joey, covered in sand from the knees down, explaining some complicated plan to Eddie about his beloved sea turtle houseâ and something tightens in his jaw again. Just for a second. Then itâs gone.
After lunch, the sun climbs higher, hotter. The kids want to go back to building, and this time, you donât hang back. You let yourself get pulled into the chaos with Steve and Robin. You crouch next to Joey as he draws flower patterns into the castle wall with a piece of driftwood.
You glance over at one point and see Steve listening intently, nodding along as Sammie explains the rules of her imaginary kingdom. He doesnât laugh or brush it off, just gives Sammie his full attention, the way he always has. His hairâs a mess, his shirt is half-soaked from getting tackled earlier, and thereâs sunscreen smudged on his cheek.
And you think, God , heâs so good at this.
There are sandcastles and attempted seashell currency systems, seagulls who nearly steal a full sandwich, and one dramatic collapse of a tower that results in a group funeral for a plastic shovel. Steve officiates. Eddie sings. Robin throws seaweed instead of flowers.
Itâs good. Fun. The kind of day youâll remember. The kind the kids will remember.
By the time the sun starts dipping lower, the breeze cooler now and laced with the scent of dinner cooking in far-off beach houses, everyoneâs a little pink around the shoulders and bleary-eyed with tiredness.
Steveâs kneeling in the sand helping Joey rinse his hands with bottled water. Sammieâs trying to drag a piece of driftwood twice her size back toward the umbrella, insisting itâs absolutely crucial to take it home.
You and Steve work together, shaking out towels, repacking the cooler. The kids hover in and out of the process, too tired to be helpful but too wound-up to be still. You glance over your shoulder at him as you zip up a beach bag.
Heâs quiet again. Not distant, but inward. Thoughtful.
âHey,â you say softly.
He looks up at you, and for a moment, his face shifts like it did last night. Like he might say something.
But then Joey calls out to him, âDaddy, look at this seashell! It looks like a wizard hat!â and the moment vanishes. He flashes you a quick smile, ruffles your hair with one sandy hand, and jogs off to help.
You watch him go, something warm and fond blooming in your chest. But beneath it, that same quiet thrum.
By the time you all trudge back up to the cabin, the sun is melting behind the trees in streaks of pink and orange, and everyone is sticky, sun-drenched, and trailing sand through the house like a breadcrumb trail of summer.
Shoes are kicked off by the door. Swimsuits are peeled off and swapped for oversized shirts and soft shorts. Dinner is a communal effort. Robin is on pasta duty, and Eddie is slicing tomatoes. This devolves into bickering among the two of them in regard to the exact definition of âal denteâ and when to pull the noodles. Steve pulls you in to help with garlic bread and refuses to let you go.
He slides in behind you at the counter, arms curling low around your waist, chin on your shoulder. âYou smell like sunscreen and ocean and crumbs,â he murmurs, voice soft and tired and full of affection.
You laugh, elbowing him lightly. âThatâs because Iâve been rolling around with your children in the sand all day.â
âYou looked good doing it,â he says, nosing into the curve of your neck. His mouth brushes the skin there, not quite a kiss, but not not one either.
Thereâs a beat of quiet where itâs just the two of you, framed in the golden kitchen light and the smell of garlic and basil, and it hits you hardâ how grateful you are for this, for him. How much he loves them. How much you love him.
He shifts to face you more fully, eyes earnest, voice barely above a whisper. âThanks for today.â
You blink. âWhat?â
Steve just smiles, a little lopsided. âI mean it. Youâre good with them. Youâre good for me. I donât say it enough.â
You canât answer right away. You just reach up and press your hand to his cheek, brushing a bit of sand from his temple, and his eyes flutter shut under your touch.
You all squeeze around the table, plates heavy with pasta, garlic bread passed around, juice and soda and a bottle of red for the adults. Steve sits next to you, thigh pressed to yours beneath the table, hand occasionally brushing your knee when he reaches for something.
Itâs loud, laughter echoing off the cabin walls. The kind of dinner thatâs more about presence than polish.
And then the phone rings. Everyone quiets for half a second. Just enough to hear it ring again.
âI got it,â Steve says, already halfway to his feet.
You glance at him, eyebrows raised. âYou sure?â
âYeah,â he says too quickly. Already walking.
You watch him cross the kitchen, pick up the receiver. You donât hear what he says, just see the way his shoulders tighten slightly. He murmurs something, then steps out the back door, letting the screen slam shut behind him.
Eddie looks at you, brow crinkled. You give a slight shrug, sipping your wine.
The chatter resumes, with Robin wrangling Sammie into her chair, and Joey eating each noodle individually.Â
But your eyes flick back to the window. Outside, Steve paces a little, one hand rubbing the back of his neck. Heâs tenseâ mouth tight, body pulled in like heâs bracing for something.
You catch his eye for a moment, and mouth âYour mom?â with your brows furrowed.
He hesitates, then gives the smallest nod. You donât feel reassured.Â
The conversation is short. Five minutes, maybe less. But when he comes back in, his jaw is tight, and he wonât quite meet your eyes. Heâs trying to school his face into something neutral, but itâs not sticking. Heâs still holding whatever that was.
Sammie runs up to him as he closes the door. âDaddy!â she says, pulling on his sleeve. âMommy said we can do sâmores tonight!â
He sighs, scratching his eyebrow. âNo, weâre not doing a fire tonight, Sammie.â
âPlease?â Sammie tries again. âUncle Eddie said heâd show me how to light the marshmallows on fire.â
Steveâs voice comes out sharper and louder than it should. âI said no , Sam.â
The air goes still. Sammie blinks, stunned. Her bottom lip wobbles. And through what youâve always been convinced is twin telepathy, Joeyâs face crumples too.
You stand up instinctively, but Steveâs already there, crouching down fast.
âHey, hey, hey,â he says, voice cracking a little now. âIâm sorry. That wasnât fair. I didnât mean to yell. I justâŚâ She wonât look at him.
âSteve,â you breath out, reaching for Joey and pulling him into your lap. âWas that really necessary?â
âNo, I didnât mean to⌠Iâm sorry, Sammie.â She finally looks at Steve. Still watery, but nodding. âIâm sorry, Joey. I didnât mean to yell.â
Steve leans forward, presses a kiss to the top of Sammieâs head. Then another, like a silent apology stitched into skin. You watch him, heart aching.
Robin meets your eyes across the table. Worry there. Eddieâs gone quiet.
No one asks what the phone call was about. But you all feel it, now.
Steve stays knelt by Sammie for a few more seconds, smoothing her hair back, murmuring something only she can hear. You see the way his shoulders slowly drop, tension draining inch by inch, though his eyes still look tired and too far away.
Then Joey pipes up, his voice small but hopeful: âSo⌠no sâmores?â
Steve looks up, glances at you, then Robin, then finally back at the kids. And sighs. âOf course weâre doing sâmores tonight,â he says, softer this time, trying for a smile.
Sammie lights up instantly, all forgiven. She lets out a squeal and does an adorable little spin. âYes! Uncle Eddie said heâs gonna make a sugar volcano!â
âJesus Christ,â Steve mutters as he pushes to his feet, rubbing at his neck. âAlright, Robin. Fire duty?â
Robin salutes with a wooden spoon. âBorn ready. Letâs go play with matches.â
âStay inside for a bit, and weâll call you outside when itâs ready, okay?â Steve tells the kids, and the nod before scattering, Sammie grabbing her stuffed giraffe and Joey dragging his crayons into the living room.
Steve grabs the lighter from the top shelf, and Robin tugs on his sleeve before they head out. You watch her lean in, say something low near his ear. He nods onceâ tired, but gratefulâ and the two of them slip out the back door into the cooler evening air.
You start stacking plates, moving on instinct. Eddie stands too, gathering napkins and stray cups, dropping them into the trash one-handed while grabbing a dishtowel with the other.
You can feel his eyes on you before he speaks.
âYou gonna talk to him tonight?â he asks quietly, not looking up.
You glance toward the living room to make sure the kids are distracted. âYeah,â you murmur. âI think I have to.â
Eddie nods. Rinses a plate. Doesnât say anything for a second.
Then, âHeâs not mad at them. You know that, right?â
You sigh, drying the dish he hands you. âI know.â
âItâs likeâŚâ Eddie trails off, then shrugs. âIâve seen that look before. You get a call, the one you donât want but canât ignore, and it screws up everything after. Doesnât matter if itâs five minutes or five hours. It sticks.â
You glance toward the window, watching the flicker of orange starting to dance in the fire pit outside. Steve and Robin are hunched near it, Robin obviously giving instructions heâs half-listening to. His hand keeps raking through his hair.
âI just donât know what it is,â you say softly. âHe said it was his mom, but heâs not telling me whatâs going on. I donât know if sheâs okay, or if something happened, or if itâs just her beingâŚâ
âHerself?â Eddie offers gently.
You nod.
He leans against the counter. âHeâs probably trying to protect you from it. From her.â
âI donât need protection from a phone call,â you say, but even as the words leave your mouth, they feel a little hollow. âI just⌠I want him to talk to me.â
âHe will,â Eddie says. âYouâre the one he always talks to. Just⌠maybe tonight he needs a nudge.â
You look down at the towel in your hands, at the fading grease smudge and the tiny pasta stain, and nod.
âThanks,â you murmur.
Eddie bumps your shoulder with his. âFor the record, Iâm not lighting anything on fire unless Steve gives me full legal permission.â
You huff a laugh, grateful for the shift. âCoward.â
âRealist,â he corrects. âWith hair like this, I canât risk it.â
Outside, you hear the crackle of the fire catch. Robin cheers, and Steve calls for the kids, who dart out wildly.
You and Eddie trail after them, stepping into the flickering firelight. The warmth of the flames cuts the chill of the evening air, the sky deepening to a dusky blue overhead. The scent of woodsmoke curls through the air, mixing with the sweet promise of toasted sugar.
Steveâs crouched by the fire, sleeves pushed up, methodically unwrapping chocolate bars and graham crackers onto a paper plate. He looks up when Sammie launches herself onto the log beside him, grinning like nothing ever happened.
And Steve, his eyes soft, tired but still so tender, smiles back.
âAlright, little pyromaniacs,â he says, voice gentle now, ârules of the fire: no running, no sword fights with marshmallow sticks, and if your marshmallow catches on fire, donât fling it at your sibling.â
He moves slowly, deliberately, but he doesnât hesitate. He helps Sammie press her sâmore together, fingers sticky with melted chocolate. He teaches Joey how to rotate his marshmallow just-so. He makes one for you without asking, offering it with a tired smile and eyes that linger a second too long.
Then Eddie, true to his word and against his better judgment, brings out his guitar.
âAlright, tiny gremlins,â he says, settling into a camp chair. âRequests?â
Sammie and Joey shout out requests of songs they barely know the names to, songs that you and Steve loved in high school, and that he now plays for them in the car. Eddie wrinkles his nose in disgust at the amount of Van Halen and Madonna, but your brows shoot up in surprise when he slowly reveals that he knows the chords for all of them .
âShut up,â he tells you as you laugh at him. âIâm a musical genius; itâs not hard to know all of these.â
âI just didnât know you had such a soft spot for Blondie,â you jab.
Robin snorts and slides onto the log beside you, cracking open a canned something that fizzles and smells vaguely of mango.
Eddie continues strumming along, eventually devolving into some made-up song about two dragons named Sammie and Joey, as they watch him with wide eyes and awe-struck mouths.
Steve doesnât say much, but you catch him watching it all with this quiet, worn kind of love, like heâs trying to memorize it in case it slips away. His hand comes to rest on Sammieâs back as she clambers into his lap mid-song, her sticky fingers leaving sugar streaks on his shirt. He doesnât flinch. Just brushes her hair out of her face and hums along, his chin resting on top of her head.
Eventually, the kids tire out. It happens all at once, like a switch flipped. Sammie slumps against Steveâs shoulder mid-marshmallow, and Joey stumbles into you with half-lidded eyes and an open graham cracker sleeve. Once the bedtime process startsâ pajamas, toothbrushes, water cupsâ theyâre melting like marshmallows left too close to the flame.
You and Steve tag-team the routine with practiced ease, helping Sammie into her favorite nightgown, finding Joeyâs favorite stuffed triceratops wedged under the couch.
Robin stumbles, slightly tipsy, into her room with a kiss blown in your direction, and Eddie heads toward his room with his guitar, tossing you a lazy salute. âWake me if the kids try to set anything else on fire.â
As you make your way back to the bedroom, you hear Steve in the kidsâ room. He lingers for a moment by Sammie, brushing her hair back from her forehead.
âIâm sorry for earlier,â he says quietly.
Sammie blinks sleepily. âItâs okay, Daddy.â
âI shouldnât have yelled,â he murmurs, kissing her forehead. âThat wasnât your fault. I just had a weird day.â
She nods like she understands far more than she should. âItâs okay,â she says again. âYou were just cranky.â
Steve huffs a soft laugh. âYeah. I was cranky.â
Joeyâs already asleep, curled up in a tangle of dino blankets. Steve closes the door gently behind him. The hallway is dim and hushed, the only sound the soft creak of wood cooling from the dayâs heat. Steve exhales and leans back against the wall, his eyes closed for a beat too long. You can see the way his shoulders drop now that the kids are down, now that itâs just the two of you again. But itâs not peace. Itâs fatigue. Deep, bone-level weariness thatâs been building all day.
You take his hand, warm and callused, and curl your fingers around his.
âDo you wanna talk?â you ask gently.
Steveâs eyes open, and for a second, you think he might say no. That heâll wave it off with some excuse about being tired or it not mattering. But then he squeezes your hand and nods, barely.
âYeah,â he says. âJust⌠not in here.â
You grab your hoodie and slip on your sandals while he pulls a sweatshirt over his head. Quietly, carefully, you sneak out the back door and down the wooden stairs, stepping off the porch into cool sand still holding onto the last bit of sun-warmth. The firepitâs embers glow faint behind you, the smell of woodsmoke lingering in your clothes.
The beach is quiet and dark, the sky sprawling wide above you in a blanket of stars. The moon hangs low, half full, casting silver ribbons across the gently lapping waves. The wind moves soft and steady, rustling through dune grass, brushing against your skin like a whisper.
You walk for a little while in silence, your footsteps soft in the sand. Steveâs hand is still in yours, but his grip is loose, like he doesnât know what to do with it. His other hand is shoved into his hoodie pocket, his brow furrowed. He keeps glancing at the ocean like heâs trying to find the right words in the tide.
Eventually, he stops walking and looks out over the water. The breeze tousles his hair, and the moonlight catches on his profile: strong jaw, tight mouth, the tense line between his brows.
âI really am sorry,â he says quietly. âFor yelling at the kids.â
âI know,â you say, stepping a little closer. âI know you didnât mean it. It scared them. But you caught it. You apologized. Thatâs what matters.â
Steve nods, but he doesnât look relieved. Just more twisted up.
âI just⌠I never wanna be that guy,â he mutters. âThe one who loses his temper and scares the people he loves.â
Youâre quiet for a moment. Then, gently: âIs that what this is about? Today?â
Steve swallows hard, eyes still on the water.
âMy dad,â he says eventually. âThatâs what the calls have been about.â
You donât say anything, just let him keep going, even as the words seem to stick in his throat.
âHeâs sick. Lung cancer.â He says it flat, matter-of-fact, like if he doesnât put weight on the words, they wonât sink. âStage four. Itâs in his bones, too. And⌠he didnât tell me. For months.â
You feel your breath hitch, but you wait.
âI havenât talked to him in years. I mean, really talked. We havenât had a relationship sinceâŚâ He lets out a dry, mirthless laugh. âI mean, you know how he was. How he is .â
You reach for him, wrapping your arm around his waist. He leans into it, just slightly.
âI thought Iâd feel⌠I donât know. Angry. Or numb. But itâs like Iâm a kid again and heâs yelling in the kitchen and Iâm just waiting for it to be over.â
You squeeze his hand tighter. The breeze picks up, sending a spray of sand across your shins. Steve stares at the waves.
âAnd now heâs dying. And my mom wants me to come see him. To say goodbye. To⌠I donât know. Make peace or something.â He drags a hand through his hair, exasperated. âAnd I just⌠canât. I donât know if I want to. But then I look at Joey and Sammie, and I think about yelling like that, andââ His voice cracks. âI donât want them to remember me that way.â
You step in front of him, cupping his face, feeling the prickle of stubble against your palms. âThey wonât,â you say. âHoney, youâre nothing like him.â
His eyes are red-rimmed, but he doesnât cry. Just looks at you like heâs not sure what to do with the relief and the shame tangled up in his chest.
âYou lost your temper once . That doesnât undo all the bedtime stories, the piggyback rides, the way you hum when they fall asleep on you. That doesnât make you him.â
Steve leans forward, presses his forehead to yours, eyes squeezed shut. You can feel his breath on your lips, shaky and soft.
âIâm trying so hard,â he whispers.
âI know,â you whisper back. âAnd youâre doing a damn good job.â
You stand like that for a while, the two of you held together by moonlight and sand and the distant hush of the ocean. The wind shifts again, lifting his hoodie and tugging your hair.
âAnd the kids⌠theyâre so happy here. I donât want to ruin that. I donât want to ruin it for you.â
You shift closer, pressing your forehead to his temple. âYouâre not ruining anything.â
He exhales shakily, like heâs been holding it in all day.
âYou shouldâve told me,â you whisper.
âI know. I just⌠I didnât know how.â
You sigh, pressing your nose against his cheek. âGod, Iâm so sorry, honey.â
âItâs okay,â he says, immediately.
âNo itâs not,â you argue.
âNo, itâs not,â he agrees.
âEddieâs worried about you,â you tell him.
Steve grimaces, eyes dropping to where your hands are laced together. âI know,â he says quietly. âRobin too. You. Probably even the kids, a little.â
You give him a look. âOf course we are.â
âI justâŚâ He lets out a breath and shakes his head.
You step closer, resting your hands gently against his chest. His heart is thudding under your palms, a little too fast.
âI understand that itâs, like, your worst nightmare to have someone worry about you,â you say, soft but steady. âBut Iâm here. Weâre all here. And itâs happening, soâŚâ
Steveâs mouth pulls into this sad, crooked line, like he wants to argue but knows thereâs no point. He leans his forehead against yours again, eyes closing.
âI told Robin,â he murmurs. âCouple days ago. I had to. She knew something was off. I didnât want to at first, but she was just⌠being Robin.â
You smile faintly, your thumbs brushing against the fabric of his hoodie. Thereâs a long pause where all you can hear is the ocean and the wind, the hush of it folding gently around you both.
âI donât want to tell the kids yet,â Steve says finally. âNot until I figure out what Iâm gonna do.â
âOkay,â you say, without hesitation. âThatâs okay.â
He looks at you then, like heâs bracing himself.
âIf you want to go see himâŚâ you say carefully, âwe can make that happen. Iâll stay with the kids. Or weâll all go. Whatever you need.â
Steve looks down, blinking hard. âI donât know yet.â
You nod. âThatâs okay too.â
For a moment, you just stand like thatâ holding each other under the moonlight, the tide sliding in and out at your feet.
You tip your chin up, and he meets you halfway, lips brushing yours with something fragile and grateful threaded into it. He kisses you slow, like heâs trying to say something he canât quite form into words. Like thank you , like Iâm sorry , like I donât know how to carry this .
You pull back just enough to whisper, âI love you.â
He smiles, soft and tired, but real. âI love you too.â
Back inside, the cabin is warm and dark, the embers in the firepit outside barely glowing now. You check the kids one last time. Joey is starfished on the bed, one sock off and his dino clutched tight, and Sammieâs curled into a ball, her arm slung over a pillow, hair a mess of little curls.
Steve pulls the blanket up over her shoulder and brushes a kiss to her temple.
Then, finally, you both head to your room. The hush of night wraps around you, and when you slide under the covers, Steve reaches for you instantly. His arms curl around you like muscle memory, like this is the only place he can rest.
He doesnât say anything else, just buries his face in the crook of your neck and lets out one long, quiet breath. You donât need to say anything. You just hold him, the weight of the day settling between your bodies, shared. Carried. Wrapped in the dark, wrapped in each other.
The morning comes slow and golden.
Sunlight filters through the curtains in soft strips, warming your cheek where it rests against the pillow. Steveâs arm is heavy around your waist, his breath steady at the back of your neck. You shift just enough to look at him. His hair is a mess, one hand tucked beneath the pillow, face soft with sleep. You let him rest a little longer.
By the time you both finally get up, itâs pleasantly late. The kind of late where no oneâs rushing, and the whole world feels like itâs still stretching into itself. Padding out into the living room, youâre greeted with a scene so gentle it stops you in your tracks.
Eddie sits cross-legged on the rug, his guitar resting on his lap, and Sammie wedged between his chest and the guitar, her tiny fingers on top of his on the frets as he shows her the chords to something slow and simple. Her tongue pokes out in concentration, and Eddieâs voice is soft, patient, his usual showboating turned all the way down to bedtime-volume.
Robinâs on the couch with Joey curled against her side, sketchpad on his lap. Sheâs helping him draw a sea turtle, one hand gesturing wildly while the other sips from a mug. Joeyâs got marker all over his fingers and an intense focus in his eyes.
You lean against the doorway and smile, heart full.
Robin spots you first. âOh good. The grown-ups are up.â
âY/n, this little maniacâs got natural talent,â Eddie tells you, then catches sight of Steve walking into the room as well. âSeriously, Harrington. Sheâs born to shred.â
Sammie beams.
You catch Steveâs hand behind you and squeeze it gently. âHey,â you say softly, looking up at him. âWhy donât I take them down to the water for a bit?â
His eyes flick toward Eddie, then back to you. Thereâs a quiet gratitude in the way he nods.
So you pull the kids together, pack a quick bagâ towels, sunscreen, Sammieâs glittery pail, Joeyâs goggles that are permanently fogged no matter how much you rinse themâ and corral everyone outside with Robin.
The walk to the beach is easy, the path worn now from your week of coming and going. The sky is impossibly blue, the breeze sweet with salt, the morning air still cool enough to make the first touch of the ocean a little thrilling.
Robin helps Joey start the finalized version of his sea turtle house, and you watch as Sammie splashes around in the water, doing what she deems to be a cartwheel (far from it).
You donât talk about anything heavy. You donât need to. The waves do all the talking. Later, when youâre hallways through building a lopsided mermaid tail on Robinâs legs, you see Steve and Eddie making their way down the path. They donât say much, but something about the way Steveâs shoulders sit tells you the talk was what it needed to be.
He catches your eye, and you offer him a smile. He gives you one back. Real. Lightened, if only a little.
The rest of the day passes like a dreamâ sand in everything, Sammie shrieking when a fish brushes her foot, Joey convinced he saw a turtle try to swim up by him.Â
You eat lunch on the beach. You lose track of time. Eventually, the sun starts to dip, the kids start to crash, and you all trudge back to the cabin to pack. The final hour is a whirlwind of damp swimsuits, forgotten water bottles, and sandy feet stomping through the cabin.
Robin makes a last sweep through the rooms, calling out things like, âThis sock has no match but I refuse to leave it behind!â while Eddie packs snacks like youâre prepping for a three-day drive instead of a few hours on the road.
Steve wrestles with the beach umbrella that definitely wasnât this long when it first came out of the bag. You fold Sammieâs favorite hoodieâ still salty and stained with juiceâ and tuck it into her backpack next to Joeyâs battered sketchpad.
Eventually, everything finds its place.
Robin and Eddieâs car is packed up first. Eddie heaves the cooler in with a dramatic groan, and Robin leans back against the hood. âAlright, little monsters,â she says, squatting down to Sammie and Joeyâs level. âCome give your Aunt Robin a proper goodbye.â
The kids barrel into her, Sammieâs arms around her neck and Joey muttering something about how the beach was âten million out of ten.â
Eddie scoops them both up next. âNo rock band practice until I come over, alright?â he warns, ruffling Sammieâs curls.
You and Steve work on loading up your car. Kids first, then bags, then the inevitable collection of forgotten socks, half-used sunscreen, and the glitter pail that Sammie absolutely refuses to part with. Joey is already nodding off in his booster seat, sun-drunk and blissed out, and Sammieâs humming to herself, wrapped in her favorite towel like a little burrito.
Once everything is packed and zipped and double-checked, the four of youâ grown-ups now, somehow, despite the sand still sticking to your ankles and the drowsy pull of the sunâ meet in the driveway.
Thereâs a pause. One of those rare, easy silences that feels like it means something.
Robin pulls Steve into a hug first, tight and immediate, her chin hooked over his shoulder. âYou know Iâm not gonna say anything emotional because Iâll cry and ruin this whole thing,â she says, voice muffled, âbut Iâm here. For all of it. Whatever you need.â
Steve nods, not quite trusting himself to speak. When they part, Eddie steps in and clasps his shoulder, a quiet sort of gesture from someone whoâs usually all jabs and noise.
âI got you, man,â Eddie says, rough and sincere. âAnything. Anytime. Even if itâs just to yell about your old man and punch something in my garage.â
Steve huffs a laugh, grateful.
Robin turns to you next, sliding her sunglasses to the top of her head. âYouâre stuck with us too, yâknow,â she says, softer now. âNo backing out. We love you guys. So⌠whatever this next part looks like, you donât have to do it alone.â
You swallow thickly, nodding as she pulls you into a hug that smells like sunscreen and sea air and that faint herbal shampoo she uses. âI know,â you murmur. âI love you, too.â
Eddie claps his hands once, like heâs trying to cut the emotion before it gets too thick. âOkay, okay, thatâs enough sincerity. Weâre dangerously close to, like, a group cry, and I refuse to go out like that.â
âYouâll cry in the car anyway,â Robin teases.
âYeah, if you keep fucking playing Melissa Etheridge, Buckley!â
Steve lets out a soft chuckle, shaking his head, eyes still a little glassy. âYou guys are the worst,â he says, voice warm, âand also the best.â
âCorrect,â Robin grins.
âUndeniably,â you add. âAlso, weâre already planning dinner when we get back, right? Like, we canât go more than a day without each other or the universe collapses.â
âGross,â Eddie deadpans. âOf course.â
Steve smiles again, something deep and settled in it now.
Thereâs one last round of hugs: Robin making Joey promise to call her with turtle updates, Sammie begging Eddie to teach her a âreal rock songâ next time, the whole group lingering like no one wants to be the one to break the spell.
Eventually, Eddie and Robin pile into their car, âCome to My Windowâ already playing as they roll out of the gravel driveway with waves and horn honks trailing behind them.
You and Steve climb into your own car, Sammie already asleep, her cheek smushed against the window, and Joey half-mumbling something about snacks in his sleep.
The road home stretches in front of you, long and winding, but not as heavy now. You reach over and take Steveâs hand, lacing your fingers together over the center console. He squeezes back without looking. He just holds on.
A couple of weeks later, the sky is overcast as you pull up to Eddie and Robinâs place a couple blocks over from yours. Itâs not raining, but it smells like it might, and everything has that grayish-blue tint that makes the world feel quiet.
Sammie is practically vibrating with excitement in the backseat, already halfway unbuckled. âUncle Eddie said we could write a song,â she beams.
Joey is less enthusiastic. Heâs holding onto his stuffed dinosaur, his brows pinched together and his lip wobbling just slightly. Steveâs been watching him in the rearview mirror for the last five minutes.
You glance at Steve as you park, offering a gentle smile. âWe wonât be gone long.â
He nods, but his grip on the steering wheel is tight.
Robin comes bouncing out of the house first, hoodie zipped halfway over paint-splattered overalls. âAlright, my favorite small humans, whoâs ready for an extremely responsible weekend full of healthy snacks and no injuries whatsoever?â
Eddie follows behind her with a dramatically slow walk, sunglasses on despite the clouds, guitar slung over his back. âYou ready to rock, princess?â he calls, and Sammie lets out an actual squeal as she throws the door open.
âYES.â
Joey lingers, slower to move.
You and Steve climb out, grabbing the kidsâ overnight bags, passing off instructions you all already know but say anyway: donât forget Sammieâs bedtime song, Joeyâs afraid of the dark but wonât admit it, TV time rules are flexible but not too flexible.
Sammie barely spares you a wave as she runs toward Eddie, who lifts her up like a tiny rockstar and sets her down at his amp setup in the garage. Robinâs crouched down in front of Joey now, asking if he wants to help her make lunch.
But he doesnât move.
Steve kneels beside him, already reading the look on his sonâs face. âHey, buddy.â
Joey swallows hard. âDo you have to go?â
Steve falters. Just for a second. âYeah,â he says softly. âJust for a couple nights.â
Joeyâs eyes fill instantly. âBut⌠what if I need you?â
You crouch next to Steve, hand on Joeyâs back. âYou can call us, any time. You know that.â
âBut you wonât be here,â Joey whispers, voice thick. âAnd Iââ He doesnât finish it. He just crashes forward into Steveâs chest, arms wrapping tight around his neck, and the sound that escapes him is small but sharp.
Steve holds him like heâs anchoring them both. âI know,â he murmurs. âI know, buddy. I donât wanna go either.â
You watch him blink hard, one hand smoothing down Joeyâs hair as he breathes through it. And then Joeyâs whisper: âPlease donât be gone too long.â
It nearly splits Steve in half.
âI wonât,â he promises, voice hoarse. âI swear. Iâll be back before you know it.â
Eventually, Joey loosens his grip. Robin comes to stand behind him, gentle hand on his shoulder, and you mouth thank you to her over his head.
Eddie gives Steve a look as he walks past, quiet, steady. I got him , it says.
Steve nods.
One more round of hugs. A whispered I love you to both kids. And then you and Steve are climbing into the car again, the doors shutting with a soft finality.
Joeyâs still watching from the porch, arms wrapped tight around his dinosaur, Robin beside him. Sammieâs somewhere inside already, a guitar string plinking faintly through the open garage door.
You pull away slow, the tires crunching over gravel, and Steve doesnât look back. Not yet.
Itâs quiet in the car for a long time. Just the soft hum of the engine, the world drifting past in streaks of gray and green.
Then he says, barely above a whisper, âThat was the hardest part.â
You reach over, take his hand, and hold on tight.
âI know,â you say. âWeâll get through the rest together.â
The flight to Indiana is quiet.
Steve stares out the window the entire time, arms crossed tight over his chest. He hasnât eaten much all day, just picked at the sad little granola bar from the airport and sipped his coffee.
You donât push. You sit beside him with a hand on his knee, thumb tracing idle circles. You ask if he wants a mint, offer your headphones, and at one point he does take your hand, holding it in his lap like something solid to keep from unraveling.
The closer you get to Indiana, the more tense he becomes.
He doesn't talk much during the drive from the airport either. The rental car smells like peppermint and vinyl, and he keeps fiddling with the AC, flipping it on and off like heâs trying to focus on something.
âI can call the hospital and double-check visiting hours,â you offer gently.
âI already called,â Steve says, a little sharper than he means to. âTwice.â
You blink, then nod. âOkay. Thatâs good.â
He runs a hand through his hair, sighing. âSorry. I justâ I donât wanna get there and have them say we canât see him. Or that heâsââ He cuts himself off.
âI know,â you say quietly. âI get it.â
He doesnât respond, just focuses on the road. You reach over and squeeze his hand again, thumb rubbing over the back of it.
By the time youâre pulling into Hawkins, the sun is starting to dip. Everything looks just a little off. The town hasnât changed muchâsame rusting water tower, same faded gas station signâbut it feels different. Smaller, maybe. Or maybe thatâs just you, changed enough now that Hawkins doesnât fit quite right anymore.
Steve slows as you pass through the old downtown strip, his eyes flicking to the places he used to haunt: the Family Video he and Robin worked at, now an empty storefront with paper over the windows. The diner where the two of you would share milkshakes. The alley where he used to sneak cigarettes with Tommy H. when he thought no one was watching.
âItâs weird,â he murmurs, like heâs speaking mostly to himself. âBeing back.â
You glance over at him. âYeah.â
Thereâs a long pause. He exhales shakily. âI donât know what Iâm gonna say to him.â
âYou donât have to decide yet,â you tell him. âYou donât owe him anything rehearsed.â
âI havenât seen him in years.â
âI know.â
He drums his fingers against the steering wheel. âWhat if he doesnât even recognize me?â
You reach over and rest your hand on his shoulder. âThen youâll leave. Weâll get pancakes and go back to the hotel and cuddle under too many blankets and call the kids. Weâll listen to Sammie and Eddie rocking out.â
He huffs a breath, almost a laugh. âSheâs gonna be insufferable by Sunday.â
âFully drunk on rockstar energy,â you grin. âWe should probably prepare ourselves now.â
Steve smiles faintly, and for a second, the pressure behind his eyes seems to ease.
You pull into the parking lot of the little hotel on the edge of town. The sign flickers faintly, but the lobbyâs warm and smells like old carpet. The room itself is nothing special. Neutral colors, beige bedding, a window that overlooks the highway. But itâs quiet. Private. And when you both kick off your shoes and sink onto the edge of the bed, it feels⌠safe enough.
Steve sits with his elbows on his knees, head bowed.
You settle beside him and rub a hand down his back. âDo you want to shower? Eat? Lie down?â
He shakes his head. âJust⌠need a minute.â
You nod and lean into him, cheek resting against his shoulder.
Outside, Hawkins buzzes faintly, a low hum of streetlights and passing cars. Inside, itâs just you and him. The boy who left this town, and the man he became after.
The next morning is gray and quiet. A low sort of light filters in through the hotel curtains, painting everything in soft blue and pale gold. Steve wakes early, already dressed by the time you sit up and rub your eyes. His hands are fidgetingâ watch strap, wallet, keysâand there's a restlessness to him like heâs carrying something too big inside his chest.
You brush your hair back and sit up fully. âHey,â you say gently. âAre you sure you want me to come?â
He pauses in the middle of adjusting his cuff, looks over at you with that worn, wired expression.
âI donât know what itâs gonna be like,â he admits, voice low. âMy momâs probably gonna say something weird, and my dadâ he might not even be awake. ButâŚâ He exhales, slow. âYeah. I want you there.â
You nod. âOkay. Then Iâll be there.â
The hospital smells like antiseptic and lemon floor cleaner, and the fluorescent lights buzz just a little too loud. Itâs not a big facilityâ Hawkins Memorial hasnât changed much since the eightiesâ but the sterile walls and faint beeping machines make everything feel a little surreal. The nurse at the front desk gives Steve a sympathetic look when he checks in, and he just nods.
His mom is already in the room when you get there. Sheâs sitting in the corner chair, a cup of coffee clutched in both hands, her hair swept up and clipped in a way that looks like it took a lot of effort to look effortless.
Her eyes flick to you first, then Steve. She stands up quickly. âOh, honey.â
She moves to hug him, and for a second, Steve freezes. Then he hugs her back, short and stiff.
âHi, Mom,â he says, voice tight.
She pulls away and cups his face, looking at him like sheâs trying to drink him in. âYou look so grown,â she says. âOlder. Youâve filled out.â
You glance at Steve and see the flicker behind his eyes, something between discomfort and restraint.
Then she looks at you and smiles a little more softly. âAnd Y/n. Itâs been too long.â
You offer a polite nod. âHi, Mrs. Harrington. Yeah, it has.â
She sits back down and gestures toward the two visitor chairs. âSit, please. Heâs been in and out today. Theyâve got him on a lot of things for the pain.â
Steve nods numbly and walks over to the bed. His dad is there, smaller than you remember, his frame sunken under the blanket. He stirs a little when Steve sits, mumbling something incoherent before drifting back into a doze.
Steveâs hand trembles slightly as he rests it on the edge of the bed. You settle in beside him quietly.
His mom keeps talking, mostly light things. âThe twins are in kindergarten now, arenât they? Or is it Pre-K?â she asks, turning to you.
âKindergarten,â you say, digging in your bag. âTheyâre loving it. We actually brought some photos.âÂ
You hand them over, a little envelope of glossy prints: Sammie holding her glittery pail, Joey half-buried in sand, both kids covered in salt and smiles.
His mom flips through them, her face softening. âOh. Look at them. Look at Joey; heâs so big now. He looks like Steve.â
Steveâs jaw tightens faintly.
âThey had such a good time at the beach,â you say, trying to keep your voice light. âSammieâs still talking about the sandcastle. And Eddieâs teaching her how to play the guitar.â
âOh, Eddie.â His mom smiles again. âHe was such a little punk in high school. Never thought heâd stick around.â
You just nod.
The hours pass slowly. The room is quiet except for the shuffle of nurses and the occasional half-dreamed mutter from Mr. Harrington. Steve doesnât talk much, just sits beside the bed, eyes locked on the figure under the blanket. Every now and then, his mom tries to fill the silence. She asks about the kids, the house, your neighborhood. You answer as best you can, and Steve just stays still, jaw tight, shoulders tense.
Eventually, your body starts to sag into the stiff hospital chair, the lull of machines and monotony pulling you under. Your eyes slip shut.
And thatâs when she says it. âWeâve been talking,â his mom murmurs. âYour father and I. About the house.â
Steve glances up, wary.
She folds the photo envelope in her hands. âWe want you to have it. The house. When heâs gone.â
Steve just stares at her.
âWe know it hasnât always been easy,â she says quickly, like she knows the reaction sheâs going to get. âBut itâs a good house. Itâs your home. You should have it.â
Steve lets out a soft, humorless laugh. âItâs not my home.â
She frowns. âDonât say that.â
He sits back a little, arms crossing over his chest. âI donât have any good memories there, Mom.â
Her mouth tightens. âThatâs not fair.â
âItâs the truth,â he says, a little sharper now. âThat house was never safe for me.â
She looks down. The silence stretches.
Steve glances at you. Then back at her. âI have a home,â he says. âWith Y/n. With the kids. Thatâs where my good memories are now. Thatâs where I want to be.â
The words settle between them, solid and steady.
His mom nods eventually, slowly. âOkay,â she says quietly. âOkay.â
The hotel room is quiet when you get back.
Muted city sounds hum outside the window, the occasional passing car, a distant siren, a burst of laughter that doesnât quite reach you. Inside, itâs just the thick silence of too many feelings shoved into too small a space. You shut the door behind you, and Steve immediately shrugs out of his jacket like itâs suffocating him.
Heâs been quiet since the hospital. Quiet in a way that feels more like boiling than peace.
You give him space. Toes out of your shoes. Bag on the dresser. âYou want something to eat?â you ask gently. âI think thereâs still that Thai placeââ
âIâm not hungry,â he mutters, rubbing a hand down his face.
You nod. âOkay. Maybe later.â
He paces the room once, then twice, then stops and presses his palms to the edge of the desk like heâs trying to hold himself upright. âThat was a waste of time,â he says, suddenly. âHe didnât even know I was there."
âHe did,â you say softly. âHe was justââ
âHe didnât,â Steve snaps, turning to face you. âHe didnât say a single thing. He doesnât even know who I am anymore, and the parts of him that do rememberâ what the hell do they even remember? Yelling at me? Telling me I was useless? That I was embarrassing?â
You go still.
He breathes hard through his nose, then groans and turns away again. âGod. I didnât mean that at you. I justâ Iâm tired. Iâm so fucking tired.â
You walk over to him slowly and lay a hand between his shoulder blades, gentle and steady. He doesnât flinch. Just leans forward, bracing his hands on the desk again.
âI know,â you murmur. âI know youâre tired.â
âI shouldnât have brought you,â he says, voice raw now. âI shouldnât have dragged you into this. I wanted you here, and then I justâ snapped at you.â
âYouâre allowed to be upset,â you say simply. âI can take it. You donât have to keep everything in.â
His shoulders hitch once. Then again. His head drops between his arms, and when he speaks again, itâs not really speech at all. Just a broken sound in the back of his throat, choked and miserable.
You step closer. Wrap your arms around his waist from behind, holding on as he breaks down. His hands come up to cover his face, body shaking. You press your forehead to his back and just hold.
âI didnât want to feel anything,â he admits, voice shaking. âI wanted to walk in, do the thing, and leave. But seeing him like that, it justâŚâ He trails off, unable to finish.
After a while, when heâs quieter and youâve coaxed him to the bed, you sit beside him and suggest, âWanna call the kids?â
He hesitates.
âI know itâs late,â you add, âbut Robin and Eddie are probably still up. Just a minute or two. Just to say goodnight.â
Steve nods slowly, sniffs. âYeah. Yeah, okay.â
You grab the hotel phone and call their house, and Robin picks up on the second ring.
âO captain, my captain,â she says, âyouâre just in time for Joeyâs bedtime meltdown and Sammieâs one-girl concert.â
You can vaguely hear strumming in the background. Not guitar exactly, maybe ukelele?
âDaddy,â Joey says with the kind of betrayal only five-year-olds can conjure, âyou left.â
Steve immediately gets misty again. âHey, bud. I know. Iâm sorry. Itâs just for a couple days.â
Joey sounds suspicious. âIs it âcause I didnât finish my broccoli last week?â
Steve chokes on a laugh. âNo, Joey. No, itâs got nothing to do with that. I promise.â
Sammie finds her way to the phone and yells, âHi Daddy! Hi Mommy! I played a C chord! Uncle Eddie said it was so metal !â
You beam. Steve lets out a breath that sounds almost like relief.
Robin gives a little chuckle. âTheyâre good. Honestly. Little feral, but what else is new?â
âThanks,â you say. âFor all of this.â
âYou kidding?â Eddieâs voice calls from somewhere. âWeâre livinâ the dream over here. Gave Sammie a mohawk. Hope thatâs cool.â
âEddie!â you and Steve both yell.
The kids dissolve into giggles, and Sammie strums a wild dissonant chord on the ukulele.
After goodnights and promises of pizza when you get back, Steve hangs up the phone on the nightstand. Heâs still a little red around the eyes, but his whole body looks lighter.
âTheyâre okay,â he says. âWeâre okay.â
âYeah,â you say, snuggling in beside him. âWe really are.â
He wraps an arm around your waist and tugs you closer. His voice is soft, thoughtful. âI keep thinking about my dad. About all the things he didâ or didnât do. And I justâŚI never wanna be that for them. I want them to know theyâre loved. Every day. No matter what.â
âThey do,â you whisper. âBecause you show them.â
He nods against your hair. âIâm really lucky,â he says. âTo have this. You. Them. All of it.â
The next morning dawns overcast, like the sky is holding its breath.
You and Steve pack in quiet motions. Folding clothes, zipping suitcases, brushing teeth while standing close in the cramped hotel bathroom. The air between you is softer than it was last night, still raw but settled. Like a storm has passed and the ground is damp, but the windâs finally calm.
On the drive to the hospital, Steve keeps one hand on the wheel and the other linked with yours. He doesnât talk much, just watches the road like it might try to slip away from under him. You donât push. You just squeeze his hand every so often, and he squeezes back.
When you get to the hospital, his momâs already in the room. She looks tired, like she didnât sleep at all, but her face lights up faintly when she sees the two of you.
âOh, good,â she says, rising from the chair beside the bed. âHeâs still resting, but heâs been in and out all morning.â
She reaches out and hugs Steve. Itâs a little stiff, a little awkward, but real. Then she hugs you, tooâ smaller, more tentativeâ but she says, âThank you for being here. I know this isnât easy.â
You offer her a kind smile. âWeâre glad we came.â
Steve sits beside the bed and takes his dadâs hand. Itâs thinner than he remembers, lined with blue veins and sunspots. He watches the shallow rise and fall of his fatherâs chest, the way his eyelids flutter and jaw twitches.
âHey, Dad,â he says softly. âItâs Steve. Iâm here.â
His father doesnât respond right away. Just a faint hum, maybe a flicker behind his closed eyes. Steve keeps talking anyway.
âI, um⌠I wanted to say goodbye. I donât know if you can hear me. But Iâm saying it anyway.â He clears his throat. His voice is shaky but steadying, like heâs walking across a bridge that he built with each word. âI spent a lot of my life wanting something from you. Something you didnât⌠or couldnât give me. And I hated you for that, sometimes. But I think now⌠I think I just wanted to be seen. To be known.â
His dad stirs a little. Not quite awake, not quite gone. Steve keeps going.
âIâve got kids now. A little girl and a little boy. And they know I love them. Every second, every day. They donât have to earn it. And thatâs because of you. Or⌠maybe in spite of you. I donât know.â He sniffles, wipes at his face with the back of his hand. âBut I needed to say that. And I hope, wherever you go next, that itâs peaceful. And I hope you know⌠Iâm okay. I really am.â
He leans forward and gently presses a kiss to his fatherâs temple. âGoodbye, Dad.â
Youâre quiet through it all, standing near the window, giving him space but close enough if he needs you. When he finally turns toward you, his eyes are red but his shoulders are lighter. Like the goodbye untied something in him that had been knotted for years.
His mom places a hand over her mouth, like sheâs trying not to cry. âThat wasâŚâ she starts, but doesnât finish. Just steps forward and takes Steveâs hand. âIâm so proud of you,â she says. âYouâve built a good life.â
He nods, and thereâs a long, calm moment between them. Years of distance narrowed, if not erased.
âWeâll come back,â he says. âFor the funeral. And Iâll bring the kids.â
His mom turns to you and smiles, soft and grateful. âIâd love that. Iâd love to see them again.â
You nod. âWeâll be there.â
You all stand there for a moment, watching the slow rhythm of the machines beside the bed.
The flight home is quiet, filled with ginger ales and the scratch of pens on crossword puzzles, and the occasional brush of Steveâs shoulder against yours. He dozes off somewhere over Ohio, his head resting on your shoulder, breathing steady and even.
You smooth his hair back and let your fingers settle against his cheek.
He came here looking for closure. You think maybe he found it. And back home ( real home) your kids are waiting. With ukuleles and marker-streaked hands and probably some kind of epic story involving your best friends.
Steve murmurs something in his sleep, smile tugging at his lips.
The car ride from the airport is quiet. Not heavy, just⌠gentle. Steveâs hand stays in yours the whole way, thumb brushing slow arcs across your knuckles like heâs grounding himself with the contact. You donât say much. You donât have to. The air between you is easy, tired in a good way, like the end of a long hike where the view made every step worth it.
When you pull up to Eddie and Robinâs place, the porch light is already on, spilling a warm halo across the driveway. You barely make it to the front steps before the door bursts open.
Sammie comes flying out first, hair wild and curls bouncing, all limbs and joy and a shrieked, âDADDYYYYY!â
Steve doesnât even have time to bend down before she launches herself at him like a missile, and he catches her with a breathless oof , staggering back a step as she wraps her arms around his neck and clings like a koala.
âI missed you soooo much!â she says, fingers tangled in the collar of his shirt. âYou were gone forever!â
Steve buries his face in her hair and holds her close, one hand splayed across her back like heâs trying to memorize her heartbeat. âI missed you too, bug. So much.â
Joeyâs behind her, blinking a little in the porch light, thumb still halfway in his mouth. You crouch just in time to scoop him up and swing him into your arms.
âThereâs my boy,â you whisper, kissing his temple. He smells like peanut butter and markersâ of course he smells like markers. âYou been good?â
He nods solemnly, arms winding around your neck. Then, voice small and earnest, he says, âI was brave.â
You melt instantly. âI bet you were.â
Eddie and Robin follow them out, both looking exhausted and slightly disheveled in that way that says the kids definitely got into something they werenât supposed to. But Robinâs grinning, and Eddieâs trying not to, his arms crossed like he didnât love every second of being climbed like a jungle gym all weekend.
âWe kept âem alive,â Robin announces proudly.
âBarely,â Eddie mutters, but his eyes are warm when he looks at Steve. âHey, man.â
Steve, still holding Sammie, nods. âHey.â
Thereâs something wordless exchanged between them. Some understanding that doesnât need to be said out loud. Steve looks steadier than he did when he left. Worn out, yeah, but rooted.
Inside, the house is a wreck in the most charming way: blankets on the floor, a ukulele propped up on a chair, an empty juice box on the coffee table. It smells like popcorn and shampoo and kid energy.
âWe made a band!â Sammie is saying excitedly, dragging Steve over to the couch. âUncle Eddie taught me âSmoke on the Waterâ and Joey played drums on the pots and we made a song about soup!â
âIt was actually⌠kinda good,â Eddie says. âIn a weird, avant-garde way.â
âNext stop: Grammyâs,â Robin adds, plopping down beside you and pulling Joey onto her lap. âWeâre making shirts and everything.â
âWow,â you grin. âMissed a whole world of things.â
The kids buzz around you both, full of stories. And thenâ quietly, gentlyâ Sammie looks up at Steve and asks, âHowâs Gramma and Granpa?â
The question cuts through the chatter like a ripple, but Steve doesnât flinch. He shifts Sammie in his lap and brushes her hair out of her eyes.
âTheyâre okay,â he says simply. âGrandpaâs really tired right now, and Grandma misses you a lot.â
âOh,â Sammie says, solemn. She leans her head against his chest. âMaybe we can send them more pictures.â
âThatâs a great idea, Sammie,â you tell her, pressing a soft kiss to her temple, and rubbing your thumb along Steveâs arm.
Steve doesnât say anything at first, just wraps his free arm around Sammie a little tighter, like he needs the hug just as much as she does. You run your hand up and down his back while Joey rests heavily on your hip, half-dozing against your shoulder.
Robin stretches with a groan, cracking her back. âAlright, parents. Weâve done our part. Kids are alive, minimally sticky, and only mildly sugar-overloaded.â
You laugh, and Steve smiles, the kind thatâs a little crooked but real. âWe owe you both so much.â
âNo kidding,â you say, setting Joey down gently so you can grab your bag. âWeâre taking you out. Somewhere with fancy cocktails and cloth napkins. And no chicken nuggets on the menu.â
âSeriously,â Steve says. âYou pick the place, weâll get the babysitter.â
âWho?â Eddie deadpans. âYou have some other mysterious best friends that we donât know about?â
âHmmm⌠Shit,â you mutter, and you all laugh, not even caring about the little ears listening. Theyâre too tuckered out to notice anyway. You turn to Robin. âThank you. For watching them. For everything.â
Robin waves a hand, but sheâs clearly a little misty behind her glasses. âTheyâre easy to love.â
The kids protest a little when itâs time to go, but theyâre too tired to put up much of a fight. You help Sammie with her shoes while Steve buckles Joey into the car seat, both of you moving like a well-oiled machine.
Steve drives with one hand on the wheel, the other finding yours between the seats. Itâs quiet for a while. Just the hum of the road and the occasional rustle of the kids shifting in their sleep.
Then you glance over at him, his profile washed in the warm orange light of the dashboard. âHey,â you say softly.
He hums in response, eyes still on the road.
âYouâre a really great dad.â
Steve glances at you, and something flickers behind his eyes. Like he wants to argue, maybeâ deflect, make a jokeâ but instead, he just squeezes your hand and exhales. âThanks.â
âYou are. The way you talked to your dad⌠what you said to him. And how Sammie was so excited to see youâŚâ You pause, shaking your head slightly. âThatâs the kind of dad people hope for.â
Steveâs quiet again for a second, swallowing hard.
âI didnât think Iâd be good at it,â he says eventually. âBeing a dad. I was so scared Iâd screw them up. But⌠theyâre so good. And they make it easy, I guess. You make it easy.â
â You make it easy,â you counter. âThey adore you. And they know theyâre safe with you. Thatâs everything.â
He nods. âIâm lucky,â he says again. Then he looks at you, tired but glowing in that soft, content way. âIâve got everything I need.â
You smile, leaning across the console just enough to kiss his shoulder. âMe too.â
Joey snores softly, Sammieâs hand still wrapped around the handle of her ukulele. The street lights flicker past in quiet intervals. The road winds toward home.
And in the back seat, your family dreams.
Author's Note: Welcome to the light-on-verse! Here's another older fic of mine that has a really really special place in my heart. You can read another entry into it here if you'd like more of this lovely, scrappy little found family. I adore writing Sammie and Joey, so rest assured I'll likely keep popping in with new entries into their universe. Another reminder for those new here that I'm in the process of crossposting all my ao3 fics from the past few years here, so if the ones that are already posted here aren't enough to satiate you, I've got dozens more over there! As always, let me know what you think <3