#lifechaning

My whole life i have always had a little extra weight, always been the chubby one.

And yes, I got bullied like everyone else who does not fit in to society´s "normal". Even though I was bullied I never felt like I could change, be better, so I just accepted that I would look like I did forever. That does not mean that I was not sad about how I looked and how other people saw me. I had may sleepless nights, crying and hating myself. And for what? For the skinny bitches who needed to feel better about themselves by making others feel bad? Or for the teaches who didn´t give a single fuck?

Now I am 20 and I make my own decisions about most things. l live alone, I go to school and work. I have the best family anyone could ask for, and even though only a few, the most amazing friends on this planet. So why do I want to change? 

The thing is I don´t think I would be the person I am today if I did not go through what I did in my childhood. And even though I made this blog wanting to change, I don't want to change who I am, I just want to change how I look. Its not like I am obese or in danger regarding my health. I am just a girl who is a little bit bigger then the pre-mentioned "normal". And now its time to change that. I don't want to become some fitness monster who can't enjoy a pizza every once in a while because it would interfere with my diet. I just want to eat healthy and go to the gym and feel happy with myself because I am trying and everyone has to start somewhere. 

For the record I am 167 cm tall and I was 84 kg when I decided that I wanted to make a change in my life. This last part is not because I want you to know how much weigh, but so that I can document my progress. Maybe I will post pictures, maybe I won't. I guess you will just have to wait and see.. if anyone is even reading this.