#lexie'sjournal

Have you guys heard the new accidentally leaked Midnight Memories album? It sounds awesome. But I feel pretty guilty for downloading it because the boys have worked so hard on it and here I am, downloading the shizz. Niall was pretty pissed up about it. Don't we ever learn from a fudging mistakes? We gatecrashed his brother's own wedding. We gatecrashed his nephew's baptism. So of us even had the nerve to go right up to his house and request for a fucking picture with him for their own profile picture. How much more selfish can we get? I am so fed up here. I seriously want to move to the US with my grandma this instant. I cannot hold this in any longer. I just want burst. So far, my brother's almost back to normal which is good. And my grandma in the Philippines is not exactly going well. But we did Skype earlier. It was nice to see them again. Lately I've been going crazy with mermaids. I wish I was one. A lovely tail to help me swim away from my fucking problems. That would be flippin' nice. I almost forgot! HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO LOU AND EL! Two years of adorability. Larry shippers, bring on the hate. I had already graduated and I seriously don't wanna go back to my school. Not at all. Starlight, star bright, grant my wish tonight. I wish to be homeschooled instead. CODE 685 ERROR. WISH CANNOT BE GRANTED. ERROR. CODE 685. Just. Ugh. I have so many dreams. And I somehow can't fulfil them, which is pathetic. I just hope the results from my exams will just as what I have expected. I can't wait for Christmas! Although I won't receive as much gifts as I did before but it will fun! My arms are aching. Oh, btw guys, follow my 1D fan page on IG 👉@/malikmint. Would appreciate it! Last Saturday, I went to watch the North Czech Philharmonic Teplice at JIS, Arts Centre. And they were amazing. Manual Blanco was the bomb diggity. And Her Majesty, Princess Sara was there and I was freaking out. I had a nice dress on and it was a good night. It kinda was a graduation gift for me. I'm hungry. Food anybody? That's all for now, byeeee.

I forgot to write last night, fell asleep. So now, I'm writing this early in the morning at 8.30 am. Can you believe this shizz? Yesterday was pretty fine. My brother still has his wet poop. Disgusting, I know. And he's not his usual self. And my had a heart seizure. But she's ok now, but we have to pay 1, 500 pesos for 4 vials of medicine. And we have debts to pay. So, my aunt decided to fly to the Phils and take care of my 'lola' in the hospital. I can't wait for the WWA tour next year. I hope they release dates for Asia. If they do have for Singapore, my mom will seriously buy tickets to Singapore and to the concert. *sigh* I was so mad at my dad yesterday. I just... Argh. Fathers. I really wish to go back to the Philippines and just be free. Visit my cousins, go to the mall or just play. That's pretty much what happened. I wanna go back to sleep. But my maid won't let me go back to sleep. And she's forcing me up and to make my bed. Like, no. And she's using my little brother's IPad. Jeez. I'm starting to hate a lot of people. I don't know if I'm becoming hateful or are people becoming easier to hate. Signing off for now.

Halp meh.

It's almost my graduation day and I seriously don't want to attend. I seriously don't want to see my classmates' faces. I've practically blocked them out in my IG, Twitter and Facebook. I just don't want to see them anymore. I get a feeling of nostalgia and anger when they're being brought up. Especially a certain boy. I seriously wanna go back to Miri. And btw, the Starbucks here in Brunei has finally been opened. I should probably go out there. I feel so lonely at home. I have practically no life. Jut eating and getting all close with my WiFi and them sleeping. I need help. I need to get out. Omg. Halp meh.