#lexabreakdownhours

*****TW: Anxiety/Depression/Self Harm*****

Lately my thoughts have been swirling in my head, I haven’t been able to focus on school or anything else going on in my life. I don’t seem to care about the things I should, I feel like all the work I have done to better myself wasn’t worth it. My thoughts are fuzzy and I feel like I’m drowning and can’t catch my breath, I feel like I don’t have control of anything going on. I’m spending more time reading Clexa fan fics rather than my actual text books. Fan fics and hiding away from the world has been the only thing that has made me feel something. One moment I feel okay and then the next I feel like my world is crumbling and I feel like there is no one around me to help. I have been 9 months clean of self harm, but here I am having that itch to do it again, and I don’t want to because it hurts me and it hurts the people around me. The only thing that really makes me happy lately is my comfort characters which would be Clarke and Lexa, because of them I still remember why I’m here and that it’s okay to not be okay sometimes. I will make it through this, and I will be okay.