#lex things

*Inserting read more now to hide all my shit unless you care to dig in 😅

I think I went through a small PPD phase to be completely candid, & while I feel it didn't totally go away, it's become dormant. One of the big feels I had was realizing how much I missed writing & how much easier it was for me to do so with just my first baby. I began writing heavily when she was still really little, then she grew & became more active & wanted me to entertain her & her me. While I enjoyed making special memories with her, even now making memories with the 2 of them, a big part of me was grieving the life I had on here & I missed writing more & more.

I kid you not when I say my daily thoughts consist of my WIPs & where can I progress certain stories or how would I start off new ideas that come to mind. Then I open my docs tab & just get completely overwhelmed with the WIPs I have, while at the same time feeling like a failure for not completing them.

This post wasn't meant to be so heavy, but even if no one is looking for an explanation from me, I feel the need to give one. So I think what I'm gonna do going forward is just get back into reading. Reading everyone's fics always put me in the mood & got my own gears turning for my fics, & heaven knows I have a lot of fic to catch up on 😅

And then dipped out again huh 😅

WELL I do have some explanation as to why I've been so absent lol it mainly all boils down to the simple fact that I've got a hyperactive toddler (turning 2 years old next month 🥲) & all my days have been filled just trying to keep her busy. It doesn't help that Mr. Shark has been away (yaaaay military) so my precious devilish daughter has been really clingy. ON TOP OF THAT I'm so exhausted & every last bit of my energy has been going to cooking this new addition to our family 😅

But I've missed everyone so damn much! I hope y'all didn't forget about me but I definitely don't blame you if you did 🥺 I miss writing so much, you have no idea, & while I have been able to get some stuff written, I just don't have the time like I used to before when sharkbaby was smaller.

I've still got some stuff coming, I'm still actively working on my Ezra & Marcus M fics, as well as other oneshots I had started and/or planned in my head, AS WELL AS the rest of my requests 🙃 y'all, your girl has been riding this struggle bus for a few months lmaooo

I do have some reservations posting again tho, I've gotten in my head that no one will be interested anymore & if that's the case then that's okay, it's only fair since I've been away so long 😭 but I owe it to myself & to these stories I've started to finish them, so I hope everyone that was on that ride with me hasn't jumped off yet ♥️

We have been fed some amazing Pedro content that I've just been dying to discuss with everyone & also catching up on reading (sooo much reading 🥲) for these new characters! I hope y'all still love me, I'm gonna do my best, if not to be consistent again with posting, then at least interacting with y'all again ♥️ I leave this message off with this very soft Pedro picture I just saw today 🥰

✨a single mom who works too hard, who loves her kids & never stops, with gentle hands & the heart of a fighter, I'm a survivor✨

>Btw by "single" I do not mean Mr. Shark & I have split up 😂 we are still happily married, but military life & deployments basically turn me into a single mom 🥲<

I actually dusted off The Sun Sets With You & gave it another read & will be working on posting the next chapter for that soon! after a whole ass year ugh Plus I am still working on my Marcus Moreno fic I promised LAST YEAR 🥲 while also working on finally finishing up requests & dipping my toes in this Joel Miller pool.

Oh boy does Pedro as Joel have me in a fucking chokehold right now. Oof.

I've missed writing so so much, I just wish I was back to simpler days when Sharkbaby#1 wasn't running around wreaking havock like a little tornado 😂 and now to throw a newborn into the mix has been quite the challenge. I can't even remember my grocery list, let alone get out a full oneshot or chapter 😭

Just wanted to pop in quickly & give everyone this huge life update, I keep promising I'll be back soon, but I'll stop saying "soon" & just say