#levi.thoughts

is that there’s a lil embarrassing thing he does when he’s comfy with you. levi of all people letting his guard down, even better than that, knowing he feels safe enough around you to even do that.

whether in bed cuddling, or embracing, and he has his arms around you, he tends to clutch onto your shirt (/whatever it is). a little.

almost to ground himself, because think, you’re a major reason he keeps fighting, you’re his anchor, his rock. but no matter how much he’ll try to protect you, there’s a chance he could lose you, and so easily. he never knows, which is a reason he tries not to get close to people in the first place. he wants you to stay.

Slight, very slight mentions of anxiety attacks? Idfk. Basically reader often gets overwhelmed and hides, guess who's there to help?

Levi knocked at your door, not surprised when he didn’t get a response. But he waited nevertheless. He tapped against the door a few more times until he reached for the doorknob and twisted it, cautiously pushing it open. Also not to his surprise, your office was empty, not a hair of you in sight. Seemingly. If not for the fact that he’d seen you entering here just two minutes ago and if not for the fact he’s been here way too many times to know better. And so he found himself slowly stepping in, soundlessly shutting the door back. Light on his feet, he approached the desk standing near the back of the room and peered down. “Hello.” You whispered when his silver eyes found yours. It was rather unusual to find most people crouching beneath their desks, was it not? Levi thought so too, the first time he found you here. He remembered being so confused, watching you as you curled up in a ball, rocking back and forth. He remembered being clueless, wondering if you were sick, wondering if he should call Hange or Nanaba, wondering if he should just leave you alone. But time has passed since and he’s learnt a thing or two. That everyone gets overwhelmed sometimes. Levi sighed.

- steam. cooking steam, bathroom steam, etc. levi takes baths with the door cracked and doesn’t boil food often.

- airplanes (and related). especially ones crossing the sky though. onyankopon against his better judgment tried to convince levi to give it a chance because it’s faster than a ship ride to hizuru or paradis (onya being a pilot), and this argument got UGLY. as in bringing up their friendships with hange ugly and onyankopon would later apologize.

- loud noises like fireworks or thunder.

- coming across kids having snowball fights weirdly reminds him of zeke and how he pelted the scouts with rocks at shiganshina. he finds this one the most embarrassing because of how harmless, or even asinine, this seems to everyone else. no one who was on that side of the wall made it to the end of the war other than himself.

- storms/heavy rain. he lost isabel and farlan in one and experienced the explosion in one.

- too much contact with germs. dusting a shelf full of moldy neglected books? a stack of disgusting dirty dishes? that's alright. but i feel like he has the propensity to get overwhelmed easier after the war, especially with poor depth perception, mobility, etc.

- blood puts him on-edge. granted, he very rarely has to deal with that problem, but that almost makes it worse.