#leverage 3.15

Request by @quietstorm-thundathighs

me: eliot said “I never told anyone about you” to moreau about how he takes client confidentiality seriously. but. also. he’s never talked about working for moreau because that was by far the darkest and bloodiest period of his life and the man he became haunts him forever. john rogers has said in the commentaries that eliot believes that he’s already going to hell, and undoubtedly this is a big reason why. the horrors he enacted and the crimes he committed made him into a man that he didn’t recognize. a bloody and soulless guard dog of a monster. even years after he broke free and made something new, something good for himself with his new family, he still hasn’t said a word about those times. a part of him just doesn’t want to confront those memories any more than he has to- he still thinks about it every time he looks in the mirror and swears he sees blood on his hands: talking about it with anyone would mean dredging even more horrors up to the surface that he much prefers stay locked away. another part is that his family is good. broken, flawed, but undeniably good. he refuses to taint these people he’s come to love. he has made a vow to protect them- that includes protecting them from even himself

he was calm and collected on the outside for the sake of the con but there is no doubt in my mind that he was, even having faith in hardison’s abilities to stay alive, worried about him downing