CW: Cancer (Leukaemia), treatment, Terminal, family. Please read at your own discretion.
Unfortunately, we've had some very bad news about my mother's health. Her leukaemia hasn't stopped, and blood transfusions aren't going to be enough to keep her going. Her case is now terminal, and we can't put an estimate on how long she has left. I keep thinking that she was going to defeat cancer for the third time, but that won't be the case. Chemotherapy hasn't destroyed it completely, surgery's literally impossible, and bone marrow transplant isn't an option, as my mother isn't strong enough to handle the treatment.
As you can imagine, this has come as a shock for us. I feel like the reality of it all has just started to sink in. We've had a lot of family members coming to visit us, and it is really nice to have people that I trust over, it can be very tiring, not to mention that our family situation is very, for lack of a better word, complex. I am pleased to have been able to see two of my sisters (although I really only get on with one of my sisters now), my brother and my aunts. I haven't seen my brother in years, and neither has my mother. Everyone was here to support my mother, and I am grateful that she has that support. Both my mother and I have been referred to other services for support.
I don't know how we'll deal with this. Everything is everywhere right now. I just hope that we can get the support we need. I try my best to take care of her, but I don't know how I'll be able to keep caring for her. She usually only needs help with her balance, and sometimes getting around, but I know that she will gradually need more support. I don't know how I can help her. I struggle to care for myself, and I don't know how I can ensure that my mother is doing well.
Hopefully, with time and help, things will become clearer, and we can both be comfortable in this situation. Right now, though, everything is tiring.