#lettertale

I created the Nekane Condition based on the demonization I personally faced with my mother's side of the family due to my autism. Even worse, it also applied to my uncle with Antisocial Personality Disorder. We were both outcasted from most family events because most of the family viewed us as emotionless monsters. I used to be angry at my uncle for this, as autism was only viewed like this because he used to pretend he was diagnosed with autism and not ASPD/APD (what do people shorten Antisocial to??)

I now understand though that my uncle only did that thinking they wouldn't react as terribly to that then if they were just told the truth originally. He got better anyways, so its not like I should still be angry over something that happened before I was even born.

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I love my AU but to be honest, it has been ruining my mental health. I originally made it as a continuation to my AU, ResetTale, back in late 2020. I was in a horrible mental state back then, and it got way worse over the years, which I then expressed using LetterTale characters

However since December, I have been in a much better environment with tons of therapy. I have been doing much better physically, emotionally, and mentally. However everytime I go back to LetterTale, all those miserable thoughts come back due to just... its topics. LetterTale is a fucking upsetting piece, that if I decide to put my full attention on it again it will destroy me. Don't get me wrong, I still like writing dark topics but.... LetterTale is just too much. The edge is basically stabbing me

Besides the topics being upsetting, it has so many rewrites that working on it is exhausting and gives me a headache. So much I have to remember, such a big project for a boy who just started highschool. I don't even understand algebra, how the fuck am I supposed to write such a deep and complex story, especially when I want it to have as little flaws as possible. It will probably always be super flawful, and there's so much I don't like from it or just want to improve on that I would have to rewrite so much already

I also just lost the passion for writing THSC. I love seeing other people's works of it, but I personally don't care for making it myself anymore. I can't tell of its because my 4 year hyperfixation finally died off or if it's caused by LetterTale or something like that. But either way, I just can't bring myself to write the silly stick figures in traumatizing horrific torture anymore