#letterstothesky

Lord, I have completely fallen in love with you. Your romance fills me with a joy I cannot describe, your love is the only love I wholeheartedly put my trust and faith in. In loving you, I know you are leading me. You have saved me and pulled me from the darkness when I thought I couldn’t go on. Your mercy and kindness has renewed me. I feel your holy spirit moving within me, tears of joy instantly spill down my cheeks in awe of you. Thank you for gently answering my prayers. Gently you have raised me from the pavement. Thank you for the countless blessings. It is not perfection I ever seek, for with your love, I know I am moulded for a hopeful future. For the first time I feel hopeful, I feel the ability to be vulnerable. Please lord, create me, shape me, lead me to do your will. It is only you. 

I’m scared to love him. I couldn’t be more thankful for you to give me the gift of love, deserving love, but I am so guarded. I pray for your guidance as we walk forward, help me love selflessly, to trust, to love with clear judgement. I am already so scared of losing him and I haven’t even let myself fall. I am already terrified that he will leave me. I can’t fall again Lord, please I pray to never return to that darkness, for I barely recovered. Please Lord give me your wisdom and the strength to differentiate between good and wrong. I fear remaining in one position, too scared to move forward as I don’t know how. I don’t know how to love anymore. I truly care, and I want to love, but it’s as though my mind has barricaded the heart. I used to love so freely, so willingly. All I wanted was to give all of myself. I’m so scared that that right man has finally come to me, and I am now incapable of giving him what he deserves. Please help me Lord, I feel ashamed and unworthy. I do not deserve this gift.  

Amen