Just a quick update/announcement, but more of a reminder for myself.
1.) Get my shit together! Get my life together! Making better schedules of my life, my work and my free time, because Im stressed out as fuck!
2.) Graduate! Get out of that shit hole, I called the center of my life for around 7 years now! I finally wanna work with my pupils again! I wanna work and come home for some free time! I wanna enjoy myself again, without any long stretched deadlines or researches anymore! Im just so … god damn tired of this shit!
3.) Get a better relationship schedule. Honestly??? Im constantly working and leaving the wolf alone all the freaking time, since we moved together. That isn’t fair. Not at all.
4.) Sideblogs! I need more blogs! First off, Im planning on making a NSFW blog for my nude art, my sexy fanfictions and lots of non-canon stuff of my (and probably others) OCs. They really need a proper place and I don’t wanna push all of these on my main blog, especially because I know, that some of my followers are underaged. I love sharing my cute art, but also my nasty stuff, with a lot of people. So, yeah! Stay tuned :)
5.) OC blog. I enjoy roleplaying a lot with my two main DB characters Mina and Bonto!!! I love it and I love the affection, these two get after all this hard work, I put into them x3! They (as well as future OCs) deserve their own blog, too. And they will get it. I already have planned and set everything in motion. BUT(T), the blog will wait until I have the time to fully indulge myself into playing with them. I know, how much work such a rp-blog can be and Im fully aware, that I have no time for my babies right now. They have to wait until AFTER my graduation. Sorry, guys!
6.) Have fun with my work. Something, I have to remind myself somewhat often now, since Im in such a stress. I enjoy drawing, roleplaying and writing my stuff and Im as happy as an artist, as I never was before :) There are so many amazing people out there that already helped me, to get out of my closet, to be inspired again and to work on myself like crazy. Guys, I love you so much and I hope, you know that!!
But, this happiness also showed some bad side effects. Im totally obsessed by it and neglected important things in my life for art. I wanna change that. I have to find a better balance in life. Also, I put myself under the pressure, to impress others, more than I should. The urge to try new stuff, like writing fanfictions and digital art, put a lot of insecurity on me. I compared my work on that of others so much, that I totally forget, to be myself and enjoy my own creativity. Some of you already know phrases from me like “Whatcha think? Does it look/sound good? What did I do wrong this time and what do you think, I could do better?”, 1 second after I showed you my stuff. Im always happy about constructive critique and advices, to improve myself :) Im totally grateful of every single one of them! But … I shouldn’t forget my main focus here, and that is my own joy.
