Just been on a family bday and while everyone was talking i just watched everything and thought about it. it was really strange because my grandparents are so crazy, talking and shouting at each other, discussing everything like its about life and dead. My father laught about my grandmother, his mom, making jokes and i hate this so much. While watching the scene i realized so many bad characteristics and how bad people are to each other and it makes me sad. Realizing i did some of this By myself makes me feel really bad but its so fucking great to learn und improve yourself.