I wanna start posting my writing online again, but the pieces I've created are literally the most approximate extensions I have of myself, which means that when people don't like them my self-esteem takes an immediate hit
Something I've never told anyone is that for all of high school, no one ever liked anything I wrote for myself. People loved and praised the pieces I wrote for public performances (things I knew they'd love) but if I ever showed anyone my abstract pieces (things I really like and am proud of) they'd simply reject them or claim not to get them. I hate every piece of writing that I've had published because they were created for the sole purpose of chasing false validation
This also taps into the larger issue of me never being accepted for who I truly am, but I digress.
