#lemonsquaring

thank you for putting into words something that i’ve been thinking about after going through my “marked for later” only to find that the work had been delete it’s just??? so heartbreaking thinking about how you’ll never be able to read something again and just dlkgjdlkfjg hi sorry good post buddy i hope u feel better?

big big big mood oh god. somehow, thats even worse. like i mourn works ive read that have dissappeared but i get even more ^%##@$^% when i...didnt read it and it’s gone. i end up hoping that somebody read it and remembered it because otherwise it’s really really really gone. my old laptop had a lot of shitty fic wips that were absolutely awful but i kept them around cuz i liked looking at how stupid and dumb they were like itty bitty word puppies walking around and bonking their heads on the legs of furniture, still figuring everything out. and then my laptop fritzed and i never backed up those files and theyre gone forever aside from what i remember about puppies bumping into furniture but thatll be gone as well. and to think theres like packs of majestic word hounds gone never to be seen again. the metaphor got away from me but just like a huge chunk of my life is spent believing in how much words Mean Things To People so thinking about them being gone is. it’s so fucking sad.