#learning sewing

I hope it turns out nice, but it's ok if it's bad so long as I get it done and have that experience.

One side of the mini-pillow we started a bit ago. I'm gonna have to recut some pieces because I messed up and had to kinda brute force this half together... The button will be covering the visual fuck-up. 🙈

No pics, but over the last couple days I have managed to work on another tranimal, fix some pants, and make a lot of progress on a personal project I haven't talked about yet — an abdominal support belt for myself. I got a bit of a pannus situation and I've realized I feel a lot better when it's got support, like my organs feel better? So I've been wanting one of those support belts they make for pregnancy and sometimes sell for big bellies (I've found the term "obesity belt"), but it's tough to find anything I'm confident enough in that I'll spend money on it. So I looked at the component parts of the stuff I was finding online, drew up a plan, and have most of the parts sewn together from the old jeans I've been wanting to make something with for a while. It's a good material for it. I'll post pictures when it's done. I still need to hem some things and I'm not very practiced at that. 🤞

Anyway, I'm starting to get out of that shutdown. The tranimal thread will continue. September 1st will bring the 20€ sale on my shop — make a note — and I'll hopefully manage to start working on the cat pattern again soon.

It is so cool to have this one day break in the middle of working week. This time I’m going to spend it for gym and buying products in the morning and day and then I’ll see what I will be doing. Our Sunday’s chat with Marc ended with his reply to my message with a question if he is going to have some rest (meaning not working) on Wednesday, that maybe he will do it with me. I don’t know what does it mean, but maybe he’s going to spend time with me. So, maybe I’ll have a kind of date tomorrow. I’ll try to delay it till 2-3 p.m. at least, I promised my parents to drive them to the shop already. And I actually need it.

There was no mood to work yesterday. I don’t know what’s happening to me for last and this week, but I just can’t make myself do it. It is like Ksyusha came back to work and I just stopped working at all. Still I do something and yesterday they made me working for the whole day except early morning when I had some 2 hours for my own business. I worked so good when I was alone. But now my colleague is there, I have someone else to work and just… don’t want to move a finger. I’m doing all the same for more then a year. All those responsibilities are not so important. Moreover, no one really thankful for our job, no one sees it important and no one sees what amount we really have and that some things are really hard. There are only problems in all those issues, as the whole company in one huge problem. Nothing is changing there and there is no chance it would change for me nearest future while I work for them. Except the fact, that people start to put more response on my shoulders. But those things are not something I want to have. Thoughts of quitting are still here.

Here is new Monday, it slowly and quietly came for us. It is sunny outside and skies are so Summer like, street is pleasing to go there for a walk, to watch the city in all it’s beauty and mighty, when all the people will be at the offices making money, it will happen soon after 10 a.m. Streets will be silent and nearly empty even at the very center of Moscow. I can remember it at the times I was studying University and sometimes missed classes to have a walk in the morning. How good it was!

I don’t know what actually gives me those memories now. Somehow I dreamed about a friend of mine since school time. Nina in my dream was still in our school when we had our 10 or 11 year and asked me to stay with here while her parents moved somewhere. And we were missing classes! She actually left school for college after 9th year and never missed something by chance. And yesterday’s evening I’ve spend watching my old photos, while searching a photo of my old jeans. I remember them to be very cool, that was my favorite pair and sill I thought it is so, but looking at it now – they are not so enormously cool. Anyway I’m going to try. Maybe I can do something even better. Yes, I was searching for a model I’m going to sew. We are starting with trousers tomorrow and I’ve spend 5 hours this week end making dress-pattern – it was our home task. We had to do just 1, but I thought it would be better to create everything I want to sew after I can actually do it myself and have time for it, so I did. Thankfully I did it, because to construct trousers appeared to be a hard task.

Other time I’ve spend resting and walking. This time I had no plans for beauty meaning any visits to cosmetologists and my parents are out of money till father will get his salary, so I hadn’t had to do any of this losing time and could easily spend it for sewing and myself. On Saturday I was walking in Gorkogo Park. I took muffin and an apple with me and bought a coffee there, I ate it sitting near Moscow River looking far to the city. Then I had a walk there, near the river. Well, I knew that heavy rain and wind are coming, but when I saw it coming and two metro stations near I just preferred to have some more walking to find another one to get a tram to home there. I got lost and spend next two hours in trams and bussing looking for a way home. It was cool and interesting and I missed all the rain. On Sunday it was cold and wet, everything I did was to visit that café I found a month ago. I wanted burger for all that period and gave myself an opportunity to get it in the end, so my mind and body will leave these them behind. About café Chef Burger: nice, beautiful, nice view to the window, easy to find, tasty food. Minuses: it was just meat that was warm, not even hot, all the other burger was cold, French fries were warm, not cold, I asked for a salad, but never got it, thankfully it didn’t appeared it reset too, running boys watched me with no excuse. Well, maybe once I’ll go back to give one more chance to this place, I loved it somehow.