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let’s talk abt the dee caspary and lee gumbs situation.but like seriously lee did not come to play exposing all of them😩

welp i’ve kinda left you guys hanging so lemme apologize for that first. College has been both great (academically) and horrible (socially because of social anxiety and self doubt and blah blah feeling like everyone hates me the usual) but things are looking up for sure, especially with some breaks coming up and rush starting in January. I’ve entered the treatment program at my school called C.O.P.E (Coalition for Overcoming Problem Eating/Exercise) to really give recovery a shot. Basically what it is is that I have a team made up of a dietician, regular doctor, and therapist and I meet with them individually multiple times a week for weigh ins and sessions and check ups to make sure that I am okay and that I am on track. It has its ups and downs and I’ve been feeling very lonely going through all of this alone and without my best friend, but I’m trying. I have friends (mostly guys lol) and my roommate is great, we get along so well and she’s the best, but I still miss my tight knit group of friends from home. And she does know about my ED but I don’t really feel comfortable talking to her about it (not that she has made me feel that way, it’s just my personal feeling). I’ve been writing alot, poetry and just in general, and some of it is pretty good, so that’s cool. But to get to the point of this video: I am still dancing! Dance is going amazing actually. I take ballet 3 times a week for an hour and a half each class and I’m in the advanced level class (out of the levels of elective classes since I’m not a major). I think that training in only ballet has really helped me improve my technique! I still have a loooong way to go, but I’m probably gonna take more dance classes next semester now that I’m settled in. I have also been dancing alot outside of class (improv) which is what this video is! It’s basically a compilation of all the dancing that I’ve been doing since I found out that I could reserve these rooms as studios. Keep in mind that these span over the last 12 weeks, so some of them are alot worse than others, technique wise lol. I think that I have improved alot though and I’m very happy! My love for dance has been reignited for sure and I’m so excited to see what the future holds, once I move past a few obstacles that I’m dealing with right now. I’m also going to NUVO Indianapolis next weekend to do the convention! I’m over the moon excited. Basically the point of this is to fill you guys in since I’ve been gone for so long, and things are still really hard and stressful and time consuming so I don’t think that I’m coming back quite yet. Sorry! I just need to focus on my academics and my health and really get settled in here. But I really want to come back as soon as I can, I miss you guys so much and I feel really selfish disappearing like I did! So here is something to tide you guys over for a little while :) Remember, I’ve only been dancing for 5 ish years (this is my 5th but only my 4th taking ballet) so I still have soooo much work to do. I love you all and I miss you dearly!!! I will be lurking around here and seeing what everyone posts, I just won’t be posting/making gifs for a while longer. But your feedback and comments towards this video are highly requested, and I am always checking my messages since you guys send me such sweet things! Ok this is way too long, I love you! <3

Somebody To Love (MOVE Nationals) 

age 18: Lex Ishimoto (WCSA) - Etre - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RfExWvgbjzg

Also, PLEASE MAKE SURE YOUR ASK BOX IS OPEN. Soooo many people have them closed, and you need it open to get messages

* Cami aged up to compete as age 7