#lazuki asks

BYT OH MY GODDDD IT WAS PERFECT I LITERALLY WOKE UP AT 5AM TO LISTEN TO IT NOWWW 😭😭😭 Ngl I was a lil worried there was a chance Milgram was gonna go off the rails and do smthn unpredictable w her. but they stayed true to my girl muu and her motivations and actions as a character till the end and i love that 😭😭💜💜 AND ALL THESE PPL SAYING NONSENSE ABT HOW SHE DIDNT CARE ABT HARUKA GOT OFFICIALLY MISPROVEN FINALLY 🥱🥱

Like no, muu isnt some evil wicked person shes just got an insanley childish and naive view on interpersonal relationships of "you take whatever you want from me, I take what I want from you, and that way we're both given something and can be happy" which doesn't work bc u need to communicate ur feelings and intentions within a friendship otherwise u end up the positions shes landed herself in 💀💀

Im still holding onto the belief that Muu assumes that the only bullying that's real is physical and everything else is only "playful teasing".

which is rlly shitty but so accurate to real life like if u asked the mfs at my old girls school nobody will say they bullied anyone bc no fists were thrown despite the fact verbal attacks can be just as bad.

Clearly she does feel remorseful for what she did to Rei (bc she was a living breathing person and took her life) but not about the general act of defending herself bc getting bullied, she felt unsafe. So obvi girl still needs a bit of work BUT FROM SOMEONE WHO MADE A WHOLE SONG SAYING IT ABSOLUTELY WASNT HER FAULT WERE GETTING THERE 😢😢😢

And omgggg DONT GET ME STARTED ON HER AND ES 😭😭 when they both started crying i actually felt my heart ache. Milgram is a horrible situation for anyone to be in but for the younger prisoners and es tf do u mean ur put into a mystical prison system thats infiltrating your very head with judgemental thoughts abt u during ur prime developmental years😓😓😓 I WANT TO HUG THEM AND HER SAYING IT WAS OKAY TO CRY LIKE WHERES MY GUN💔💔 Love how they felt most comfortable full on sobbing around her tho when in t1 they seemed so unnerved by her doing it all the time.

AND THE THROWBACK TO WHAT MUU SAID TO THEM IN CRYING B AND HOW IT STUCK 🗣🗣 and muu wondering why they're being so deep and philosophical abt it when it was just a passing thought of hers lmao i love her.

But anyways this vd filled all my expectations and more, I'm so happy the two of them are friends now, even tho their beef in the two trials before was funny. BUT THEIR BANTER HERE WAS SO NICE TOO. 100/10 vd will listen again. Defo my fav so far in t3 and will probably stay as such but paired w amanes. If we dont see 0008 arguing like siblings again im suing

Okay so like among all the victims I feel like the one Es would get along w the most is Rei. Like idk from what we've seen from her so far she seems to be v much no nonsense (esp in relation to Muu) so i think they'd have common ground w that. Like if they were to have an emoji or emoticon thing for annoyance their ones would be identical.

Es is rlly good at maths bc the answers are definite and unchanging. They lament over all the decisions they make within the prison wondering if it rlly was the correct solutions, so its nice for them to know that at least in this instance, if they follow all the steps correctly their judgement will always be right. (And nobody gets hurt or dies bc its just numbers ona page 😆😆🥳🥳) So when they get forced to take a break instead of being normal they whip out a 600 page book full of questions and solutions (Back in t1 amane used to join them but now they just go solo)

They're also super good at literature studies too like trust they will explain to u why the curtain is blue 🗣🗣 Their job is to literally deduce a crime and its reasonings w limited info so they kinda have to be good at reading in between the lines and stuff. In opposition to this, not that their necessarily *bad* at them, but I feel like they wouldn't rlly give themself a chance w the arts/creative things when it comes to being involved. In alot of those things, peoples creations often come from their experiences and feelings that are personal. And Es is v much like "Well idc about that bc my personality is being a warden and i have a prison to run 😒😒" In reality though, I feel like their avoidment of it lies with the fact it makes them reflect on the fact that really don't have anything else to cling onto for their identity except for Milgram which would just queue a mental break down.

I also hc that they unconsciously mimic alot of the prisoners traits. Like biting their nails or standing in certain ways or whatever. Back in t1 they copied Kotko the msot bc shes like like strong and intimidating, a good way to get pp to respect u bc they'll be too threatened to mess w u. Es doesnt want to be protected by her and instead wants to hold these traits themself so the prisoners stop belittling them (and for John to possibly not beat them up again 💔) They only realised they were being w copycat when they started scratching their non existent beard in thought like Kazui and had to take a minute 😪

Also ik their first response whenever they get pissed off by the prisoners is anger and retaliation, but I feel afterwards, whether it be a few hours or days (They suck at processing their emotions) they do feel a little unsettled by the fact they're surrounded by a bunch of ppl who hate them and want them dead. Actual prison wardens are trained for this stuff and are grown, but Es is literally 15 where people are supposed to be feeling threatened by someone stealing their spot on the basketball team or some shit not bc they wanna kill u 😭😭

They akso cant sleep at night cuz the minute they close their eyes, they see and hearnthe scenes from the victims murders but their brain is making it like 10x more violent than how it was presented in the vds 😛