when i made an account on this site a couple months ago, it was just so i could keep with a friend who had also made an account. i hadn't heard anything about this site before then, i didn't know anything about the community. i only joined to follow my friends. once i got set up though, i realized that i really liked some of the content i saw.

my friend left after only i month, i didn't yet understand why. but i began noticing that people on here really just don't like anything about me. i am everything the common tumblr user hates, a white, male, heterosexual, cis, gamer. i've never harassed anyone on here or in real life, in fact I AM the most open minded person i know personally (along with my sister) when it comes to gay rights, trans rights, and racial issues. but i still get occasional anon harassment for who i was born as. and much more often, i see posts shaming and generalizing me, again, for who i was born as. no, obviously not every tumblr user is a hate mongering sjw, but the inciting and controversial posts are the most popular, and i see these posts every single day. me being on this site is like the equivalent of a homosexual hanging out on the westboro baptist church forums. not nearly as extreme of an equivalent, but the similarities are there in that it's just stupid for me to be here, i don't belong.

i am a kind of sensitive person, to be honest. as logical as i try to be, i take things to heart really easily and sometimes go from feeling hardly anything at all to having sharp spikes of emotion. i tried to avoid the more political blogs on here, and i unfollowed those who posted things i didn't like. no matter what i did, however, the horrible tumblr community keeps rearing it's ugly head. and now people are being doxxed left and right it would seem. this is by far the worst community i've ever had the displeasure of being a part of, yes, far worse than halfchan, just to be clear. i've seen people on halfchan say some terrible things, but it's obvious when they are joking. tumblr is like the opposite, trying to be progressive and righteous, but hurting innocent people and being malicious all the while.

i'm going to try blogger. you can find me here. i haven't posted anything yet, but i will in time.

followers, this probably won't be the last time i'm on here, but it will be for a long time. i'm not deleting this blog, but i've changed my password to something extremely complex that would be impossible to remember, and i have saved it as a document on cloud storage. once i log off, it would be quite an inconvenience for me to log back on. i do this for a healthier mindset, as this website puts me in a worse mood. i'd say i'm somewhat triggered, if i was ignorant enough to downplay what people with actual PTSD go through. anyway, i greatly appreciate you for following me, but this is goodbye, for quite some time. i will miss you c: