I think the hardest thing I've been dealing with the church is the worship. I come from a church where worship was half of the entire service, where it was loud joyful and glorious. You could stand, sit, dance whatever you wanted. The music was full of the spirit, the singer's we're passionate with the love of Christ. We sang with all of our hearts, our hands held up high, you didn't feel uncomfortable for having a crappy voice.
Now we sit and sometimes joyfully sing to the sound of organ. It's miserable.
I can't explain it. But starting off the service this way is just turning me away from the church. Half the time after singing I want to leave or I start crying while we're singing and not because I'm happy... I'm not sure why this is such a challenge for me.
