#laten ... hayden ... joshua ... blake ...

"You regret kissing me," He says sheepishly, his fingers playing with his curls. "don't you?"

"No! No... It was my first kiss." You respond, your eyes lowering.

Suddenly. he's ecsatic, "Oh! Does this mean I can kiss you again... Like... Now?"

Please say yes, you can see his tail wagging from a mile away.

— JAE 'NIKO' LEE.

Jae is just as shocked as you. He never expected you to want to kiss him. So when he sees your reaction, he only sighs.

"That was my first kiss." You admit, watching his reaction as he crosses his arms over his chest.

"I know," He huffs, still disappointed. "you won't want to actually kiss me again, will you?"

If you say yes, he will quite literally cradle your face in his hands and kiss you like something from a movie.

If you say no, he simply nods and walks off. Literally. I'd leave him alone, he's wallowing in his own sadness. Not that he'd admit that.

— KAIDAN WOLFE.

Kaidan audibly makes a sound, his eyes widen for a fraction of a second before he melts into the kiss, accidental or not. He pulls you in and lingers for a second.

"That was my first kiss." You say, your foreheads against each other.

"Definitely won't be your last." He mutters before pulling you in once more for seconds.

— HAYDEN WEST.

It's actually Hayden who accidentally kisses you. He jolts back in horror, "I'm so sorry." He panics.

"That was my first kiss." You giggle, his eyes still wide as he says, "I know. Me too..."

Since you've broken the seal, you decide to share another kiss, just more purposeful this time, and Hayden struggles to keep his lips off you after than day forward.

— JOSHUA WHITE.

Joshua smiles softly, "that was your first kiss, am I correct?" He asks politely, ignoring your embarrassment over the entire moment; attempting to keep the moment as sweet and calming as possible.

"Yes..." You admit almost with shame.

"I'd like another, if you will allow it." He asks, his hand placed on top of yours.

— BLAKE CROSS.

Blake is a cocky shit, "If you wanted to kiss me this bad, you could have just asked."

"No! It was an accident," he only laughs in response. "It was my first kiss..."

His face straighten for a moment, sobering up before clicking his tongue, "Really? I don't believe you, I think I'll have to kiss you again to make sure you aren't lying."

— LATEN REED.

You stumble upon some fics written about him. Most likely local writers since he's not known massively, but he's still known well enough to be written about. At first the idea of it makes you feel sick. Why is someone writing x readers with your boyfriend? Does he know them. Has he fucked them?

So you check them obsessively, because why the fuck is someone him when, a) he's not even actually famous. b) he is with you. As time passes you genuinely just start to read them, you're not even reading them out of anger anymore.

Laten doesn't know of this and he doesn't need to.

— JAE 'NIKO' LEE.

Jae's fans are just as insane as he is and the fics made of him are just as equally insane. Literal novels. AU's where he's a vampire, or a warlock, or a monster with four arms and whatever else they can think up.

You read them out of pure amusement. They tend to be whacky and silly. Then you find a blog that is relatively normal besides the fact that they write Jae as Niko, the perfectly polite, sweet, loving man that is seen online and in the industry.

You scour the blog and become invested in their interpretation of Jae behind closed doors. Sometimes, as sad as it is, you begin to feel comfort in this fabrication of Jae; soaking up the sweet moments of gentleness that only exist on your screen.

When he finds out (from looking through your phone) he slightly feels at a loss. You care enough to read about him like this, so why are you so hesitant with him in real life? What is so different about Niko to Jae that makes you so scared of his reality?

— KAIDAN WOLFE.

Kaidan is depicted as a fun and loving person online. Which is true, mind you, but it's also exhausting to read him being so understanding and aware when in reality he was anything but.

You read this version of Kaidan as an escape of sorts. You'd love him so much more if he emulated the version of him that existed on your screen. The two Kaidans exist as their own different entities and when Kaidan eventually notices your screen as you scroll through, he couldn't be anymore in love with you.

You really are meant to be!!

— HAYDEN WEST.

Since Hayden isn't famous, nor very popular, it isn't likely that he's even captured anyone's attention besides the delivery man as he drops off his takeaway.

But it seems he has a secret admirer, much to your dismay. He refuses to even engage with the letters that find their way into his bag; clearly whoever it is, is from his class.

Honestly, this makes you feel a tad bit sick. Whoever this weirdo is needs to back off, what freak writes fanfics about someone that they know personally?

So you begin to read them. They're not love letters in the traditional form, they're short stories and one-shots. It makes your blood chill, how they write his shy smile to the size of his hands and how the veins protrude when he's focused on his work. The details knowing how much his secret admirer watches him closely.

Once that Hayden notices the trend of your recent obsession of reading each story, he begins to throw them out and get rid of them just as fast as they appear in his bag, not wanting you to be upset anymore.

— JOSHUA WHITE.

Joshua has a fanbase of sorts. Being a proud and honoured member of the church, a credit to society with a dimpled soft smile and reliable brown eyes, he is everything that a person would want in a man.

So when you realise that there's a small fan group dedicated to the church's very own Joshua White, you aren't surprised at all. In fact, you find it quite funny. Until you joined, that is. When you saw the things that they would say about him, you were left with rage.

Novels-worth of the most obscene smut you've ever read, and these were apparently God fearing people? Relationship headcanons, small posts with stuff like, 'I bet his hands would feel so good down your pants in the pews'. It wasn't funny, at all. Not when you know that he has shook hands with those very people.

— BLAKE CROSS.

Blake does have an array of fics, all completely fantasy based due to his actual social media being very limited. Nobody knows anything about him besides the fact that he is rich, good looking, a nepo baby, and a bit of a idiot due to the odd scandal throughout the years.

This only gained a fanbase rather than shame upon his family name. Blake is a mystery to the public and they became obsessed. Writing fics of what they think it would be like dating a nepo baby. Country clubs, days in the sun golfing, tennis courts with short skirts and easy smiles, villas in italy, and unlimited shopping sprees.

Which isn't too far from he truth, besides the fact that he is a complete idiot and queen of bitchiness when the mood allows. You read them and honestly find it amusing that the fans mainly only like him because of what he and his family represent: opulence and unavailability. Not the truth, and you know that if they knew the real him they would run a fucking mile.

— LATEN REED.

Laten internally freaks out but keeps his cool, he only wants to you be okay. He hates to see you sick. He’s working like a dog making sure you have everything you need. You want a drink? He’s got it. A specific snack? He’s already out to buy it.

Laten is attentive as always, but his big green eyes are less excitable than usual as he’s cuddling you into him, making sure you’re close enough to him so he can feel your heartbeat against him.

— JAE ‘NIKO’ LEE.

Jae switches up, he’s softer than usual. He’ll leave a glass of water by the bedside table, allow you to sleep in and rest up as he presses a kiss against your forehead before leaving for work. He’ll send you messages throughout the day asking how you are, making sure you’ve ate and drank with photo evidence, making sure that you haven’t left, under strict supervision and rules.. the whole thing.

Once he’s back he expects you both to shower together where he will wash your hair and help you freshen up before getting into comfortable clothes to rest with him while watching old movies.

— KAIDAN WOLFE.

Kaidan is like a t-shirt, he clings to you.

He will cancel any and all plans, stating that you’re both sick. He will look after you to the point where you’re more sick of him than of the actually sickness you’ve got. But you can’t get mad when he smiles softly, his beautiful brown eyes watching you with love as he takes the more gentlest care of you.

He sets the living room up comfortably for you, like a nest on the sofa that you sink into and as you watch movies together you fall asleep quickly because of how comfortable he’s made everything.

— HAYDEN WEST.

Hayden is sick with worry, he’s googling everything as if any rational part of his brain had fucked off and left him.

He buys you your favourite snacks and drinks, cooks you meals to help you feel better, searches up simple home remedies to try and aid you. He will do your skincare to keep you feeling fresh, do your hair so it’s not bothering you, make sure your blankets are soft and pillows are comfortable. But he’s so gentle and it’s sort of funny because he’s acting like he can break you.

— JOSHUA WHITE.

Joshua is as a sweet as ever, of course. He tries to lighten to mood by making you laugh to try and take your mind off being sick as he actively takes care of you.

He knows all the tricks to taking care of you and your sickness and is kinda the best person to be around when sick because he’s so good at taking care of others.

— BLAKE CROSS.

“Don’t make me sick!” He will jest, shuffling away from you before laughing and going over to check you, if he can he will cancel things out of his day to stay by your side but if he really can’t he’ll make sure someone is near you to take care.

Make sure that meals are cooked, his private chef told to make you things to aid you and the maids to make sure things are clean and in order before he comes back to look after you himself.

He’s not an almond mom by any means, but he could be classed as one by proxy, really.

He doesn’t care about what you eat as long as it’s not stuff that’s genuinely harmful.

‘That stuff is basically wax, I hope you realise that, my love?’ — as he’s slowly moving towards the bin with it.

— LATEN REED.

Laten is a big back, sorry. He will cook them up with you. Add the shitty tinned sausages and sometimes throws in a few eggs.

He would do the challenge to see how spicy you two can handle it but he once did that alone and spent the night on the toilet gripping the sink with a ring of fire.

Never again.

— JAE ‘NIKO’ LEE.

He’s ate them on lives, and they’re a basic dorm snack with his group.

So, yeah. He will eat them with you.

He will and can beat you in terms of spice, as well. He’s a champ.

— KAIDAN WOLFE.

He tries but his eyes stream after the third bite, his mouth red and gasping, lol.

Kaidan videos it for fun, just for you two, and you both watch it back just to laugh at how funny his reactions were.

He never ate them again.

— HAYDEN WEST.

Hayden had seen them online and decided to order a few out of curiosity because they looked so good.

He made sure to share them with you and he was honestly so excited, it was adorable.

He put the entire packet of hot sauce in and quickly found out that maybe he shouldn’t have done that.

Thank god that he still had ice cream in the freezer.

Also, he put on Hot Ones videos of both you favourite celebs while eating because he thought it’d be fun.

— JOSHUA WHITE.

Much like Roman, he doesn’t and will not eat them. He mainly eats proper home cooked meals and has never even heard the term of ‘girl dinner’, so buldak noodles are a different world to him.

He sees you eat them and he’s genuinely baffled. So he tries a bite and thought he’d had a taste of satans ass crack they were so hot.

He nearly spoke gods name in vain he was so shocked.

— BLAKE CROSS.

He’s a cocky bitch and thought he’d do good at eating a whole pack of them with the entire sauce pack even though he’s never ate them before.

He even sets a timer and makes you both do the challenge together, even if you don’t put all the hot sauce in yours.

Surprisingly he does quite well until the end where he suppresses the panic when he feels his throat go into overdrive.

Also, it takes a while for him to confirm if there is potential. He's a man with standards, and with his image and close-knit family, he doesn't just invite anybody into his world.

He is one of the more chill ones out of the ‘emotionally stable’ ones, if you can even call it that…

— LATEN REED.

Our boy has never liked someone properly until you, so he does understand why you’d need more time to warm up and ease yourself into it — especially knowing his past and his popularity.

Laten is very sweet and is always there to support and reassure you, which could also hinder the progression sometimes because he’s a little too good to be true, even though he genuinely does mean well.

He may also wonder if you’re hesitant or slow to reciprocate to his extent due to the rumours and his reputation on campus.

— JAE 'NIKO' LEE.

In the usual Jae fashion, he doesn’t understand it and unfortunately he doesn’t really care.

You can be ten steps behind him and he’ll drag you by the collar if he needs to, he will get what he wants.

But secretly he does like the way you are in some aspects because it shows you don’t want him for his fame but he also just loves a game of cat and mouse.

— KAIDAN WOLFE.

Poor you.

He doesn’t even notice. You’re both madly in love and ready to settle down in his head.

You tell him to slow down and he nods and continues anyway, bless him…

He means well, of course. But he’s very much… attached.

— HAYDEN WEST.

Hayden doesn’t take it as rejection, but he does sort of wonder if you’re like it because you simply don’t find him that attractive.

Of course you’re waiting for someone better to come along, because you can do so much better.

He will go with your pace and be understanding but insecurity always reaches towards the top.

— JOSHUA WHITE.

He is the same in some ways, he doesn’t mind taking it slow.

Good things come to those who wait, is what he says to himself.

But he is quite a warm and loving person, so your ‘detachment’ can sometimes be received slightly negatively, he gets more upset more than anything even though he doesn’t tell you.

He’s a gentleman and puts you first, even if he doesn’t understand it.

— BLAKE CROSS.

Blake doesn’t get it at all.

‘We like each other so… why not?’ Is his thought pattern. He just doesn’t get why you want to take things slow.

Blake lives a fast life and he likes it that way, he wants something and he gets it.

You aren’t an exception.

When you begin to make this hard, he begins to feel impatient and aggravated.