#lastmessage

Showcasing my level of freakiness’s magnum opus.

This was my last message with one of the most promising situationships. I hate the idea of loving anything different than him, but what can we do.

but you don’t need my apologies, because they really won’t change anything

But I am sorry, I never should have put myself back 

We never should have had that week of...well, whatever that week was

And you’re hurt and you probably hate me,

But I could see you getting attached, I could see myself in the same way

But,

You just aren’t.

I couldn’t hurt you anymore

Even if he won’t want to be mine,

I still can’t be yours

And we both know you and I couldn’t ever be anything less than each others

 I’m sorry, you deserved the truth. That’s why I told you the whole story – what really happened and why I did the things I did. I am sorry for hurting you, for leaving you. But at that moment that was the only thing I could think of. Things happened that you weren’t aware of. Please know that I loved you. I really did, if I was given a chance to turn back time, I still wouldn’t change anything. Two years of our relationship is enough. I was happy, we were happy. Until one day I woke up and I wasn’t happy anymore along with the realization that I didn’t love you anymore. Maybe it’s because I finally realized my worth, I gave everything to you and loved you more than I love myself you know that. It’s just that after you broke up with me last summer I realized that I don’t deserve all the pain and shit that you gave. I don’t deserve you, and you don’t deserve me. And so I slowly fell out of love. I don’t know how to start, what the things I need to do to confront you, what are the right words to say. I ask for His guidance and I felt relieved. From that, I realized how I wasted my seven months in making decisions I regret at the end. I lost some opportunities I must prioritize in the first place. Because of this realization, I decided to end our relationship and I’m hoping you understand my side. I’m sorry for giving you so much pain. I’m so blessed to have you. I will pray for your healing. I hope that at the right time, you find your overflowing happiness with someone you love the most. I wish you all the best.