#lara-mumbles

@gothlatina-yourwachina Pierce your nippies, get the opal titties.

It seems that I also meet the diagnosis criteria for schizotypal PD.

I will tattoo my bewbs next Monday.

I’ve found out you can only give so much in a relationship to make things work. Not everything is up to you; not only does this mean that not everything should be up to you, but also that there are things you cannot solve because it depends on what the other people want and/or can do. You can do all the right things, everything in your power, and still have the relationship fail. Some people do not want to compromise, at least not to the extent or in the things that you genuinly need. All of this becomes more relevant when you are fucked in the head.

Thing I’ve realised: I feel left out of everything. >people do not like me >people do not want to be with me also: I cannot relate to other people, which makes me feel alone.. and left out.

Everything feels terrible.

I should be wise and take the opportunity to look for places I can move to (because the pension I am in will close by the end of the month), but I am in such a fucking  shitty mood that I cannot do a fucking thing.

I had been dealing just fine with things these last couple of days, but this threw me off all over again. I know I should talk with him about this, but last bad experiences with getting dismissed when asking (for) things really makes me not want to say a thing. I do not feel anything good will come out of it.