#lanternfruit

“Just let me do this for you!”

“Hey Noah?”

“Yeah Ed’s?”

“Don’t...don’t call me that ever again...”

“Yeah uh agreed...”

“...”

“You wanted to ask me something?”

‘Oh yeah right, that’s right I did. I wanted to ask you, Noah, a question.”

“Okay, well what is?”

“Do, do you think you could live without me?”

“What?! The hell kind of a question is that Eddy???”

Noah turned to Eddy now, at least to his general direction. His face contorted into that of confused rage. He didn’t like the implications he was hearing behind Eddy’s question.

“Well I mean just, you know, in case something ever happened.”

“Nothing! Nothing is ever gonna happen to you Ed. Okay, so shut up.”

“Noah I’m serious! I-”

“-So am I! Nothing is ever gonna happen to take you away from me okay!?”

Eddy sighed, he knew this was gonna be hard but Noah was taking it worse then he ever thought. He wasn’t sure he was going to be able to do this.

“Look you’re right, nothing is going to happen to me. But uh my dad he...”

“He what?!”

“He’s making us move. Far away. And he says i’m not allowed to keep contact.”

“He..you...wha...I don’t...Eddy no way, I don’t believe this.”

“I-I’m sorry Noah. There’s nothing I can do.”

Despite Noah’s blindness, Eddy was quick to wipe away his tears.

“You could stay you dumbass!”

“I really can’t Noah. I’m sorry. I have to go.”

“...”

“When?”

Noah's question was quite, dreading the answer.

“Today...”

Noah felt rage burn deep within him, boiling over like water from on over filled pot.

“TODAY??! AND YOU’RE JUST TELLING ME THIS NOW??? WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU????”

“I’m sorry Noah but I didn’t know how to say it. I’m sorry.”

Noah calmed, the anger still lapping at the tide line but was now no longer directed at the shore.

“There’s something else, isn’t there. Something you’re not saying.”

Eddy leaned over, a lingering kiss burning its way on to Noah’s forehead and deeply into his soul. He stood, as if to leave but a hand gripped at his, pulling him down. The tide met the fiery sands of the shoreline as Noah took Eddy’s last kiss just as he had taken his first. The boys were gentle, the kiss fierce but filled with a love that would never burn out and never drown.

“I’m sorry.”

The words, mumbled through a jumble of lips, were final. There was nothing left to say at this point. Well of course there was plenty left to say but none of it that could be said. The hand surged like a river, giving one last squeeze, then rushed back, away, leaving small blushes of red from the pressure just as the river leaves the shore damp.

Eddy nodded, hand closing around empty air. He turned. He walked. He felt as though he was not leaving as himself, for Noah had taken that with his last kiss. He was little more then an ember now, a dying camp fire as morning lit the sky. He remained in the memories, in the smell of smoke and wood and the feeling of warmth and the rush of heat and tat never ending passion to live.

It belonged to Noah now. That was how he lived.

And in the end what did it matter. He hadn’t told Noah and yet he had known anyway, in the same way Mother nature knows that one all life will die to become once more anew.

He wanted....god what did he want. So many things. And none of them could ever be his. He was moving, yes, that much had been true. And he was leaving today. He refused to lie to Noah. His father had forbade him from contact until he was better.

But this...

This was...

He knew he wouldn’t...

He could feel it...

He had heard before, that some people just knew when they were doing to die. And Eddy’s death was written to him in the ashes of those already passed. He would not live. His father could buy all the fancy medicaid he could but it wouldn’t matter.

Fire comes and goes. It breaths its oxygen for as long as the wood permits. His embers were merely waiting. His sands and ashes and life was already being scattered throughout. He would not live.

He would not live.

But Noah. Oh Noah. He would live. He would save. His life will mean much and he will do more. He was water. Endless, timeless, eternal. Eddy would take his comfort in that.

In knowing that even if the tide went out it would return. Noah might be sad now, he might be upset. He might recede but one day he would return, like waves crashing to the shore. He would save and help and love so many.

And Eddy?

Another fic and ugh a songfic. I am so sorry. I hate songfics. But I dunno I just threw it up so yeah. More Angst btw. also i added a few lyrics of my own