#lanabug

So many things remind me of you The Starbucks in Turkey creek and the baby store you drug me to to get your unborn cousin baby clothes Your little cousin is adorable in the clothes you picked, their mom dressed them in them for your funeral. You know, those anchor ones? The super cow ice cream at the mall And the story of the girl who died from a terminal illness at a young age reminds me of you because you made it to almost 19 with me People talking about vaccines reminds me of you and the way I argued most people should have them, when one almost (and probably led to) costed the end of your life but you pulled through until I saw you again Nashville reminds me of you Chattanooga reminds me of you California reminds me of you Disney reminds me of you Spongebob reminds me of you Sushi reminds me of you Gatlinburg reminds me of you Webkinz reminds me of you Zelda reminds me of you Lady bugs remind me of you Thays why I have one tattooed on me that I got on your birthday The woman who comes into work with the scar from open heart surgery reminds me of you because it’s almost just like yours The one who is deemed a midget or short and is misadged reminds me of you Hearing someone ask “will you need a kids menu” reminds me of how you snapped “I’m 13!” to the server under your breath as my mom said no Any my little pony reminds me of you Any anchor reminds me of you Anything with the color purple or a dark magenta reminds me of you And God dammit I miss you Its 3am and I’m heartbroken because the one person who stuck with me since kindergarten even though I treated them bad at times is gone and I can’t have them back I miss you And I’m sorry I’m sorry I didn’t text you when I thought about you earlier that week I’m sorry I was short responding to your last text before that. I was at work. I was tired. I should’ve known you were bad when you didn’t reply for 5 days. Then I got your dad’s text and I broke down . And I just want to hear your laugh again or you singing in my car I love you and I miss you pandacreamcutie

It's National Best Friend day and I feel sick to my stomach because my best friend is six feet under and I'm missing her more than anything right now. If I could give up anything to have her here and healthy I would. I just wanna hear her laugh Or hear her singing in my car Or even nagging about something I just want to hold her God dammit I miss her We had plans to see each other just a month later We had plans to eat sushi once she got out of the hospital I hate this

I should've texted you when I thought about you the other day I just want to say I love you to you one last time