#lacrymose

Within the Dreamscape, people appear not as they do in the real world, but how they PERCEIVE themselves

A deeply abused person may feel that their truest reflection of self lies BEFORE thier trauma

An aging father and retired superhero may yearn for his prime

A teenager with self-image issues may appear distorted or monstrous

All I wanted was to make copies of DVDs for my own holiday watching times...

Is that really too much to ask? Why must the aspect ratio stretch the screen so because of conflicting codec issues?

Why must the only programme I have which could fix it suddenly decide to not work? And what's more, why must the process of re-downloading it take so damn long? And why, oh why must the torrents I download in an attempt to replace the file stall with the stubbornness of a dying mule?

Oh woe is me, for I only want to watch films on holiday.

I slip diamonds

behind open doors

and pour them into velvet

compartments

of jewelry boxes

that close.

I place diamonds

underneath wooden tables

and trail them –

one by one –

alongside

long, silent sighs.

I shed diamonds

in shower water

where they can swim and swirl down

an open drain

and can’t be seen again.

I drop diamonds

without open eyes

when backs are turned

from no hard feelings

ever earned.

I swallow diamonds

whole

as I stutter

heavy lies

and exhaust seventeen muscles

reaching high.

I guide diamonds

to places where they

can’t scatter light

where they can’t cut anyone

by mistake.

I force diamonds

back to their birthplace

in the blackest coal

of the deepest

Mozart's Lacrymose from the Requiem in D Minor......

It puts me in a sort of painful trance as contradicting as it sounds. I literally can't stop shivering.