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Is this for real!! I'm crying!! It still doesn't feel real! I still don't want to believe it. That first month and a half almost two months I was in shock still. Lacey I owe you so much! Your the reason I'm jumping again! I was so scared I would get hurt again doing what I loved most! I was scared I could get hurt to the point were I couldn't do it again. I hurt my shoulder so bad I didn't ride like I could for months. I couldn't even jump that jump again. I get back up and tried going over it but just cantering put me in so much pain. The reason I'm jumping and I'm about to do my first show in over 4 months this week is thanks to you! Your my inspiration lace! This school year I'm making a lacey school year. I'm going to stand up for people and embrace my inner weirdness! Not having you here is heartbreaking and this next thing I'm going to type is going to kill me. I have finally come to the realization that your not coming back. As heartbreaking as it is it's not a nightmare it's just killing me inside. And now the tears are spilling even more. I know you wouldn't want me to but it's so hard. Thinking the one reason I'm being me and doing what I love isn't here anymore is words can't even describe it. I love you Lacey. I made you this promise that I would help your legacy live on and it is!! I LOVE YOU LACEY!!! FOREVER AND ALWAYS!!!