#kyluxtrashcompactor

Oh man!! So this is coming from a prompt that @sparrowlicious and @jeusus were tossing around ages ago, about an older Hux and Kylo on a vacation at a beach in an a/b/o AU.

It’s a story about an estranged marriage. About differing hormonal drives, and the a/b/o equivalent of menopause. About an inability to be honest about things that are bothering you, and the kind of toll that takes on a marriage over decades.

It’s an exploration of suppressants, and how sometimes those work really great, and sometimes they really don’t, and how damaging that can be to a marriage.

It’s a non-traditional a/b/o narrative--there’s an alpha and an omega, but there’s no mpreg and no discussion of children. In a lot of ways, it’s breaking down my own experiences with hormonal birth control--in that it fucked me up real bad, and while I’m endlessly grateful that it existed, it was also solely responsible for 1.5 breakdowns.

It’s taking a remarkably long time to pull together--there are a lot of time skips, and the story covers both the current beach holiday, as well as decades of their marriage all the way back to the early days, when Kylo had only just showed up on the Finalizer. I’m a little intimidated by it at the moment--partially for the technical work of the timeskips, and partly because of the personal nature of the piece, but I also think it’s a really, really good story, and I’m going to buckle down and get it done.

I mean, I didn’t really plan to make it a story when it first started, so a lot of it was kinda on the fly: but I do have a sketch from back then when I was planning the ending out, when I thought if I should continue it or not but I got tired(I did them all in 2-3 weeks?) Make of it what you will:

Viking Kylux Plushies!

lol umm 

1. my zombie apocalypse survival backpack (which is something i made in college and still have with me to this day) so while it is kind of cheating, it is also a singular thing i made for this exact purpose

2. gun

i can see through you (see to the real you)                         

To all the onlookers behind him, Ben looked as though he were threatening Hux, but Hux saw otherwise. Ben’s pupils were fat, his voice husky as he said, “You’re trying to be nice, huh?”

Hux smirked, shrugged with one shoulder; he might appear nonchalant, but his knees were weak, his stomach fluttering.

Ben leaned closer, nose nearly touching Hux’s, breath warm against his lips, just inches away. Hux started to sway forward, beyond caring for the consequences, when Ben stepped back, keeping Hux’s narrower body at arm’s length, trapped against the car.

“Try harder,” Ben said with a parting shove, and then he was walking away.

I fell in love with @kyluxtrashcompactor ‘s gorgeous High School AU the second I read it.  It’s a brilliant take on several @kyluxhardkinks prompts that includes an inversion of Ben and Hux’s more typical characterizations, and takes place against the backdrop of the pressures of high school, where so many of us struggle to find ourselves and fit in.

never seen it | need to see it | hate it | ugh | it was okay | LOVED IT | asdfghjkl

so, fun (maybe?) fact:  i love the Alien franchise, but i’m very much a latecomer to it. i saw Alien and Aliens sometimes in the mid ‘00s for the first time. the very first movie from this series i’d ever seen was Alien: Resurrection, on a date, in high school. i had no idea about the movie, no idea it was part of a series, none of it made any sense to me, really. i was barely familiar with any of the actors, even, which is sort of ridiculous, because while it doesn’t have an absolutely star-studded cast, it’s very much an “everyone in this movie is someone” set. it was a bad date. bad. though somewhat improved later on in the evening by a bowl, but still bad. 

i think i do slightly prefer Aliens to Alien, which may be fighting words for some people, but whatever: i am sure we can all agree that Sigourney Weaver is an absolute badass and generally amazing