1) I realize that this is a “screamo” song and I'm trying to make it acoustic, and 2) I realize while I am not completely tone deaf I also cannot really sing... but I wanted to do something for Kyle.
We Came as Romans has been the soundtrack to my life for what feels like an eternity. Despite that, I think if I had to pick one moment... the one that meant the most to me... it would be...
February 5, 2013. I stood in the back of The Ritz in Ybor and watched him more than I think I watched anyone on stage... so much so that there’s even a picture of him on my instagram, hand in the air, jamming out to God know what song. I wanted something to hold on to... to remember that moment. It was the only time I think I ever saw it that easy for him to breathe. No matter how far apart we’ve grown, nothing has ever changed what that evening meant to me... to see him safe. I put so much energy while he was growing up into protecting him. In the end, I’m not sure it ever worked. What did work was this band... this music... this song... They were the one true hope. I pretended to sleep while we drove back to Naples that night while him and Josh were talking in the front seat. But I never really slept... I laid there listening to them gush about how perfect the evening was... about how much they loved this band... about how for one night only the world was still. It’s the only thing I ever wanted for him.
It’s hard for me to wrap my mind around the fact sometimes that someone that gave us so much to believe in... so much optimism about the future... so much honest and true believe that it truly does get better... isn’t here anymore. In my eyes you were invincible. While I recognize that that’s not realistic in the slightest, it breaks my heart that I was wrong. I hope that heaven is treating you well. I hope that you’re up there singing at the top of your lungs. I hope you know how much everyone down here misses you. Thank you... for all the light in the dark you gave to us while you were here. Thank you for giving us hope.
“Will I be remembered or will I be lost in loving eyes.” - Promise Me
- You will forever be remembered, and you will always be missed.
