#kycine

if people would ask me why i became your fan, i would just answer that it was because of a vlog on the tgs youtube channel. i can't remember what was the very first vlog that i watched, but i definitely became a silent fan after i watched your 'grand meet vlog'. i really can't explain why, but i immediately felt butterflies inside me whenever the two of you interact. however, if they would ask why i love the both of you, my answer would be totally is totally different.

i remember last year, i was at a very bad place. quarantine started killing me inside and my mental health was at its worst state ever. i would always cry at night without knowing the reason why. i deactivated all of my social media accounts and decided to disconnect from everyone in my life. i wanted to fix myself but i did not know how to start. i just went on and fixed my routine so that somehow i can cope up with this new normal. the one day, i saw a video on youtube about your ig live, and for the first time in a long while, i felt genuine happiness when i was watching the both of you. so i went and watched every single video on youtube that the both of you were part of. when i felt like i watched everything, i decided to search fan accounts on twitter because i can watch contents about you without the need to reactivate my account. it became a habit for me to stalk kycine stan accounts during my free time and seeing them makes me feel so much kilig and happiness. it continued for at least 2 months, until i finally decided to make my own kycine stan account.

it was my very first stan account so i really had no idea how to make contents about you. i just tweeted all the things that made me kilig, laugh, or happy. i learned that whenever there was a ganap or event, there would be a twitter party. it was actually not hard for me because i just tweeted about the things that i love about the both of you. and it became something which i find very easy to do because loving you naturally became a part of my life.

i love your journey so much. it is something that i would always be proud of. it literally started with nothing, and it became something so special. all kycine stans would know that the both of you did not have an ideal start. you were nothing but workmates. you were barely even friends. but somehow the universe did it magic and turned your relationship into something so magical.

i love how you're both the exact opposite of each other. you may not agree with each other all the time, but you always meet half-way. one's strength is the other's weakness, that's why it makes you a great team. you balance each other so well. which makes me believe that i could never find any pair better than the two of you.

i love the uncertainty that we have in your relationship. it seems like we are witnessing the growth in your relationship. that's why we always go crazy whenever you give us ayuda kasi it is always new. you won't share everything that happens in your lives, that's why it always surprises us when you share your moments. it always feel like opening a new chapter of a book.

i genuinely believe that i can write a book and tell all of the reasons why i love you both so much, but i know that the biggest reason is because you are you. i can choose to stan anyone, but i chose the both of you. there are other celebrities who give more ayudas and assurance, but i still chose to risk my heart to the both of you.

i love you both so much and i know that i can do anything for the both of you. i would not hesitate to spend money, to sacrifice my sleeping schedule, and i would go after anyone who wants to hurt you. i would do everything without asking for anything in return because that's love right? but i guess love is not the answer for everything.

despite all the pain and problems that i got because of stanning you, i was still ready to love you. i was contemplating whether i am still willing to risk my all and sacrifice everything for you. but your side already decided what my choice would be. they wanted me to let go. and honestly, if you gave me even the smallest sign, i would still choose you. but you didn't. i know that my tweets reached you, but you still chose to turn a blind-eye into it. you could've saved us, but you chose not to. and i knew it right then that you did not need us. that we were JUST FANS who do not have any right to be honest and open about our opinions.

but i still want to thank God for bringing the both of you in my life. thank you for saving me during my darkest times. thank you for making me smile during my lowest times. and thank you for introducing to people who have became very important to me in real life. thank you for keeping me sane, despite the whole world being insane. i would have never survived quarantine if not for the both of you. when i thought that life was not worth living anymore, you gave me a reason to fight. i owe you my life right now.

i hope that you will both reach your dreams and goals in life. i will always root for you from a far. and i will always include you in my prayers. i love you to the moon and back <3

love,