Hey itâs @spacey-pngâ birth and I wrote a lil emic confession as a gift!!! I hope you enjoy it and have a great birthday!! đđ
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Hizashi has been planning this over and over in his head. Repeated every word, every pause, every cadence and quirk, every hand gesture and overdramatic explanation of his affections to make it absolutely, positively, impossibly clear just how much he loves Aizawa ShĹta and how very, very sincerely he would like to be the one for him.
He has for a year known that on his birthday, his gift to himself will be looking ShĹta right in the face (but not the eyes, that makes ShĹta uncomfortable, thatâs one of those things heâs learned and practised) and telling him in the biggest, best words he can that he is head over heels in love.
Kayama is in on it, of course. Sheâs been gathering vital intelligence, cheering him on- and itâs her counsel he seeks first this morning after staring at himself in the mirror long enough to be sure he isnât dreaming, that the day has finally come and this is what itâs greeted him with.
[Midnight] he texts, Hero name and all because itâs saving he needs right now.
She replies quickly, [Are you all set?]
Hizashi stares at his reflection again, gurgles his misery in time with the tapping of his thumbs.
[I lost my voice.]
[You lost your voice???]
[Is it a sore throat?? I can bring you something!!]
[No] He is dying inside. [I think it's the Villain from yesterday. It's not a sore throat, I can feel the sounds resonating up just fine, but if I try and say anything- Bam! It's like they just disappear.]
[Does that mean today's plans are cancelled?]
Hizashi gazes at himself, lips pursed, brows low. Every overwrought script heâs come up with, flawless as they mightâve been, is swept aside under one big, undeniable truth.
He wants ShĹta to know how he feels.
It has to be today. He can feel it.
[I'll figure something out!!! I'm going to make sure he knows how I feel!!!]
[I'll be cheering for you!] Sheâs always got his back, he knows that, but itâs always nice to remember sheâs standing at his side encouraging him too. [I expect to hear all about it later!]
[When I can talk to do it, I promise you're getting the exclusive reveal!]
As Hizashi requests, ShĹta is already briefed on his unfortunate situation by the time Hizashi appears at his door. Kayama spared the specifics of why it matters so much, but she got across the main thing: Mic no talk, enjoy the relief on your ears.
ShĹta inclines his head as Hizashi takes his shoes off, considering him in the rare silence.
âI told you to consider learning signs before your hearing gets worse. It would have been useful in the present situation too.â
Hizashi makes the biggest show he can of rolling his eyes, squeezing past ShĹtaâs folded arms to jog out into the lounge and drape himself all over ShĹtaâs couch. He puts his legs up on one of the arms even, grinning while ShĹta sighs and trudges over to sweep them right back off to the ground.
Drinks are provided, ShĹta finds something to put on the TV, the normal day together Hizashi had asked for so he could make his move thatâs now turning into an agonising attempt to figure out a new, even better move, with one hundred percent less speech.
They sit together, quiet. Obviously.
âUm.â ShĹta shifts in place, rubbing his palm up and down the side of his mug. âThis is⌠strange.â
Of course itâs strange! Hizashi canât breathe a word despite the backlog of frankly incredible lines heâs building up in response to the decor, the TV, ShĹtaâs awkward little wriggles. He has some killer jokes about ShĹtaâs cat-paw socks just begging to get out!
He puffs up his cheeks, waving his hands in an approximation of duh! When's the last time you weren't being serenaded by my beautiful words every moment we spent together?
ShĹta watches his interpretive dance and glances away. ââŚI have no idea what that means. You could type on your phone.â
You didnât read it when I did, his hands wiggle emphatically.
ââŚAre you complaining I didnât look, before.â
YES???
âYou had the font set to the smallest size. And the note background was magenta.â
Hizashiâs hands freeze, and then heâs sheepishly rubbing the back of his neck. He has tastes! And a lot to say, more than his screen could handle any bigger than that. ShĹta didnât go for the emojis, either! Probably because decoding them wouldâve taken a codebreaker a good chunk of the dayâŚ
âSorry. I⌠am not that good with screens to begin with. And Iâm worse with charades.â ShĹta clears his throat, lips curving down in a frown. âI should try to be more allowing. Especially today.â
Hizashi gives him a flapped itâs fine, itâs fine, sinking back heavier into the couch. So no text on a screen, no charades. Damn. Maybe he can piece together songs? Make a quick playlist, as if making a playlist is ever quick?
âAh, itâs frustrating.â
That tone of voice has Hizashi looking back to him, unused to ShĹta speaking so softly. ShĹtaâs hands have slipped up to steeple against his forehead, elbows on his knees, back arched down and thumb fidgeting back and forth near the tip of his nose, gaze focused unseeing beyond it.
Hizashi wants to ask whatâs wrong, is this bad, should I have thought of something else?
He just lifts a hand, loosely touching ShĹtaâs shoulder to try and remind him that heâs here for whatever ShĹta wants to say.
ShĹtaâs eyes flick sidelong towards him, hastily back away, and itâs surely a trick of the light but his cheeks look a little pink.
âUsually you talk so much I canât get a word in. But I never wish you were quiet.â His hands slide slow down his nose, fingers parting to the shape of it and joining again over his lips as he laces them across his mouth instead. âI donât know what to do in a silence like this. It makes me want to- fill it, but I doubt I have anything worth saying, even less than you do. At least you make nonsense sound appealing.â
Best Radio Show four years and counting, he wants to remind him, to lighten the mood. His fingers just gather in his lap, gaze still on the hint of red thatâs taken root in ShĹtaâs ears now too.
ShĹtaâs gaze sweeps to the ceiling, like heâs looking for answers in the paint.
âI like your voice.â
Hizashi feels his spine straighten, eyes wide and alert as the jolt slips his glasses down his nose. Oh. Oho. What? What?
âItâs not the best voice, even. You blast out my eardrums every other day, you squawk when youâre excited, speak a mile a minute even when youâre notâŚâ ShĹta laughs, all soft and fond and Hizashi is ascending. âBut itâs calming. I feel- at ease, when youâre talking. Maybe thatâs why I feel so wound up right now.â
He drops his hands, tipping his head down and sighing low. âYou said you had something to tell me, today. I⌠want to hear it, in your words, in your voice. Iâm bad at dealing with a lot of things, but theyâre- a little easier, if itâs you saying them.â
Hizashi is staring and ShĹta keeps his face pointedly away, bringing a hand up to scratch awkward through his hair as the seconds tick by.
ââŚI think I know what you want to say to me,â he announces, finally. âYouâre worse at hiding things than you think.â
Hizashi isnât sure if he wants to squawk offendedly or babble apologies, but neither make it out. He just stares, his own face starting to feel hot, his glasses continuing their trajectory right off of his nose.
âI think I already know what Iâm going to say to you, about it. And I know why you donât want to wait, and I know itâs your birthday. But-â ShĹta peeks up, pausing to stretch a hand out, to press a single finger to the bridge of Hizashiâs glasses so he can carefully ease them back up into place. Itâs achingly intimate. âIâm going to be selfish and ask you to hold back until you can tell me properly. And when you do, Iâll give you a proper answer.â
Even if he were able to speak, Hizashi thinks he might be dazzled speechless.
âWhen you canât talk you canât talk me out of bad decisions, or say something so embarrassing I regret them, so.â ShĹta lifts his head a fraction higher. âIâm going to talk myself into something ridiculous so you have the power to be patient, and so I get whatever is possessing me out of my system. No, you are not allowed to do an interpretive dance about it. No, I will not be reading whatever you type. This is just- a thing that I am doing, that will happen because I want it too, and then it will be over and we will order takeout.â
Hizashi is aware of the space between them inching smaller, of the hand that was on his glasses touching his cheek instead and klaxons in his head so loud they might come out of the shocked ring his lips are forming if that ring wasnât being stoppered up by another mouth covering his with a kiss that lives up to its giverâs name and erases every thought straight out of his head.
ShĹta pulls away, whole face dark red, eyes darting over Hizashiâs dreamy expression before heâs on his feet, back turned, shoulders up around his ears.
âTakeout,â he repeats.
Hizashi doesnât try to answer. He gives a thumbs up to everything, all of this, and listens to ShĹtaâs flustered ramble all the way out of the room.
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Chapter one of my Oboro-centric erasercloudmic fic for @bnha-big-bang is out!
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Pro-Hero Oboro knows the last fight he was in went badly, but he wasnât expecting to wake up stranded in a city that seems all muddled up with nobody responding to his distress calls. Heading to U.A. for help only makes things worseâhe finds his best friends waiting, which would be great if they hadnât died years ago.
Now stuck in a world where things went very differently, Oboro has to reckon with the people he never got to grow up with, the sometimes familiar kids they teach, and a Nemuri who is so close to the one he left behind that sometimes itâs easy to forget this world is really a mirror.
But mirrors donât just reflect what you want to see in them. As Oboro becomes more convinced he wants to keep this life heâs stumbled into, he has to reckon with the knowledge that the spot heâs filling is likely not as empty as it seemsâŚ
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With art by @kibbles-bits and @shabby-illustrations and beta'd by the lovely @sarathewise and @aimeramie !! Check it out!
Erasercloudmic, very fluffy, injury-based hurt/comfort drabble from my twitter giveaway!
âHold still,â was a useless thing to say to Oboro, but ShĹta couldnât help but try. It did nothing to stop Oboroâs leg twitching back and forth, an attempt to evade the sting of the antiseptic-soaked cloth Aizawa hovered ready for each and every moment he could strike the open wound on Oboroâs knee with another cleaning swipe.
Hizashi hovered nervously nearby, gaze on Oboroâs twisting expression. His arms tucked in closer around himself, hands rubbing his sides in little agitated pulses ShĹta was tracking from the corner of his eye. That was something it would take more than antiseptic to solve.
âIt wasnât your fault,â he announced.
Oboroâs gaze followed the words straight to Hizashiâs frown, his brows rising. âDude. It was not your fault are you kidding?â
A nervous bleat came out of Hizashi, hand slamming up over his lips to muffle it, and the words that followed. âIt sorta was! If Iâd kept my mouth shut-â
âIf you hadnât used your Quirk? In a class about using our Quirks?â
âIf Iâd been more careful-â
âIn a class,â ShĹta expanded as Oboro was distracted by another hiss of pain, âabout practising using our Quirks, that we are still developing, and canât be expected to use perfectly yet? Yes. Of course. If only you had already had the training we are currently receiving.â
Hizashi stopped pacing. âI know not to aim it at other people!â
âYou canât be expected to know how to deal with idiots-â ShĹta got the whole cloth over the injury this time, pressing it down over the wound and ignoring Oboroâs little foot-stomp whines. â-Who come hurtling into your impact range on a cloud.â
Oboro nodded emphatically, which was only partially due to the rabbit-thump foot-bounce level of pain he was in. âHonestly I kinda deserved the face plant! And the scrapes. Learned my lesson and all that!â
It did very little to convince Hizashi, who kept lingering back, shoulders hunched in and chin tucked down. The look didnât suit him. ShĹta and Oboro shared a look, before Oboro was stretching his arms out and making little beckoning fingers twitches towards the tragic figure of their boyfriend. âCâmere, Zashi. Come on. If you feel sorry for this poor, injured victim-â
âOboro,â ShĹta complained.
â-okay, this not actually badly hurt guy, come give me a hug. Thatâd make me feel miles better.â
âI canât just hug the damage away,â Hizashi mumbled.
âYou can hug away the damage in my heart~ The emotional trauma~â
âHe does not have any emotional trauma,â ShĹta clarified, smacking Oboroâs less injured leg. âHe is exaggerating. You should still hug him to shut him up.â
After a reluctant moment of consideration, Hizashi shuffled in, yelping when they seized him the moment he was in reach. He was bundled into both their arms, squeezed in between them, legs bent up over Oboroâs already bandaged arm so ShĹta could keep working uninterrupted by the body in the way.
Oboro pressed a kiss to his temple. âIf weâre gonna have a joint agency, figuring out kinks like this is important! And Iâm okay. Really, no jokes! Iâve done worse to myself when Iâm messing with my own Quirk. I can take you putting me on blast.â
âIf you donât stop moving this leg I will also be putting you on blast,â ShĹta muttered, but not without adding his own kiss to Hizashiâs arm. âIt wasnât your fault. It was his fault.â
âHey! It was an accident!â
âYes. That is what I meant to say. Obviously.â
Hizashi finally started to unwind, sinking into the hold and kisses, head dropping to Oboroâs shoulder. âIâm still sorry.â
âAnd I still forgive you,â Oboro replied, sneaking him a kiss to the corner of his mouth this time. âDonât sweat it, Zashi. Iâm okay!â
He bumped their temples together. âWeâre okay.â
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
Chapters: 1/1, 1732 words
Fandom: Boku No Hero Academia
Rating: General
Relationships: Aizawa Shouta/Yamada Hizashi
Additional Tags:Â Marriage Proposal, Marriage, And Then Take-Out, Established Relationship, Beaten-Up Boys
They really couldâve died today. It lit a dizzy fire in Hizashiâs chest, one heâd carefully smothered the times it tried to light before that his heavy hands couldnât bring themselves to cover now.
âHey Eraser,â he smiled wider, âwant to get married?â
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Hizashi and ShĹta recover from a close call. It leads some unexpectedly expected places. Based on this post by @punkpresentmic
Erasercloud winter break fluff. The final of my twitter giveaway drabbles.
Oboro had promised ShĹta something worth seeing, and if that turned out to just be the ridiculous face he was making, tongue still out between his teeth and cold-reddened nose scrunched up with concentration, ShĹta would honestly be happy.
It wasnât like heâd been busy over winter break. His homework was all already finished, his studies ahead of schedule, so the idea of some time with Oboro had been a gift in itself, even before promises of exciting sights were included. Heâd been dressed and out the door embarrassingly quickly after Oboro texted, and now he found himself settled on a swing in the playground between their homes, seat swept free of snow and gloves now curled around the chilled metal chains.
Oboro continued to focus, hands cupping the air in front of his chest and eyes locked on it with enough intensity ShĹtaâs hair wouldâve been vertical if heâd done the same. Oboro didnât need a stare to turn his hair vertical, of course. Where wisps of it escaped from beneath his horrifically neon knitted hat, they were still reaching and swirling up towards the pale grey sky, turned a silver to match.
ââŚSo,â ShĹta said at last, âam I watching you give yourself a migraine, or.â
âShh!â Oboro wiggled his fingers mysteriously. âI found out something cool, okay? Iâm not great at it yet- Youâll like it! I hope youâll like it. Oh jeez please like it.â
He tucked a warm smile into his scarf, blaming his pink cheeks on the cold. âI make no such promises.â
âShĹta,â he whined, âitâll be great! Have some faith!â
âI never said I didnât have faith. Iâm still sitting here, arenât I?â
âYou are. Your ass must be freezing.â
ShĹta snorted, gaze dipping away. âThis is not the most comfortable Iâve ever been. I might be frozen in place.â
âThen maybe thatâs why youâre still sitting here!â
âYouâll just have to amaze me enough I leap to my feet, so you can find out.â
âI will!â Oboro puffed his cheeks up, deflating just as fast. âProbably? Maybe. No! I will!â
âYou can do it,â ShĹta assured him. âIâm ready to be awed.â
Oboro took visible strength from the words, redoubling his focus on the space he was guarding. It shifted; a swirl of glittering flakes that eddied quickly out, washed out by a stronger swirl.
His smile spread as the crystal white did, flowering fractals bursting into the familiar expanse of a cloud condensed into palm-sized perfection, surface frosted with diamond facets all shimmering in the surreal winter light and making the pale fluff seem even paler than normal, so white it seemed to glow.
Oboro held it delicately up, floating just above his palms, his eyes on ShĹta now and brimming with excitement. âI did it! Look!â
âItâs⌠a cloud,â ShĹta replied, faintly bemused. âA very pretty cloud. And small.â
âYes!â He took a step closer, carefully herding his creation with him until he was right in front of ShĹta and could show him it up close. âGive it a second, okay? It takes a minute to start working.â
ShĹta peered at it, waiting with bated breath and head dipped forward to make sure he didnât miss whatever working looked like. Oboro was vibrating, excited, looking like he might burst any moment-
-But the cloud burst first, a single speck drifting down from it to his palm, and then another, and another, ShĹtaâs eyes widening as he watched the tiny snowfall drift fluttering paths to Oboroâs skin and sparkle in the few seconds before each flake melted away.
âYou made a snow cloud,â he said, suitably impressed, actually.
âI made a snow cloud! Itâs really small right now but- But if I figured this out, maybe I can do rain now, maybe I can do storms, all the Super Moves Iâve had planned and I couldnât work out-â His grin was all the sunshine the winter was lacking. âShĹta look how cool this is!â
Ah, ShĹtaâs smile was soft, and he had to pull his gaze back to the snow when that face was so easy on the eyes. He reached out, catching a single tiny flake on his fingertip, preserved amongst the wool for him to admire.
âWorth seeing,â he agreed, heat of the words melting the glitter away.
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Erasercloud drabble from a giveaway I did on my twitter!
ShĹta was increasingly sure that the text conversations he had with Oboro were the absolute worst example of the texting art form since its creation.
Oboro would send him an elaborate, multi-part message with random words replaced with emoji he claimed made sense, while ShĹta had to figure out if âđď¸đđť lolâ meant Oboro had seen a cute cat, seen someone who looked like a cat (with a very strange eye condition), or if heâd made eye contact with a cat, fallen instantly in love, and was now suggesting they break up so he could run away with his feline lover.
Anxiety liked to add weird addendums like that. It was fine.
In return, what Oboro got from ShĹta was one word, or even more excitingly sometimes two words, which were almost always, oh, yes, no, maybe, or variations thereof. It must have been awful writing enough words to max out the character count ShĹta hadnât even known existed multiple times only to get a sure in return. He just didnât have much to say, or nothing he felt could be summed up in a text, and the idea of breaking out the emoji to add colour to his texts made ShĹtaâs face pull into what he was sure Oboro would describe with an đ.
Just write whatever youâre thinking, Hizashi had suggested, but ah. That was- well.
The thoughts in his head whenever Oboro texted him werenât the sort he could just type out so brazenly. I have no idea what those emoji mean so Iâm imagining you found a dog on the moon and it made me laugh, do you think you could even float that high? Iâm still thinking about the picture you sent me a week ago, I see it every time I close my eyes and I still have no idea what it actually is. I can see your unfinished homework in the background of the photo you sent me and now I canât focus on anything else because you need to do that homework maybe I should come over there and make you do it.
He couldnât just write that. He couldnât write, I heard my phone buzz and ran over, how do you always know when Iâm having a bad day. Your messages make me smile. I love the way you type, I love that I can hear it in your voice. I love that nobody else I know writes like you do, and I donât think you write like this to anybody else.
He couldnât write I love that you always send me pictures of your shoes to show me youâve got out somewhere, I love that you call them adventures. I love that you always text me good morning and good night, even if you always get the times wrong. I love that you send me multiple selfies and get me to pick the one everyone else gets to see, and that Iâm the only one who gets to see them all.
So Oboro sent him an essay, some photos, too many emoji to translate. ShĹta thought, I love this, and I wish you knew how much it means to me that you still write me all these words and send me all these thoughts, that you tell me all these secrets and are so patient when I canât put anything into words to reply.
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
Chapters: 1/1, 3744 words
Fandom: Boku No Hero Academia
Rating: General
Relationships: Aizawa Shouta & Yamada Hizashi
Additional Tags: Manga Spoilers, Mentioned Shirakumo Oboro, Age Regression/De-Aging, Trauma, Emotional Hurt, Hurt No Comfort, Past Character Death, Background Erasermic
Stop, stop, he wants to turn the record back but his tongue won't move, his hands are stuck.
"I mean is Oboro on his way or what?"
ShĹta doesn't know how he doesn't break. He feels the shear spike from his hip to his throat. The pressure of guilt is the only thing that keeps his messy pieces together, just like always, numbing cold that won't sink deep enough to soak up all the pain.
It's only a few days.
"He's busy," he lies.
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Hizashi is seventeen again. Aizawa invites the punishment on himself.
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
Chapters: 1/1*, 3738 words
Fandom: Boku No Hero Academia
Rating: General
Relationships: Shirakumo Oboro/Aizawa Shouta/Yamada Hizashi, Shirakumo Oboro & Aizawa Shouta & Yamada Hizashi & Eri & Shinsou Hitoshi
Additional Tags: Manga Spoilers, Adoption, Family Bonding, Domestic Fluff, First Meetings, Post-[Spoiler] Oboro, Trauma, clouderasermicweek2020
*Part 2 of a series
âBefore we found you, we were⌠considering adoptions.â
âPlural,â he managed to blurt.
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In which Hizashi and ShĹta had domestic plans before Oboro came home, and Oboro is about to meet two very important people. For clouderasermic week 2020!