i really wanted to delete this blog but I dont have any outlets. My parents keep sabotaging everything in my life! They hide my things, turn off my internet so I cant work or look for new jobs, they're preventing me from seeing my boyfriend. I love my boyfriend so much, I dont feel love from him though. He focuses on my body more than he does me and getting to know me. He doesnt care when I tell him things, show him my favorite songs, show him my life :( IT HURTS. I just want him to love me. It makes me so sad because im literally in love with him and he is my first real love. I believe he does love me but I don't know if he's truly in love with me like i am with him. Everything in my life is falling apart. Im trying to do the right thing but I have NOBODY. I just want to tell everyone to fuck off because they all make me want to kill myself but I cant find my gun lmao













