#kookjinau

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seokjin pretends to sleep one night, staying up to catch jungkook in the act of leaving. “seokjin?” he hears jungkook whisper softly, as to make sure he’s asleep. “i love you.” then he feels a kiss planted on the side of his head, before jungkook quietly slips out of bed. immediately, seokjin sits up. “you love me? then why do you keep sneaking out like this? you think i haven’t noticed?” jungkook rushes back over to seokjin’s side. “oh my god, you knew? i’m sorry, i should have just told you. i just didn’t want you to worry and stop me.” the hurt that seokjin feels in this moment is unlike any he’s felt. he can’t believe the words he’s hearing out of jungkook’s mouth right now. was their relationship nothing to him? tears start streaming down seokjin’s face, vision blurred, as he looks at his husband. “you should have just told me, jungkook. i wouldn’t have stopped you. i would have let you go, if you’re so unhappy with me…” panicked, jungkook holds his crying husband close, kissing his face, despite the tears. “no no no, you make me so happy. this has nothing to do with you. i started way before we were ever together. i love you so much. i’m sorry i didn’t tell you.” “before we were even together? so am i… did i get in the way?”

“no! i know you would never get in the way of me being there for other people! i know you’d understand that people need me out there. it’s not you, it’s me. i promise.” “what? you think i’d stay if you didn’t stop?” now seokjin’s angry. he pushes jungkook off of him. “y-you want me to stop?” “you think i’ll stay while you’re out there sleeping with other people? are you kidding me? our trust is completely broken!” “wait, what are you talking abou-” “i gave you my everything, jungkook! i gave you as much love as i could—”

“wait, baby, i don’t think we’re on the same pa-” “—but that doesn’t mean i’ll let you go and be unfaithful to me. did you think you could just get away with it?” “seokjin… baby…” jungkook tries to reach out for seokjin’s, but his hands are swatted away. “what? don’t ‘baby’ me. you think you could just sweet talk your way out of this one?” seokjin says angrily. jungkook chuckles. “you have it wrong. i love you. i love you and nobody else. i’m all yours. we aren’t talking about the same thing right now.” when seokjin doesn’t reply, jungkook continues. “i’m sorry i sneak out at night. i’m a super hero. i fight crime at night. i’m sorry i didn’t tell you. like i said, i’ve been doing this for a long time and i didn’t tell you because i didn’t want you to be worried.”

“so you’re not cheating on me?” “no! i would never do that. i’m yours.” jungkook hugs seokjin. “i’m sorry i gave you the wrong idea. i’ll do better to show you that i love you, so you don’t have these types of insecurities.”

“no… you,” seokjin sighs, “you’re perfect. you’re fine. i jumped to conclusions. i know you love me. i’m sorry.” after a few moments of hugging and silence, seokjin speaks again. “so… where were you going?” “well i was going to go to my base and get my costume-”

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jinkook au where jungkook is a serial dater, dating people for a week to a couple months before leaving and finding someone new to date. seokjin is his best friend, since childhood, who’s been in love with him for years.

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“oh wow, a third date?” seokjin asks, as jungkook quickly gathers his things and heads for the door. “yeah! i really like him. i’ll see you later seokjinnie!” jungkook grins at seokjin before exiting seokjin’s house. seokjin sighs when the door is shut. he only wishes good things for jungkook, but he knows it won’t last much longer with this new guy. jungkook has a track record of dating people for a short amount of time before leaving. seokjin can say he knows his best friend really well, but he has no idea why jungkook dates like this. he doesn’t know much about him when it comes to romance. whenever he asks, jungkook never goes into details, always giving him short answers. “she’s allergic to dogs. i love dogs. it will never work out!” “i don’t like the way they eat, it’s really messy. makes me lose my appetite.” “he snores when he sleeps. i can’t be with someone i can’t even sleep next to.” seokjin figures he just gets bored easily and has commitment issues, like he’s always had. ever since they were young, jungkook was never able to stick to one hobby. he could never settle for one and would move on to the next. since elementary school, jungkook would make a new group of friends every year and his friendships from the previous year would just die out, naturally. he could never finish the last bite of his food or finish an entire movie because he would just get bored of it. seokjin has been the only constant in jungkook’s life for a long time. they’ve been friends since they were kids. they met in kindergarten, becoming each other’s first best friends. they’ve been inseparable ever since. it’s been 20 years since then. at some point, seokjin found himself in love with jungkook. he doesn’t know when it happened. maybe he’s always loved him. sometimes, he questions if he’s actually in love at all. he’s never experienced it before with anyone else, so how does he know it’s love? seokjin tries to put himself out there, as jungkook does. he goes on a date once or twice a year. he’d go more often but something with jungkook always comes up when he plans dates. jungkook takes top priority in his life. he knows he’s also jungkook’s top priority. at the end of the day, seokjin can’t imagine end game with anyone but jungkook. and maybe that’s why he believes he’s in love. imagining life, growing up and growing old, with someone else was simply unimaginable. a thought he couldn’t even fathom. part of him thinks that someday jungkook will find someone he’ll fall in love with. seokjin will still be in his life, in that case. that’s enough for him. another part of him thinks that maybe jungkook will reciprocate his feelings, but seokjin would never actively seek it. if jungkook wanted to be with seokjin, he would ask seokjin out on dates and not seek out other people. jungkook isn’t exactly shy about asking people on dates, so by now… well, that’s just what seokjin thinks. seokjin checks the time. it’s 7pm, dinner time, but he has no appetite. he’s okay with eating dinner alone, but knowing that jungkook is having dinner with someone else just makes him feel lonely. he decides he’ll take a little nap on the couch and then eat when he wakes up. he’s also exhausted from doing nothing today. jungkook came over to hang out, but they didn’t do much together. they just co-existed—jungkook playing video games on his computer, while he watched movies on his own. he sets an alarm for 1 hour and falls asleep on the couch.

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seokjin wakes up in his bedroom. how did he get here? it's 11pm. what happened to his alarm? the first thing he sees when he walks out of his room is a bag of takeout boxes. in the kitchen, on the dish rack, he sees a dish and a pair of chopsticks that have been washed. on the couch, jungkook is sleeping. the tv is on, but nothing is playing, just a “are you still watching?” screen. he must’ve fallen asleep watching something. it seems that jungkook brought dinner for the two of them, but ended up eating by himself because seokjin was sleeping. he guesses jungkook must have carried him to his room and then ate by himself. how did he sleep through all of that? seokjin heats up the food and eats by himself, not paying much attention to the sleeping jungkook, but his heart felt full just knowing jungkook was near him. while seokjin is washing his dish, he hears jungkook stretch and walk over to the kitchen for a glass of water. “finally awake?” seokjin asks, as he dries his hands and goes to sit on the couch, still warm from jungkook’s body heat. “barely.” jungkook replies, taking big gulps of water, before following seokjin to the couch. “were you comfy?” “yeah, but it’s not as comfy as you and your bed. i didn’t want to wake you though.” jungkook smiles. it was so easy to imagine them being in a relationship, having a life together. they existed seamlessly together in the same space. it was all so comfortable and natural. but reality is different. seokjin looks over at jungkook to see hickeys on his neck. he only lets himself feel hurt for a second before smiling back at jungkook. “so how was your date?” seokjin questions. “it was barely a date. he just brought me to his house and then… well his bedroom was so messy, i had to leave. we didn’t eat so i bought some dinner for us to eat together, but you were asleep so… yeah.” seokjin chuckles. “you let a messy room get in the way of-” “i don’t sleep—have sex—with people, seokjin.” jungkook cuts in, sounding irritated. seokjin has never received this type of reaction from jungkook before. it throws him off a little. “i’m sorry, i didn’t mean to assume. i’ve just always thought you-” seokjin tries to apologize, but is cut off again. “i get it! you see me covered in marks and just assume i sleep around. i date a lot too. and i never fixed you when you just assumed—and i never talk about my dating issues with you—just know i don’t though. i never let it get that far.” “okay, i got it… is everything okay?” seokjin is worried. he doesn’t understand why he’s acting this way. jungkook takes a deep breath. then he moves seokjin’s arm so that he can lay his head in seokjin’s lap and make himself comfortable, placing seokjin’s hand in his hair, something jungkook does when he feels stressed and needs comfort from seokjin. naturally, seokjin starts combing through his hair. they stay like this in silence for a while. “i think i want to stop dating.” jungkook finally says. “why?”

“it just never feels right. other people just… don’t feel right on my skin. people just want me for something i don’t want to give them. it’s exhausting. do people think i’m easy? i just don’t want to do it anymore. i don’t want to deal with dating anymore."

“that’s okay jungkook. it’s your decision. you… you’re amazing. i’m sorry that other people don’t see that.” seokjin doesn’t really know what the right thing to say is, but he says it anyway, hoping it would make jungkook feel better. jungkook reaches above his head to hold seokjin’s hand, stopping him from combing through his hair. he sits up completely and looks at seokjin. “can i sleep here tonight?” jungkook asks. “of course you can, you always can.” seokjin smiles. with that, jungkook pulls seokjin off the couch and together, they go into seokjin’s room.

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seokjin thinks maybe his view on best-friendships is a little skewed from being best friends with jungkook. they cuddle often. they hold each other closer than he’s seen friends hold each other. he thinks that’s just their unique friendship. everyone’s a little different, right? except not everyone is in love with their best friend. seokjin always feels a little guilty when jungkook holds him close like this. he feels a little guilty when they sleep together like this. he feels a little like he’s taking advantage of jungkook’s friendship. he feels bad that he enjoys being held like this because it means something different for him, but he would never say anything to jungkook. “can’t sleep?” he hears jungkook mumble from above him. seokjin is lying in jungkook’s arms, head on his chest. he can feel the rise and fall of jungkook’s chest as he takes a deep breath. jungkook moves, gently pushing seokjin off his body so that he can sit up to turn on the bedside lamp to a dim setting. then he lays down, making himself comfortable again, throwing an arm and a leg over seokjin’s body, looking at seokjin at eye level. seokjin blinks a few times to adjust to the light. “how did you know i wasn’t asleep?”

“you just didn’t breathe like you were asleep, i guess? we laid here for an hour and it just didn’t sound or feel like you were sleeping.” jungkook explains. “you know what i feel like when i sleep? weirdo. doesn’t that mean you weren’t sleeping either?” seokjin smiles. “i always fall asleep after you. you sleeping helps me sleep. is there something on your mind?” “not really. i was just enjoying being held by you.” seokjin admits. he presses his mouth shut so that he wouldn’t accidentally say more. he can feel himself warming up with blush. “you’re doing that thing with your lips when you silence yourself. tell me!” jungkook laughs. seokjin pushes jungkook’s leg off of himself and turns around. immediately, jungkook moves closer to throw his leg over seokjin again, holding him close from behind. “just tell me!”

“it’s really nothing. like i said, i was just enjoying being held by you. that’s it.” jungkook hugs seokjin tightly and gives him a kiss on the back of his head. “good thing I enjoy holding you then, hm? get some sleep. i’m not going anywhere.”

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jungkook sleeps over more often now. they hang out more often too. it’s been 3 months since he decided he would stop dating.

instead of spending time and energy meeting new people and going out with them, jungkook has spent all that extra time with seokjin. they go out to eat, go out for walks, hikes, bike rides. they go indoor rock climbing, play tennis, take boxing lessons together… on lazy days, they cuddle on the couch, watch shows, play video games, order take out… discovering new things to do and places to go together, but also enjoying what they’ve always enjoyed.

this is what dating should be like, right? jungkook wonders if this is what being in a relationship is supposed to feel like. he started to see the difference between his dates and seokjin. he just loves seokjin so much. he’s spent a lot of time with seokjin before, he was always over at seokjin’s place. but now, he was pretty much living with seokjin. he barely went back to his own apartment.

everything was so much easier and more comfortable with seokjin. he didn’t have to play himself up or worry about what seokjin might think of him, because he already knew.

since he stopped seeing other people, he started to realize seokjin was the person he wanted to be with, maybe some part of him always knew. he can’t help but feel like seokjin wants to be with him too.

he notices the ways in which seokjin adjusts himself to fill his needs. it’s something seokjin has always done, but he's really seeing it, now that his focus is entirely on seokjin. he notices that when he struggles to choose something from the menu, seokjin would just order it all, and they would share and take the leftovers home. he loves when seokjin feeds him. he notices that there are some days when seokjin wants to watch a movie, but will watch a short cartoon instead with him. he loves that he can stay awake for the whole show without falling asleep halfway. and when he does fall asleep, seokjin cuddles with him on the couch. he notices that seokjin always tries his hardest to beat him when they play sports or games. and when he’s not good at something, he’ll practice a lot to get better. he loves that seokjin knows he loves the challenge. he notices that seokjin is always neat and always cleans up right away. this probably isn’t something he does for jungkook, but he appreciates it so much. he hates mess and so does seokjin. in fact, he probably hates mess because he’s grown up with such a tidy seokjin. isn’t this what love is? isn’t this how seokjin shows him that he loves him?

tonight, those thoughts hit him like a ton of bricks as he lays in seokjin’s bed, arms and legs tangled with each other, while seokjin’s telling some story about work.

it all hits him. “-and he kept messing up because he was laughing so hard!” seokjin laughs as he’s telling the story.

“seokjin…”

seokjin gathers himself to stop laughing, but still smiling. “yeah?”

“how did you feel when i was dating all those other people?” “i mean it wasn’t great, but whatever makes you happy jungkookie, i’ll support you.” “… i hated whenever you had dates.” jungkook admits. seokjin laughs, not really understanding where this is going. “yeah, i could tell! remember when you called me right before i had to leave for my date last year. and for what? to help you organize your closet?” “i just didn’t want you to go.” jungkook admits. “you could just tell me that next time.” “if i told you not to go, you wouldn’t?” “of course!” “okay… then,” jungkook untangles himself from seokjin and sits up, leaning on the headboard of the bed, “don’t go on dates with other people anymore.” seokjin follows, sitting up, leaning over to look at jungkook’s face with a worried expression on his. “okay, i wont. what’s this about?” “i don’t want you to be with anyone else. it’s selfish, but i want to occupy all your free time. i just want to… i love you, seokjin.”

“i love you too. are you scared i won’t love you anymore if i go on a date or something?”

“no seokjin. i love you. i want to be with you. i want this. us. all the time, like we have been for the past 3 months. and honestly, before that too, probably. i don’t want to date and i don’t want you to date either, unless it’s us.” jungkook looks down at his hands. he’s scared to look at seokjin’s face. scared of being rejected. but he feels so confident that his feelings are reciprocated that he just said it all. for just a moment, there’s silence. then seokjin reaches over to hold jungkook’s hand. “how long have you felt this way?” seokjin asks. “i don’t know. forever? but i’m feeling it more right now.” “forever? but you dated all those people.”

“but none of them lasted and none of them felt right. they weren’t you. i think i always knew it was you, but i only realized it recently. i didn’t know that you wanted to be with me before either. but recently… it just feels like you do, or at least i’m only noticing it now…” jungkook lifts his head to look at seokjin. “you do right?” seokjin moves closer to jungkook, tightening his grip on jungkook’s hands. “of course i do! i’ve loved you for years jungkook. are you telling me we could have been together this whole time?” jungkook pulls his hand out of seokjin’s and with both hands, he rubs his face. “oh god we’re so stupid. we’re so dumb. friend don’t do what we do and yet… somehow neither of us knew?” “what do we do?”

“seokjin, every night, i hold you like you’re the love of my life—you are, by the way. and every night, i have to stop myself from…” jungkook grunts, shaking his thoughts away, then continues, “best friends aren’t like that.”

“i’m the love of your life?” seokjin starts to cry. he’s been in love with jungkook, feeling guilty about it for so long, and to learn that his feelings are reciprocated was overwhelming. “baby, don’t cry.” jungkook hushing seokjin, pulling him into his lap. “baby?” seokjin cries a bit harder than before, scooting himself closer on jungkook’s lap. “why are you crying?” jungkook uses his sleeve to wipe away tears falling down seokjin’s face. “you love me. i’ve been… nevermind. i’m just happy.” seokjin laughs while crying." jungkook pulls seokjin into a hug, rubbing his back to comfort him. “you feel right on my skin.” seokjin sniffles, still crying. “oh my god. you’re so weird. who says that?” “but you love me.” “yeah, and you love me.” jungkook pushes seokjin off his lap so they can lay down again, so he can hold seokjin in his arms, as he does almost every night. “stop crying, your snot is getting all over my shirt.” jungkook chuckles. “s-“ seokjin sniffles, “sorry.” then he fully wipes his face on jungkook’s shirt. “seokjin! ugh, that’s so gross!” “are you going to leave me?” “… no. but that’s still gross.” seokjin laughs, getting up. “i’ll go wash my face.” when seokjin gets back, jungkook isn’t wearing a shirt anymore. he was probably too lazy to get up and get a different shirt. seokjin climbs back into bed, back into jungkook’s arms. he loves feeling jungkook’s bare skin. “so we’re boyfriends now right?” jungkook asks. “if you want to be.” “so… i can kiss you?” “yes. you kissed me before, but you’re asking now?” “you know what i mean…” seokjin turns his body over so he’s facing jungkook and pecks his lips, then goes back to his former position before jungkook can see any blush forming on his face. “goodnight!” seokjin says. jungkook holds him a little tighter after that. seokjin can feel his heart beating faster through his chest. seokjin falls asleep like this, loved and happy.

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ok so it’s not an official announcement or anything. he just goes on weverse and replies to a bunch of armys who are posting jungkook pics & wishing him a happy birthday. his replies vary from “ah my jungkookie is so adorable” to “i sleep next to that man every night."

jungkook didn’t tell seokjin where he was headed, who he was looking for, or why he was traveling, but seokjin tagged along anyway. he finds seokjin’s carefree nature refreshing and it helps ease his anxieties.

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