#klya..anon

It was years since Dazai left the Port Mafia.

You were his other subordinate, besides Akutagawa. The ways he treated you both were entirely different - it usually ended in you being forced to watch Dazai 'train' Akutagawa, while he later patted your head, praising you for being good, which was standing by his side and watching as he mistreated others. Of course, after that, you would treat any of Akutagawa's wounds. Dazai treated you so well because you were like him, but why didn't he treat Akutagawa the same? You never understood.

Dazai spoke to you once before leaving - ordering you to stay put. He even injured you, breaking a few of your fingers and telling you to say you had gotten into a fight before he left, so you wouldn't be suspected in aiding his treason.

While you were glad that Akutagawa would no longer have to suffer by his hands - you were somewhat upset by him leaving. While some of the others were fine with comforting you, it wasn't the same as when Dazai did it. You couldn't help but miss the times he would praise you and pat your head for doing well.

But over time, you changed. You'd learned how to cope a much better way, and instead of wanting his praise and affection, you grew colder to anyone who tried showing you any kind of love. When others in the mafia tried to comfort you over him leaving, they'd watch as you became cold to them, not letting yourself be vulnerable to anybody anymore. Akutagawa had also changed - however, he was.. worse. The abuse cycle that had started from Mori had yet to break.

It was about a month after Kyouka had been taken in by the Armed Detective Agency. Mori never told you much about the agency, nothing about who was in it aside from Fukuzawa, Yosano, Atsushi, and Kyouka, and that they were different in many obvious ways, but had a form of alliance to defeat the Guild, none of which you'd been involved in. Everyone else was a mystery to you, since you were never given jobs involved with the agency anyway.

It came to your surprise when Mori presented you with a brand new mission of sort, to go with him while meeting with the leader of the Agency. That was unusual - usually Chuuya or Akutagawa did jobs like this, or when you were given one, they took it anyway, just to 'be nice to you'.

But Mori insisted you go, even though he gave you a choice to give it to Chuuya, Akutagawa, or anyone else. Even Chuuya suggested he take the job, not explaining himself, just insisting you let him take it. But this time was different - you were offered this, given an actual chance to be involved with the agency's dealings with the Port Mafia, something you were never given.

Of course you took the job.

You trailed closely behind Mori, following him loyally as you two had walked to the meeting place. If it was held in secret, then why the hell was it outside, anyway?

"[Name]," Mori called to you, turning to meet your eyes. He continued speaking after he knew you were listening. "Fukuzawa-san brought another of his own for the same reason I am bringing you. Just a heads up," Mori cheerfully spoke. Why didn't he tell you beforehand? It didn't matter now, though.

Both you and Mori approached the place to meet with the leader. You could see there was another person with Fukuzawa, but you stood behind Mori, and their upper half had been blocked out. No big deal.

You stepped out from behind your boss, arms crossed above your chest as you eyed the leader of the agency. He looked so kind, a part of you wondered what it'd be like if you were with the agency instead.

But Fukuzawa wasn't the only person you saw.

Standing close behind him was a tall man with dark, wavy chestnut hair, in a long, tan trench coat. He wasn't just any man. That was the familiar face of Osamu Dazai. The youngest executive in the history of the Port Mafia.

And you were his ex-subordinate, right there in front of both. Both of your eyes widened, but you were much more surprised to see Dazai than he was to see you, Like he expected this.

You barely listened to the conversation between Fukuzawa and Mori, only making out a few words - 'Guild', Defeat', 'Fitzgerald', 'Agency', and 'Mafia'. None of them mattered to you as much as they should have. Your eyes flickered between the pavement and Dazai, who stared at you intently, not bothering to hide it. He had an expression that you just couldn't read precisely - it was impossible to tell what he was thinking in the moment. You on the other hand? Your thoughts were clear, a beyond frustrated glare was evident on your face.

It felt like an hour standing there, listening to Mori and Fukuzawa talk, if you could even say you were listening. But it was over only twenty minutes later.

Mori smiled at Fukuzawa, while the other just nodded calmly. Your boss began to walk forward, looking at you to signal you were to walk with him. Fukuzawa and Dazai did the same.

However, when you and Dazai were next to each other, he stopped, turning to look at you. Out of curiosity, you sighed and looked up at him. His eyes were not kind, but a slight smile was etched onto his face. A bandaged hand took your shoulder, and Dazai spoke to you for the first time in years.

"My, how you've grown." Verbal surprise was clear in his voice. Dazai was about to speak again, but you cut him off before he could get a word out. "Don't fucking touch me." The taller brunette sighed, turning his full body towards you this time, not just his head.

He smiled at you, closing his eyes. "You've changed so much. We'll meet again, I'll make sure of it." After finishing his sentence, he began to catch up with Fukuzawa. You stood there, looking at Dazai as he walked off calmly.

While you were upset about how he left you, it wasn't your main concern. Was he not sorry about the way he treated Akutagawa, making you watch as he made him suffer for so long?

Part of you wanted to run after him and punch him, but it wasn't worth it, not now. Even so, the thought seeing him was upsetting, and meeting him again wasn't in your best interest.

being shy was no issue for fyodor. as a matter of fact, he adored it. your nervous tendencies were just so cute. whether he wanted to use your shyness to his advantage to get something he wants, or he simply thinks you're adorable, he can't possibly see it negatively.

he thinks it's just adorable how shy you are, but at the same time, he doesn't care. he doesn't care one bit about your timid nature. fyodor absolutely approves of your softness, how sweet and cute you are.

he likes to comment on it, and put you on the spot in situations simply because he gets to see you nervously shake when you're forced to speak. fyodor finds joy in seeing your embarrassed face, watching a bead of sweat roll down your forehead.

fyodor often belittles you for it. sometimes, he'll comfort you afterward, running a hand down your back gently. not that it really helps or anything, because he isn't sorry.

although fyodor isn't a huge fan of public displays of affection, he'll hold onto your hand in public to help you of some sort. besides, he can't go get anything while you're shaking next to him because of the crowded isles, can he?

after kidnapping you, fyodor will tell you not to cry. he was helping you, was he not? you were safe with him, and nobody else would see your cute, nervous face besides him, and he was very pleased with that.

he doesn't really like yelling at you, but he loves to put you in situations that he knows will embarrass you , all so he can see your face.

if you cry easily, oh my god..

he's so mean pls, definitely tests his limits subtly

one black tendril shot towards you like a bullet, sending you hurling into the dark walls of the clammy, cold basement the moment they came in contact with your body.

"you don't know anything," akutagawa started, pulling the tendril back, while it disappeared. "listen to me once." he ordered rudely, raising his foot to threaten you with a swift kick to the side of your ribs.

looking up with a blank expression but an evident glare in your eyes, you opened your mouth to form words, but the only thing that came out was a high pitched wail. akutagawa had stomped on your sides. nothing hard - it didn't break anything, but it hurt a lot.

"don't you dare speak." he kept his shoe on your side, making sure you knew not to speak unless you wanted anything actually broken. "i've done everything for you and you don't even care about me."

akutagawa denied loving you, but always did everything for you. this hypocrite aku was just upset you didn't love him back. he knew what he did was wrong, but he loved you.

he seriously wanted a serious relationship with you, he wanted you to willingly love him, and he just wanted you to accept his affection, on the rare occasions he gave it. you weren't always in the basement; akutagawa recognized you as another person, and he treated you as such when he felt you deserved it.

"i don't care." those were the only words you could get out, before akutagawa moved his leg and kicked your side again, then walking up to you, where you tumbled over after he kicked you. "selfish brat. i've given you everything."

while what he said was half true, it didn't matter. sure, he gave you things, but to you, he was just an obsessed kidnapper who wanted you to himself. "if anything," you paused to pant and catch breath while akutagawa stared down at you with a scarily angry glare before continuing. he wanted to know what you were going to say. "if anything, it's you. you're the selfish one."

akutagawa frowned. he leaned down quickly, taking a fistful of your hair in his hand. "you're mine, do you understand that? i don't want backtalk, don't disagree with me."

CHUUYA NAKAHARA ;

chuuya is incredibly overprotective. this man has awful trust issues - being betrayed by the people he cared so much for in his past, he just can't risk anything this time.

he's constantly keeping an eye on you, even before he can admit to himself that he loves you. but after he confessed, he understood why he wanted to protect you so much, even if it took time to come to terms with that fact.

if you rejected him, then he tries to tell himself that he would get over it, and that he's been betrayed so much, so why be so upset over simple rejection? you even let him off easy, so there was no reason to be so sad, right? you were still friends.

but chuuya was still upset. his love, no, obsession, didn't go away. he convinced himself it took time to get over something like this, so he took a month doing things to get you off his mind.. but he just couldn't. every single thing reminded you of him, nothing could take you out of his head.

he came to terms with the fact that you just didn't love him, but he didn't care. chuuya knew he was obsessed, and between removing anything that reminds him of you and seeing other people, nothing was working.

so chuuya did what he thought would be best at this point - not to mention, it wasn't his first option, - kidnapping you. being in the port mafia, it especially wasn't difficult to get a hold of some kind of sedative, or any drug for that matter.

obiviously, he didn't want to do this. chuuya could try to convince himself it was for your protection and not his own muse, but it didn't stop the fact you were basically his now. at first. he'll tell himself not to hurt anyone for you, but the moment you're in public, and another man walks up to you and begins to ask for your number, he's already snatching you away without thinking.

chuuya is definitely the type to give you gifts upon gifts, putting money to good use as an apology to you. but even though you tell him the best apology gift would be to let you go, he just gives you something else. you want to go back to your own house? maybe one day, but do you want a dog? they're better company that being by yourself all the time.

he understands you. he knows you want to be free, because he knows what it's like. but chuuya can't just let you go. he's lost so many people, he doesn't want to lose you, too.

RYUUNOSUKE AKUTAGAWA ;

akutagawa will avoid you.

upon meeting, he just thought you were just too bright for him. the man knew he was no good.

he doesn't want to corrupt you, therefore, he stayed away.. but akutagawa found himself following you everywhere. maybe he wanted to protect you of some sort, keeping himself hidden until a weird individual cornered you in an alleyway. thirty seconds later, a dark, black monster thing of some sort that slammed the other into the brick wall next to you. the next thing you saw was a glimpse of a tall man in a coat walking away. you thought it'd be the last of it, but no.

akutagawa spends time stalking you, from picking up objects you dropped after conveniently being there, to putting a knife to the throat of the person who got your coffee order wrong. you told them you were allergic to that specific ingredient, were they TRYING to kill you?

it takes akutagawa so long to even bring himself to talk to you. a simple 'hello' takes hours of looking at himself in the mirror and saying it to make sure he doesn't screw it up and look weird while he actually says it. (same aku, same.)

he'll do anything for you. you could ask him for anything, he'd go get it just because you asked. akutagawa doesn't care if it hurts him, or other people, he craves your love and validation, and reassurance that you don't hate him.

at first, he denies how much he wants you, he tries to tell himself that he needs nobody, especially not you, not someone he needed. but akutagawa could barely run from it, he was so obsessed. he will continue to deny his feelings, but it doesn't stop you.

if you try to run from him, he'll remind you why you're even alive in the first place. if it weren't for him, you would have been dead in an alleyway forever ago. nobody would have saved you that time. who else would treat you the way he does?

like most, tachihara is confused. why were you so quiet? was it him? did he intimidate you? or was it something else?

he was curious, so he did the thing that would likely tell him exactly why you were always silent - he stalked you. whether he was escorting you somewhere after insisting it was for your safety, or it was closely behind you while you ran errands.

tachihara wasn't shameless. he didn't want to stalk you at first, but it's really a winning situation for him. keeping you safe, figuring out why you're so quiet, and learning your interests in hobbies? it's better for both of you, really - now he knows your favorite snacks and things to buy you, and you're especially safe, even though you don't know it.

after stalking you for weeks, tachihara still doesn't understand why you're so quiet. you act that way to everyone, so it can't be him, right? so he outright asked you. after all, who would he be if he couldn't talk to his crush?

"Wait, [Y/N]," Tachihara called to you, reaching his hand out to grab your shoulder and gently turn you around before you left, as not to startle you too much. When he was given a confused look and more silence, he took it as a 'you can speak now' and started to ask. "Sorry, uh.. I just wanted to know why you were so quiet. You've been with the mafia for so long, but you never talk here, or anywhere for that matter.. You good, though?" Tachihara was a little bit nervous, but he didn't mind too much, he just wanted your answer. Then, he heard you speak, one of the few times he had since he met you. "I'm not sure. I just don't." And then, more silence. You turned to walk outside the doors, but Tachihara grabbed your shoulder again. "Wait! Would you wanna go out to eat with me later? At that one restaurant.. " You turned back around to smile nervously at him. "How'd you.. Y-Yeah, sure.. can you text me details? I gotta go.." Tachihara smiled and nodded, putting his hands in his pocket. That was the most he had ever heard you speak since you met! Maybe he was doing something right. Aside from stalking you to figure out your favorite place to eat, of course, but he didn't think about that. "See ya later, [Y/N]!" After Tachihara was alone, he pumped his fist up and cheered himself on quietly. Nice. He had a date!