#kisuck

She begins to ask me a bunch of questions about my comeback and whatnot, we play a quick trivia game, then she gets to the segment she said she was most excited to talk me about.

“So, you have recently went public with your relationship with Simon Dominic.”

The crew makes a sound.

I turn to them, knitting my brows, “are you all fans? You seem enthusiastic.”

“They are,” Jessi fans herself with her cue cards, “you’re a hot topic and it will increase our ratings.”

I make a knowing look and break into a laugh.

“But you know when I heard the news, my immediate thought was you can do better.”

I break into an even louder laugh. The rest of the people on set laugh with me.

Jessi shakes her hands, “no don’t get me wrong, like, I’m friends with Ssam-d oppa, but knowing you and how amazing you are-”

I chuckle and cover my face.

“- like she can do everything, I think-”

“That’s not true.”

“-no, but you really can though. Like, you can sing, dance, act, model, and look at how tall she is!” Jessi shakes her head, “you’re taller than him, aren’t you?”

I raise a finger, “just a bit. When I wear heels, I’m definitely taller.”

“See!” Jessi says, “you’re every person’s dream. You’re the full package. You can do much better, babe.”

We all share a laugh. 

I sigh and shake my head, “that’s what mother said.” 

There in another eruption of even louder laughter.

“SEE!” Jessi calls.

By now, I’m clenching my stomach in laughter. Jessi turns back to me, waving her cue cards around, “now I have to ask. Why are you dating him then?”

“Let’s see,” I sigh and cross my arms, “why am I dating him again?”

Jessi leans into me as she breaks into laughter. I shake my hands, “No, no, no, I’m joking, clearly,” I playfully roll my eyes, “I remember when I met him for the first time, he was really confident and forward. Cause, I’m really forward too, and I don’t think I could ever date a guy who couldn’t handle my strong personality.”

“That’s right. She’s very American-style; very opinionated and honest, like me.”

“Right,” I nod, “what I really liked about him was how thoughtful and sweet he is. He’s patient and understanding, and I can, like, feel safe around him.”

I turn away from her as I continue my thoughts, “you know I think you an tell how much confidence he has, how much swagger, considering he’s a rapper. I fell like he channels that energy into our relationship. He makes me laugh so hard and makes me feel precious with how much he tells me.” I turn back to Jessi, “he’s great.”

Jessi makes a face, “I’m so fucking single.”

We explode into another fit of laughter.

“Okay, so, we’re gonna test that and see just how strong your relationship is.” Jessi explains. “We’re going to have you prank call him,”

“Oooh!” I break into excitement, “okay what do we do?”

Jessi reads her script, “okay, we’re gonna make you call him to see if you can get him to say a key word.”

I nod enthusiastically, “okay, game.”

Jessi reads her card and laughs, “Ya!” She throws her head back, ”you have to get him to say ‘I’m so angry,’”

My face drops, I turn to the producers on set, “ya, I don’t think he’d say that to me though. Do I have to say it exactly?”

The producer tells me no.

Jessi shakes her hands, “Does he never get angry at you? Or like, gets annoyed or irritated. How does he react when you do something like that..”

“You know what, there was this one time where I dropped ice cream on his shirt and he was just like ‘it’s alright, accidents happen.’” I place a hand on my chest, “I felt so much worse though compared to I think how I would if he got mad at me.”

“That can happen. If they’re so nice about something you did wrong, you ending wanting them to just cuss you out.”

The staff laugh at that while I get my phone, “you know what, I’ll try though.”

“Really?” Jessi asks in surprise.

I’m already dialing his number when I suddenly ask, “what do I even tell him?”

“You can just like-” Jessi starts but gets cut off when I look to my phone screen and hear, “Hello?”

“Hi, oppa.”

He hums, “what’s up, baby?”

Jessi breaks into a wide smile.

I break into a smile as well, then ask, “Oppa, are you busy right now? Are you at work?”

“Yeah, I’m at the studio right now.”

“Ah, I’ll be quick then-”

“No, no, it’s good. I always have time for you.”

Jessi suddenly stands and pretends to leave.

I feel my cheeks burn, “aw, thank you, baby.”

His deep voice goes up an octave higher, “of course.”

“Oppa, I just want to ask how you would feel if I hang out with a friend tonight. A guy friend.”

It takes him a long moment to reply. I feel a bit nervous. He speaks, “who is he?”

Jessi and I turn to each other, “No, no, like, hypothetically. I’m not actually hanging out with anyone.”

“Ahhhh,” he sighs in slight relief. His voice trails off “well... I mean you’re your own person, and it’s your friend...”

I wave my hands around, “so, how do you feel about it?”

“It’s okay. Do what makes you happy.”

I break into a soft smile. I then think of something else, “but what if I sleep over at his place?”

Jessi’s jaw slack. He give me a look and I give her a panicked one.

For a moment, I think he drops the line and I turn back to my phone to see if he was still in-call. “Kiseok oppa?”

“...”

“Oppa,” I stand from my seat, “I just want to know how you’d feel. I’m not actually going to do it.”

“I’d be fucking pissed,” he quickly blurts

Jessi calls, “PASS! PASS!” 

I break into a sigh of relief and the crew breaks out of their silence. Jessi gets my phone and says, “oppa, oppa! It’s Jessi.”

He doesn’t respond.

“Your girlfriend and I are doing Jessi Showterview and her mission was to get you to say ‘I’m so angry’ and you just passed with flying colors.”

Kiseok curses again. 

Jessi calls out but then breaks into laughter. She then gives a bow, “I’m sorry for making you angry at your girlfriend.”

He sighs, “actually, I should have seen this coming cause she told me she had an interview today.”

“See! It’s really your fault for getting angry.”

I laugh but he agrees, “I suppose part of it is though. I should be more understanding.”

I get my phone back and pout, “You’re already understanding. Sorry, baby.”

“It’s okay, I’ll have my revenge soon enough.”

I still.